Healing Scars

Chapter Fifty Six

Chapter Fifty Six

Katniss's POV

Chemo has been a kick in the ass for me. It has made me so sick even if I sneeze Kaden and Willow start sobbing. Chemo can make me throw up, loose my eyesight, and make my skin burn.

The cancer makes me forget about everything and it makes me anxious as well. I come down the stairs and panic. "Peeta! I missed my appointment!" I yell as he's coming down the stairs. "Katniss you didn't miss your appointment, it's not until tomorrow." I sigh in relief. "Oh thank god." Peeta kisses my cheek and my earlobe.

"I suggest you go upstairs with me." I raise a eyebrow. "Why?" "Because you are going to get sick soon and I don't want the kids seeing you vomit in the sink again and make them panic to the point of where I have to make sure they're breathing." I go to protest but he shushes me.

"We aren't going to have a relapse of yesterday, come on Mrs. Mellark hustle." I go in front on him and he smacks my ass with a loud crack and I glare at him. He giggles and we make our way up the stairs. I sit on the bed and stare at Peeta as the ocean breeze from the open window hits my back. "Peeta nothing's happening." He has the bathroom door open, my hair up in a pony tail, and a towel on the doorknob.

"Katniss sweetheart it's gonna happen any minute, I know it sucks and your denying it but the brain cancer is there and it's not going away unless we keep doing the chemo." Then all of the sudden my stomach starts flipping, I start getting queasy and I run to the bathroom and vomit into the white toilet with Peeta rubbing my back and kissing the back of my neck. This is worse than morning sickness with either of the kids! I cry as I vomit and I do for a good thirty minutes until Peeta has his cool lips on my sweaty neck and I'm shaking horribly.

He sighs and rests his four head against the back of my neck. "I hate seeing you like this." He mumbles and I stand slowly, turning on the sink and washing my mouth out and take my dark curls down from my pony tail. "I'm sorry Peeta." He cleans the toilet and after I'm done cleaning out my mouth Peeta turns me around and wraps his arms around my weak body. I haven't kissed him in weeks, I just haven't had the urge to.

Maybe it's because I'm just depressed and sick. I can see how badly he wants to kiss me but he knows that I probably won't accept it. I lean in and press my lips to his soft and velvety ones. When I break away tears are rolling down my cheeks. "I'm not leaving you, I'd miss your kisses to much." I say against his lips, running my hands through his soft blond hair.

"I'll miss the feel of your body pressed against mine." I say between slow and soft kisses to his lips. He moans softly and smiles against my lips as tears form in my eyes and I give him one last kiss to his lips and wrap my arms around his neck and sigh into his shirt that smells of cinnamon and dill.

"I love you Peeta." I whisper and he kisses my neck gently. "I love you too Katniss." Then someone bursts through the door and we turn to see Johanna. "And I love you too!" We break away and she plops down onto the bed. "Hey Katniss, how's the pain?" She is talking about my burning skin and it does at this moment feels on fire. "Alright, why?" She pulls out a morphling drip from her bag and I shake my head.

"I can't, you know I'll get addicted to it Johanna." "Oh come on Katniss, just do it, you big baby." Peeta wraps his arm around my waist. "Even if she wanted to I wouldn't let her so no Johanna Mason." She grabs it with a smirk. "Guess more for me." Then a hand snatches it out of her hands. "In your dreams honey." Chip says with a chuckle and walks to the bathroom and starts pouring it down the drain.

Something aches deep within me as he does and my hands start shaking as I watch the magical elixir pour down our drain.

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