Must Not Fall Inlove

Part 54

Part 54
Alex's POV

Nilingon niya naman ako then partly smiled at me, nakakahiya at ang awkward nang scenario na toh, I wish we could've just separated ways, hindi ko na sana pinilit na sumakay dito sa elevator na ito.

The light twitched at bigla tumigil sa pag andar yung elevator, I started panicking baka matagalan ang pag ayos neto tas hindi ako makapunta sa birthday ni Jax.

"God damn." sabi ko sa sarili ko when I finally realized that really the elevator won't really work.

Trip sat down at nilagay sa tabi niya yung mga hawak niyang gamit, he looks tired at parang yung Trip na hindi ko kakilala.

Naupo naman ako sa tabi niya and I wanted to talk to him, I want to know what's running on his mind lalo na't nakita niya ako last night.

"bakit di ka nag hi saken kagabi? Hindi mo ba ko napansin? " I asked to make things clear, ayoko mag assume, mamaya pala ay hindi niya lang ako nakita.

"nakita kita, tinatamad lang ako." simple niyang sagot saakin at pinikit yung mata niya.

"tinatamad o galit? " I asked again, dinilat naman niya ang mga mata niya at tinignan niya akong diretso sa mata ko, feels like his eyes were mad and sad at the same time, I shouldn't have asked.

"I was there when no one else does. I mean I know you didn't asked me to do that but come on, pagpapalit mo ko don, lex?  I became your ship of laughter in your ocean of tears. I was your light in your pitch dark depressive episodes. You even told me I painted rainbow in your colorless dull life. Clearly, I was there all the time. But why did you abandon me soon as you encounter someone better in all aspect after I fixed you?" he asked at tumulo na yung luha sa mata niya, I didn't know he wanted me he should've said so.

"it's not like that Trip. Don't think like that" pag kukumbinsi ko sakaniya, hindi ko naman siya iniwan nor pinagpalit, we're bestfriends and still it remains like that.

"then what? I just went to Japan for like 2 weeks tas pagbalik ko parang nilibot ko buong mundo dahil naka hanap ka na nang bago? 2 weeks lang, Alex. Ganto pala kadaratnan ko." he said, he moved few spaces from me at nakatingin lang siya sa ibang direksyon.

I started crying beside him, I didn't know what to say nor feel, alam ko lang is andiyan siya for me hindi ko naman alam na gusto niya ako.

"I'm sorry Jax was better, di na dapat pala ako umalis kasi nung umalis ako Alex, nakuha niya na pala yung puso mo. You know why I came back? Kase dahil sayo, I kept looking for a home pero I've realized I'm home when I'm with you. That's what I thought. Bahay ka na pala nang iba." he said at pahina nang pahina, I knew he was keeping his tears at alam ko mahirap yun.

"I'm sorry Trip. Andito parin naman ako ah you're still my bestfriend." I said and rubbed his back.

"yeah, hanggang friends lang." sabi niya at hinarap ako. "you pleased me not to leave you and yet ikaw naman pala yung mang iiwan." he added.

Nanahimik na ako after that, I don't want to make it worse kung galit siya saakin hahayaan ko na lang din.

I checked my phone pero walang signal so I can't contact anyone, parang malabo pang makapunta pako sa bahay nila Jax which made me cry more, I promised to be there.

Fastforward

"alex, wake up." nagulat ako nang si Kuya yung tumatapik saakin dito sa may elevator, the lights were on at maraming tao ang nakapalibot dito saamin.

"where's Trip? We better get going, baka hanapin ako ni Jax." I said at tumayo na. Tumayo si Kuya pero pinigilan niya ako.

"the party's over, nakaalis na si Trip." sabi ni Kuya at kinuha ang bag ko at sinuot sakaniya, naiyak naman ako sa narinig ko, kasalanan ko talaga bat nagiging gago tong buhay ko ngayon. Inakbayan naman ako ni Kuya at inalalayan para maka akyat na kami sa room ko. "I had been contacting you since the afternoon pero unreachable ka so I decided to go here. Buti na lang at okay ka."

"how's Jax? He must've been so disappointed at me." sabi ko.

"a little, spoiler pero this night sana he'll ask you to be his girlfriend." he said, tinignan ko naman siya to check if he was joking pero he was serious. Napa hawak naman ako sa ulo ko dahil sa katangahan ko ngayong araw.

"siguro lahat sila hinintay ako." I cried out, Kuya was entering my pin and I couldn't stop crying beside him.

"it's okay, Alex. It's not your fault, maiintindihan ka naman ni Jax." sabi ni Kuya saakin at siya na mismo ang kumuha nang isang baso nang tubig. "what are you doing with Trip there? His eyes were puffy just like yours, umiyak ba kayo? "

"yeah, we talked. He's mad. He likes me that's why he came back but I like Jax now. Sana noon." I said while being spaced out, di ko alam why ako nakatingin sa ceiling.

"pretty problems, then? What did you told him? " he asked, I know Kuya is a good listener pero minsan ang awkward din mag open up sa lalaki.

"nothing more, friends lang." sagot ko sakaniya, he just nodded at nilibot ang tingin niya sa bahay. "may alak ako, baka nag hahanap ka. "

"mas kailangan mo yata yon." he smiled at tumayo para kunin yung alak, he grabbed two glasses, really not in the mood pero parang kailangan ko nga, "not too much ha, may pasok ka bukas baka mas magalit sayo si Jax."

"sobrang galit kaya saken non? " I said at ininom yung sinalin na inumin saakin ni Kuya

"tell me what happens tomorrow then I'll tell you how mad he is, mabait yon, just give him time to reflect tas lambingin mo. Love ka non."