Raegan's Divulgence

Chapter 2

"Mom?"

Si Don, ako at mama lang naman ang may alam ng password ko dito sa condo at siya lang din naman ang bumibisita sa akin ng ganitong oras.

The moment I entered my little kitchen, I was shocked and I even bumped my head into the door behind me.

"O. MY. GOD."

"Why are you here?! How did you get in here?! What are you doing here?!" singhal ko sa kaniya.

"You let me in."

Damn. Sira ulo ba 'to? Why would I let him in e siya lang naman ang MOST HATED MAN IN THE WORLD ko!

None other than, the stupid man on earth...

ENRIE.

"GET OUT!" sigaw ko.

Para bang wala siyang narinig, pinagpatuloy niya ang pagluluto ng itlog, sausage or whatever is that in the frying pan.

"I said get out, you idiot! Huwag mong hintayin na tumawag pa ako ng security." banta ko.

He switched off the stove and walk towards me.

"Aalis ako kapag sinabi mo kung nasaan ang anak ko."

He's insane. After barging in my unit and now... What the hell!

"Wala kang anak, are you out of your mind? Maybe sa iba, pero sa akin wala. Now get out."

He smirked and held my arm harshly.
"Where is my daughter? Where is Serene!" now he's mad.

Para akong tinamaan ng kidlat nang banggitin niya ang pangalang Serene. My tears fell unexpectedly, and a flashback started.

/flashback/

"I'm begging you not to go, Enrie. Please!" I almost kissed his feet just to let him stay.

"I don't love you. I just used you for my financial means."

Hindi ko siya pinakinggan at kapit na kapit parin ako sa kaniyang mga paa.

"I am pregnant. Please don't do this to me." I cried.

"Stop this nonsense, Toni. We all know what are we doing after that sex. It's impossible. And, I'm just physically attracted to you, nothing more."

With those words, he left. And the last thing I knew is he's flying to Europe.
I let go my feelings to him, but I cannot let go the baby inside my womb.

I am four months pregnant, I'm still working as a reporter and I even put a gilder on my belly just to hide my bloating tummy.

After work, I went home and my ate Avielle welcomed me a ridiculous slap, even my father did that thing to me.

"I'm sorry ate, mama, papa." that's all I can say.

A video was spread in social media. A video of me seeing my flesh laying on the bed next to Enrie. And that was the end of my career and life.
I got devastated but I still took care of my baby, but she did not survived. I had a weak body and all I can do is cry and blame myself from losing my child.

/end of flashback/

Lumuwag ang hawak ni Enrie sa aking braso nang magsimula akong humagulgol.

"J-just tell me where is my daughter, our daughter!"

"She's gone! She's already gone four years ago." I answered him between my sobs.

"You're lying."
"Ang sabi mo kagabi Serene is here, she's... she's healthy and she's happy."

I am always like that, even kay Felix. Naikwento na sa akin ni Felix noong last na malasing ako kasama siya. Ang sabi niya, I kept on talking about Serene, my daughter... kahit na alam ko na wala naman talagang Serene na lumaki sa akin.

I'm just missing my child up until now.

"She's gone, and that's the truth. So now, can you please get out of my house?"

Umiling siya at hindi ko iyon inaasahan.
Bigla niya akong ginawaran ng yakap.

"I'm sorry for leaving you."

I pushed him. "Ang lakas ng loob mong sabihin iyan sa akin after telling me four years ago that you are just physically attracted to me?! And after you uploaded that nasty video that ruin my entire life!" sigaw ko.

"I can explain. It's not just me, Toni. I was... I was....--"

"Go." putol ko sa kaniya.

"Toni, I know that you still love me...--"

"I said, GO!"

"No, Toni. Come back to me and let me fulfill your space. I was lying, the truth is I really love you but I had no choice but to leave you."

I laughed sarcastically.
"You are full of shit, Enrie."

"Hindi ako titigil. Susuyuin kita, I feel so broke the moment you said that we lost our child."

"I lost my child, Enrie. Hindi ka naging ama sa kaniya. Just leave, I don't want to see you anymore."

Gustong gusto kong sabihin sa kaniya na... 'Stay, I still love you and my heart is still in your hands.' but I can't. Natatakot ako. Baka at the end of the day, iiwan nanaman niya ako.

"Hindi ako aalis hanggat hindi mo sinasabi na hindi mo na ako mahal at may mahal ka ng iba."

Anong tingin niya? Nasa isang drama kami? Kahit na mahal ko parin siya, I'm still mad at him.

Matagal bago ako sumagot.
"Tama ka. I'm not in love with you anymore, and I'm in love with... with someone else."

"You're lying again, Toni. I don't believe you."

"May asawa na ako."