Must Not Fall Inlove

Epilogue

EPILOGUE

Alex's POV

Lumabas ako nang kotse, I somehow forgot to breath, ayokong mahirapan siya dahil sakin, he kneeled down infront of me and was still waiting for an answer.

"Jax, no. I can't marry you." I told him at tinulungan siyang makatayo, he frozed but he smiled at me, as if it was something good to hear. "I'm sorry, h-hindi ko naman gustong saktan ka but I've outgrown your love, I don't fit in it, anymore."

"w-what do you mean, bub? Am I too less? Or too much? You should've told me." sabi niya saakin with tears streaming down his face, God it was so heavy. Seeing him in this state. It was pounding my heart into pieces. Pinunasan niya yung luha niya at pinilit na ngumiti saakin, "what's wrong with me?"

"n-nothing's wrong with you, Jax. Ako yung mali, it had been so wrong simula palang nung una. Hindi tama toh diba? Mali akong sumugal sa relasyon na toh eh."

"it was like saying that I'm no worth the shot, bub. Its okay, you can tell me what's wrong with me. Don't blame everything to yourself."

"Jax, hayaan mo na ako? This would never ever be right. Lalo na't I'm no longer longing for you. H-hindi na kita mahal." I pursed my lips to prevent my small whimpers coming out. Ramdam ko ang panghihina nang tuhod niya at napahawak siya sa gilid.

"h-hindi mo naman yata talaga ako minahal." sabi niya saakin, nakatingin lang siya sa singsing na hawak niya, "baka nga hindi mo natutunan na mahalin ako, kase if you did. You wouldn't even dare to hurt me this way. I guess you've made a choice and you chose to break my heart."

Napasinghap ako, "I-I've realized that I don't see myself with you but I see myself with someone else. Jax I am into my bestfriend."

Tumango tango siya saakin, kitang kita ang pag patak nang luha niya sa semento, it was also breaking me. Kailangan ko lang talaga siyang iwanan.

"I did everything just to keep you." sabi niya saakin, he looked at me in the eye at pulang pula na ang mata pati ilong niya sa kaiiyak, "perhaps you can say that I gave you all the love that you can get from me. Because I did gave you everything. P-pero pwede mo bang ibalik yon? Naubos na kasi para sakin eh."

Nilapitan ko si Jax at niyakap ko siya nang mabuti, "I know binigay mo lahat nang makakaya mo, Jax. Sorry pero hindi ko kayang maibalik eh. Hindi ko alam panong paraan. Hindi ko na alam kung pano."

"hindi mo na ba talaga ako mahal?" he asked, hindi ko na napigilan ang paghagulgol ko, kitang kita ko kasi sa mata niya kung pano ko siya nasisira. Hindi ko naman ginustong sirain siya.

Hindi naman ako makasagot, hindi ko alam pano ko pa mababawi yung mga sinabi ko, ayokong nakikitang ganito siya.

"I talked to God about you, I told him na ikaw na yung last please. I should say hindi naman pala lahat nang dasal nasasagot." he smirked but it was painful to see him forcing it, "I just thought you'd stay. Akala ko pipiliin mo parin ako kahit di na ako kapili pili. Na ako parin kahit parang may iba na kaso mas malaki pala yung halaga ni Trip. Anong laban ko don? Mahal mo yon eh. Ako hinde."

"Jax naman. Don't make things harder for me. Please? Nahihirapan lang ako lalo."

"pinahihirapan na lang ba kita, Alex? Do I really make things hard for you? Ayaw mo na ba talaga saken?"

Dahan dahan naman akong tumango, if that's what will make him turn his back at me, then yes. He makes things hard for me and yes I don't want to be a part of him anymore.

Niyakap niya naman ako, it was tight and I'm sure I'll miss this. "see you soon, lex."

He then turned his back at me then left, I just wanted to feel happy neither for the both of us. Ayokong mag hold nang grudge against him because he had been so good for me. He really did.

Now I have to do things on my own, my bubby had left me. Not because he wanted to but he had to. I ran myself back at the car. I have to be brave.

Nag drive na ako pabalik nang bahay ko, it was some kind of feeling that I have to talk to him. In one way, I might lose him or what. He's the shot that was worth to take.

Hindi ko man napadama sakaniya yung mga bagay na dapat nararamdaman niya before, atleast now kaya ko na. Now that I'm free. I may be broken but I know he can fix me. Again.

My real home, my comfort from a disastrous place. Now tell me where do I go without him? Hinding hindi ko na papalagpasin yung oras, yung araw nang wala siya. He's supposed to be loved as much as he loves and protects me.

Hinding hindi ko na pababayaan na iwanan niya ako, hindi ko na pababayaan na mag kalayo pa kami kase he is the right one for me. I find myself suiting beside him.

I knocked and knocked hanggang sa nagbukas na yung pinto, he was looking at me.

"I was wrong." bungad ko sakaniya his eyes fell down on me then hugged me tight, "I was wrong on hurting you in ways I haven't noticed. You're my home." pagiyak ko sakaniya.

Pinapasok niya ako and offered me some glass of water pero tumanggi na ako, this is it. Sasabihin ko na what I really feel towards him.

"I-I've realized, that I should be with you kase gusto kita, kase mas gusto kong nakakasama ka, you're my home. That I'm nothing without you."

He was staring into my eyes when I felt the rush of his lips into mine, I tried fighting back but it makes me weak. Nanghihina na ang tuhod ko kaya't niyakap ko na lang siya para kumuha nang lakas to stand up.

"you know I've always liked you too, Alex." Trip said in between his kisses.