Must Not Fall Inlove

Part 25

Part 25
Alex's POV

"look at you, you look so sad." sabi ni Trip habang tinigtignan ko sa salamin yung bibilhin kong shades.

I tried to smile at him, ayoko naman na mawala rin siya sa mood just because di ko masabayan yung vibe niya today, I know he's just also forcing himself to do this stuffs dahil he wants to cheer me up.

"what should we do to make you happy? Hmm? " he asked, hindi talaga siya titigil hanggat sa magmukhang okay nako.

From this pain feeling ko this won't go away just like from hours, it'll be staying with me until the day na ako naman ma tegok no, Tristan is my bestfriend and exboyfriend can't you see how difficult it is for me just to forget him.

"Trip.." tawag ko, I was thinking of an idea since he was asking what could ease the pain, baka naman pumayag na siya makipag inom saken.

He looked at me waiting for what I'm going to say, I was still thinking kung papayag na siya sa gusto kong gawin, I don't like drinking alone. It feels lonely.

"gusto kong uminom." sabi ko, his facial reaction changed but he seemed okay with it, I mean, he can't turn me down today.

"yeap, sure." he replied, his voice sounded like he wasn't sure what he just approved on, I'm a heavy drinker, mataas yung alcohol tolerance ko so I don't get drunk that easily.

We both went home after eating and buying some necessities, pumunta muna si Trip sa space niya dahil sa gusto niya muna daw mag shower.

While I was waiting for him, inayos ko na yung mga alak na nandito sa buhay good thing I have it here. Para less expenses tsaka masarap yung alak.

I hear the password clicking, I didn't knew Trip knew my space password and ang bilis niyang mag shower ha, I usually take an hour and a half when I'm taking a bath.

"wow bilis mo-" I kept my mouth shut nang hindi si Trip ang makita ko sa pintuan. I mean I wasn't disappointed either pero nakakagulat lang kasi gabi na at bibisitahin niya pa ako dito. "Hi Jax, uhh what brings you here? " I asked.

He smiled at me at may dala dala pa siyang mga prutas, he literally went prepared for visiting me here, I grabbed my phone to text Trip na next time na lang kami uminom dahil inaantok nako.

"iinom ka? Ba't ang daming alak? " he asked habang inaayos yung mga prutas sa table, I should've changed my password, Jax had been a pain in the ass kasi parang nagiging kaugali niya na si Ate.

"no, I uhh actually just ano." I cannot finish my sentence, I'm bad at lying at di ko alam anong irarason ko bakit nakalabas yung mga alak dito.

"stuttering huh? You just got better, why would you drink? " sabi niya at tinignan yung mga alak na nasa lamesa "this has high alcohol percentage in it, are you trying to kill yourself? "

From: Trip
Okay, sleep tight.

"your dad's here pati si Alex. Nauna lang ako sakanila." sabi ni Jax at nakapamaywang sa tabi ko, I don't know what's happening with them, why do they have to visit me at this late.

Dali dali ko naman na tinago yung mga alak dahil ayokong masabihan na kung ano ano na ginagawa ko dito just because I wanted to have something that doesn't looks right on me..

"I'm glad Kuya's visiting me, he must've been so happy." sabi ko kay Jax, he stared at me na parang sobrang mali nang nasabi ko.

"happy? How did you say so? " he asked, is he being sarcastic or being straight to point? Sino bang hindi sasaya na magkaroon nang anak sa taong mahal na mahal mo.

Even though I was filled with knowledge and proofs, hindi nako nagkwento kay Jax, maybe kuya wanted to tell him in other way or baka di pa nila sinasabi kahit kanino kaya ayaw kong basagin yung gusto nilang gawin.

Dad came in the room and Kuya followed him, I wasn't getting the same energy before Kuya went in so quiet pero he had smile on his face, same as dad.

"you're going to hongkong? Sama ako? " Kuya asked nang lumapit siya saakin, his eyebags were damn visible, ano nanaman nangyayari dito.

He speaks as if okay na okay siya, which is good dahil nga baka wala talaga siyang problema.

"kung pwede lang eh, ang bilis mag inform nang school ko ha." sabi ko then sat beside Dad sa couch.

They were so quiet pero nakangiti, ang creepy? I mean, bakit di man lang sila mag salita? Is there something wrong with them?

"are you allowing me, Dad? It's for school purposes naman eh." sabi ko, it's hard to convince Dad to change his mind pero sana payagan niya ako kahit na ayaw kong umalis, I like to have my own time, specially at gulong gulo yung utak ko ngayon.

"who are you with, Lex? Baka boyfriend mo ha." pang aasar ni Kuya saken but his eyes were in contrast, para bang napipilitan lang mag crack nang joke.

"no, I'm with my classmate, si Trip." sagot ko, I shouldn't be lying kase baka magbago pa isip nila kung ibang tao pa yung idadamay ko.

Jax coughed as if nangaasar siya sa binanggit kong pangalanan ni Trip, parang timang?

"inuubo si Jax, Kuya. You should've taken him to seek a doctor." madiin kong sabi, Jax looked at me na para talagang nang aasar. Nakakaazar.

"have you heard the news? " Kuya asked me, is this about Tristan? Oh I don't want to hear it.

"he uh hunged himself because of stress and cancer." biglang sabi ni Dad. Alam ko naman na lahat yan, it was good that I didn't showed any affection towards their news.

"yup, I went to his burol na." sabi ko then smiled at them, I shiuld show no feelings towards them buti pa kay Trip na naipapakita ko kung sino talaga ako. "so Dad? Ano pong sabi niyo sa school? "

"I agreed, have fun in there." sabi ni Dad saaken. I just smiled out of happiness, ayoko naman na walang gawin, my body can't do anything dahil nga malungkot parin ako.