Astral Convergences

Everything for you

S pov

"is it better,babe?"  i ask my shaking wife..it took an hour to calm her down..she nods  "do you wanna tell me what happened?"  she shakes her head  "okay..i'm calling Rachel,i'm not going to work". she tightens the grip around my body and i keep caressing her back.i'm pissed but i want to focus on her,right now..there will be time to get mad at that...i can't find the right words to describe that woman..my blood boils thinking that she could have caused damage to our baby..yeah,i know,i'm selfish..she tried to kill herself and i think about the pregnancy...but...i can't help..my kids are everything to me,together with my wife,of course.i place a soft kiss on her temple  "i think our baby is hungry"  she nods and i get up..i take a deep breath and grab June  "i know,baby.i'm starving..mommy is going to cook a delicious meal for you". i walk towards the high chair but Cari raises her arms  "come to me,baby"  i kiss my daughter who immediately calms down in my wife's hands.i make June's food first,watching them every now and then. "you're so beautiful"  i tell them,smiling.Cari kisses the baby who smiles cutely and tries to grab her mom's lip..my heart melts,seeing a smile on my woman's face..finally...i missed the way her face and her mouth reflect the happiness and the love.when i'm done with June's food, i reach them..Cari looks at me  "do you want to feed her?"  she smiles and i hand her the plate and the spoon.i sit with them,grabbing June from her shoulders.as the baby starts eating,my wife's mood gets better... "you're such a good girl..here.."  i watch them,falling in love more with every move..the baby licks her lip,making us giggle  "awwww...she likes what mommy made"  i tell,kissing her sweet cheeks  "don't distract her..come on,baby girl..there's more".

after we finished eating,we stand up..Cari grabs the plates but i stop her  "not now.the bathtub will be ready in ten minutes"  she nods,smiling  "thank you,babe". i take her hand,leading her to our bedroom..i nuzzle my fingers into her hair,loosening it..i caress her forehead and then i take off her dress...i take a look at her beauty,placing a kiss on her shoulder afterwards.she falls into my arms  "it was terrible"  i hold her tighter  "you don't have to talk about it if you don't want to"  "i...i have to let this weight go..."  i graze her cheek..she takes a deep breath and then  "i went to her because she didn't pick up her phone..i knocked at her door for half an hour..i managed to open and she was..."  a loud sob interrups her narration...my shirt is completely wet by her tears...i patiently wait 'till she's able to speak again. "she was in her bathtub..with an empty bottle of alcohol...she almost got into a coma...fucking bitch"  i cup her cheeks  "so,you saved her?"  "y-yes..but i wanted to kill her for scaring me so much"  i chuckle  "it totally makes sense"  she smiles through tears  "Shannon.."  "i just want to see this beautiful smile"  i tell,touching her face...she pouts  "i don't know how....you know...the baby"  she touches the bump...i get goosebumps  "i don't even want to think about that..i hope she'll recover soon 'cause i have a lot of things to tell her"  "Shannon...she's fragile..it's not her fault"  "i don't give a fuck about her reasons..because,let's be honest,i know why she acted like this..try to deny the truth"  she shakes her head  "i won't..and it's the reason i feel so miserable,right now."  "hey,it's not your fault..come here,princess". 

she's crying again and i feel bad...i'm angry but i can't do anything..i pull away from our hug to remove her underwear.we enter the bathroom..she waits for me to prepare the bathtub and then i grab her hand...she looks at me  "are you not coming inside?"  "umm...i don't know..June's in the playpen"  "please...i need you"  "okay". i throw my clothes to the ground..she takes my hand..i enter and help her to sit between my legs.i wrap my arms around her,putting them on the bump...she cuddles with me and we stay silent for a while. 

"i can't even think about...a miscarriage"  i tell her  "oh boy...please,don't ever say that word,again"  "it's that..i don't understand...if she loves you,she doesn't want to hurt you..why,tho?"  "it's not that easy..she had an hard life...she's alone in the world..i think she sees more than a woman,in me.she sees protection..and other stuff.mostly because i'm a mom..her mind created a connection between her past and her emptiness.she needs true love,the one that a mother can give"  i sigh...i have no words...my wife is so intelligent and i feel stupid..i can't fight her on this. "yeah..maybe you're right...but...i can't believe i'm telling this...she's attractive..why you?she can have all the women"  "she's complicated..she likes empathic people"  "like you"  "exactly"  "what can i say?my woman is the most desirable"  she giggles  "now you know how i feel about you.everybody loves you..you have fans all over the world..let me be the desired one for once"  "Cari...you're out of your mind.by the way,i'm happy our baby is safe"  i reply,kissing her cheek...she places a kiss on my mouth and then closes her eyes.