Must Not Fall Inlove

Part 60

Part 60
Alex's POV

He sat beside me and rubbed my back, "you're going to get through this, Alex." he comforted me. Trip was just exactly whom I needed at this time, my bestfriend.

"I know but it'll take time." I replied as I cried my heart out, parang mas lalo akong nasasaktan sa bawat minuto na mas nag sisink in sa utak ko na wala na si Kuya.

"it does, lex. And day by day as time passes you're getting stronger. You've been through this. You're getting over this." he said and smiled at me, tinignan ko naman ang nagliliwanag niyang mukha. He smiles as if he was okay with me, I know we're not.

"what brings you here? I thought you're mad at me? " I asked, he "tch" his tounge and looked at me with sharp eyes, "I was just asking, don't get me wrong naman."

"yes I'm mad, but I'm your bestfriend, I'll stay specially when times get rough." he said then messed my hair, "it's not because I'm mad that doesn't mean our friendship stops. I'll love you and support you always."

Men in green polo shirts starts coming at nasa kabaong na si kuya, naiyak nanaman ako, last time na sinalubong ko si Kuya nasa pintuan ko siya with all smiles. Bakit ngayon sinasalubong ko na siya nang nasa kabaong?

"fuck, ang sakit sakit." sabi ko while holding my chest, it was like fire burning my heart and tearing it up into pieces, seeing my brother like that feels like hell.

"have you informed, Jax about this? " he asked, naalala ko naman yung kanina, it feels like ayokong kausap si Jax pero he has to know what happened.

"he's on his way to Spain, pag lapag nalang nang eroplano niya." I said, I mean there's a lot of way to let him know pero baka mas mabuting wag ko na muna siyang kausapin, ayoko na talaga nang mga naiisip ko with him and ate alex.

"there's a wifi at your plane. Contact him." he asked, umiling naman ako sakaniya at lumapit ako kay kuya, ayoko ngang makausap si Jax.

"I saw his supposed to be proposal ring and his letter for ate. What am I supposed to feel about that? " I asked him, he sighed and looked away.

"still, tell him his bestfriend died." sabi niya saakin at inakbayan ako. "he still looks sad, I should've approached him when I saw him so sad."

"if he calls, I'll tell him." I said to finish off the conversation. It was a huge pain in the heart at ngayon nag sink in saken what I was doing with ate.
Dad's friends started arriving even Kuya's friends.

"it's better if you get some rest, manang will be here with me soon." sabi sakin ni Dad when he excused his self from his sets of friends. I refused to but Trip butted in.

"it's better if I take you home. You better get some rest for tomorrow." he said at tinanguan naman siya ni Dad.

"you should go with Trip. It's either you stay here and sleep all day tomorrow or sleep tonight then be here tomorrow." Dad said then pushed me outside. I was with Trip at his car at sobrang antok na nga ako.

"sana sinabi mo nang hindi na umasang may tayo pa sa huli." Trip started singing and it got stuck into my head at nakakanta ko na rin siya until I fell asleep.

Pagkagising ko, malapit na kami sa hotel and all I could think about is having my clothes changed tas balik din ako agad, hindi na ako makakatulog after all.

"do you want me to accompany you even just for this night? " he asked. Umiling naman ako, baka kasi maabala ko pa siya, he needs to rest too.

"babalik naman ako don sa burol, I'll just get changed tapos-"

"Alex, wag na matigas ulo mo. You have to rest here. Alam mo babantayan na lang kita, let's go." he urged to get out of the car at mas nauuna na saking mag lakad. I shouldn't have told him my idea but what can I do. Nasabi ko na eh.

Pag kaakyat namin, naiisip ko what if magtulog tulugan muna ako before going out, tas syempre makakatulog din naman non si Trip so I can slide out to the door then I'll be leaving na.

"I'll sleep na, what do you need? " I asked him, nandito pa naman yung ginamit ni Kuya na pillow so I grabbed from him, baka may naiwan si kuyang scent dito so it's better if I make sure na saakin at ako lang ang makakaamoy.

"unan?" he asked, tumango naman ako then went upstairs to grab him some of my pillows tas bagong comforter na din. "Thanks, Alex. Sleep well." he said at humiga na rin sa couch.

Tears start to form into my eyes nang maamoy ko yung unan na ginamit ni Kuya last night, I wish he was still alive kasi sobrang sakit na. Sobrang hindi ko na kinakaya.

"why do you have to leave so soon? " I asked as if Kuya was still hearing me out, "ang daya mo naman, di pa nga ko kinakasal, iniwan mo nako. Nakakaasar ka naman."

I hugged the pillow tighter, galit ako kasi hindi naman niya yon deserve, he doesn't deserve to die.

I heard a knock at my door and I wept my tears at ngumiti nang pumasok si Trip sa kwarto. He sat on the corner of the bed and he looked at me.

"kayang kaya mong makalapagpas dito, Alex. I know you are better than these dark episodes of your life." he said that made me cry more. It fucking kills me. "you have to be strong, your dad needs you, your ate needs you. Magpakalakas ka for them."

"pero ba't hinang hina ako, hindi ko kayang ako yung panghawakan nila kasi maski sa sarili ko, alam kong mahina ako." I cried out, lumapit naman siya saakin to hug me and rubbed my back.

"malakas ka, you have to believe in that, nonetheless everything could bring you down."