Next to You ☼ Jack Avery

thirteen

I laid in my bed at home, I didn't want to be in this house anymore, when I walked in there was no sign of my dad and I was happy about it

all of a sudden I heard the front door open and my dad humming a song

it sounded like he was stumbling

I held my sheets up and pretended like I was sleeping until he came into my room and turned the lights on

I sat up and looked at him and he bursted into laughter

"you look rough as hell" he continued laughing and I realized he was drunk

I got up and helped him to his room

why am I helping him?

I don't know

he laid in bed and I rushed back to my room and grabbed my phone off my nightstand

to Lia
dad just came home drunk

from Lia
asshole

I sighed and sat up just staring at the ceiling

why is this so messy, my dad is being an asshole, my mom is no where to be found, Tonia and Tyson are gone, Lia doesn't even live with me anymore and i'm kinda alone through this and on top of this, i'm in love with my friends with benefits

I shut my door and set up my phone, my dad wont wake up because no type of sleep is stronger then a drunk sleep

I pulled out the keyboard from under my bed and started singing

I always say I don't want to go anywhere with singing but for me its one of the best ways to get my emotions out and move on from things, just like writing a song about it and singing it is amazing

I played the beginning of ride slow by russ on the piano and lightly sang

We been goin' back and forth, you think I only want sex
Of course I want it, look at you but that ain't my intentions

I wonder what would happen if I told Jack I wanted more out of us then just sex, I stopped the music and leaned back against my bed

I don't know if its a good idea for me to tell him though, especially right now

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