Astral Convergences

All the beauty in the world

C pov

i'm getting dressed for the birthing class.Shannon walks in and i look at her...everyday she becomes more stunning..i don't know how that's possible..i smirk and reach her,wrapping my arms around her neck  "Shanbee, i'm ready"  she smiles  "you're beautiful" i kiss her "no..actually,i was thinking that everyday you get hotter..tell me your secret"  "you know,i have this amazing woman in my life who's giving me a child..we're getting married..she makes me happy.."  i caress her hair,behind her neck  "oh..so,is it all because of me?"  she tightens her grip on my waist  "i'm the luckiest woman on earth..maybe my appearance reflects this"  my hands are on her face now  "no,i'm luckier"  i place my lips on hers  "alright..we haven't time now for our games..let's go princess". we walk to our car hand in hand and i look at her every now and then..i don't know..today she's irresistible.we get in the car and head to the center.she places her hand on my thigh..i smile because i feel the butterflies on my stomach..i put my hand over hers,intertwining our fingers..she smiles,squeezing me.ten minutes later,she pulls over and i pout  "i'm going to miss you so bad"  "hey baby girl..we've been together all day..maybe you need a break from me"  i shake my head  "no..i want to be next to you"  she smiles  "me too..but i'm afraid that you'll get tired of having me around all the time"  i put her hand on the bump  "even June wants you next to us...day and night"  "aww baby" she gets closer to kiss the part of the body where my daughter rests  "i don't wanna go"  "this kinda looks like i'm taking my daughter to her first day of school..i hope June won't be this sad"  i cross my arms  "it's just that i don't understand why we have to be without our partners today"  she places a kiss on my hand  "you'll find out..c'mom baby girl..we can eat pizza later"  my mood changes  "really?"  she nods  "okay"  i kiss her on the cheek  "i love you"  "i love you, princess..wait,i'm helping you". she reaches me and takes my hands to help me get off..my bump is big now..i'm on the sixth month,about to enter the seventh  "okay..see you later baby"  she tells before kissing me  "bye my love". i enter the room...today,only the mothers with the bumps will attend the class..Ally comes in  "hi girls..today's class is a little different..i want you to explore your intimate feelings in relation to the pregnancy.the reason why your partners aren't here is because i want you to feel free..we'll do a second class,as today,with them...but for now,i want you to focus on you,on what this pregnancy means to you..and the change you have gone through.you have to choose a partner to talk to." interesting...so,this is the reason why i'm alone here without my Shanbee..i sit on the mat and look at my right..Silvia is smiling at me,i smile back  "hey,how're you doing?"  i ask her  "um..i feel...alone"  "yeah,i know..me too.."   "so.."  "so..."  we smile embarrassed  "okay.i know it's weird but i'm going to try..."  i say getting closer to her  "do you want to talk about the pregnancy...or...Pepa...or....i don't know..your job..."  her eyes light up  "oh yes...i miss my job..it was the love of my life before..you know...me and Pepa started dating"  i nod  "are you in vacation now?"  "yes,for the baby..we took a year..but Pepa has to return in summer"  "will you come back in Italy?"  "i don't know..maybe..maybe in Spain..we'll see"  "how did you meet her?"  her smiles goes wider  "we met when we were little girls"  "really?"  "yes..but we lost each other for....fifteen years"  "damn..and how did you find her?"  "we became cops..we met through our job"  "wow,it's like you two are meant to be"  she laughs  "yes.sometimes i wanna kill her..but..i love her so much...she's the other half of me..you know what i mean?"  "totally.me and Shannon are soulmates...we have the same birthday,the same vision of love...same past experiences"  "the same birthday?"  "yes..but she's two years older"  "you're so cute..and for what i saw,i can tell you really love each other"  my eyes start watering  "she's everything...apart from her..."  i say putting my hand upon my bump..Silvia smiles  "you know..when someone is the reason why you wake up in the morning..or why you go to work..or why you breathe...she's that reason for me..."  i say taking a deep breath to stop crying  "and what about the music?...the pregnancy changed something with it?"  she asks "umm..yes..i changed..i'm not the same Cari anymore..i mean,i love music,it's my dream..but my daughter is my reality"  "there are moments when she sends me some special energies..i don't know how to explain it"  "i think i get what you're saying..when i'm sitting on the couch,alone, i feel like she's there with me..and she understands anything..i feel this magical connexion..like we are one..but two separate persons at a time..i don't know if it makes any sense"  "oh yes.."  "but..we feel absolutely complete when Shannon is next to us"  "same for us."