Must Not Fall Inlove

Part 29

Part 29
Alex's POV

Ma'am called me through phone to let me know that we'll be having a late dinner kaya dali dali nakong nagayos at bumaba sa lobby, Trip was there but he was just sitting at ubo nang ubo. I wonder kung siya yung ubo nang ubo kanina.

"two blocks away lang naman yung restaurant, Trip? Can you manage?" she asked, he was being too noticeable dahil sa nararamdaman niya.

Trip nodded and he headed out, nauna na siya saaming dalawa, as if he doesn't have time to do shits at gusto niya lamang kumain.

"Alex? Can I ask for a little favor? " Ma'am Fuentebella asked, magkatabi lang kasi kaming naglalakad.

"sure ma'am, ano po yon? " I wasn't sure what she was asking from me, pero hindi naman siguro toh something too personal kaya I agreed.

"uhh Trip's not feeling well, it also looks like inaatake nanaman siya nang asthma niya but he won't tell me, kaya if kaya mong bantayan siya and stay by his side. Mas better." she asked, she was asking too politely at sobrang hirap niyang tanggihan kaya napatango na lang ako.

We just went to a chinese resturant nearby, food was great kaya naman solved kaming tatlo, Trip wouldn't even stop coughing at sobrang hinihingal na rin siya.

"Trip, you don't look okay, may meds ka bang dala? " I asked at tinabihan siya sa paglalakad, his hands were in his pocket and he just took a sigh at tinignan ako.

"it's okay, you can walk beside Ma'am Fuentebella." he calmly said at mas binilisan ang lakad to move pass by me, he started breathing heavily and you can really notice there's something wrong.

I still kept on following him hanggang makarating kami sa hotel, he was holding onto walls parang babagsak na siya when ma'am Fuentebella left us, I quickly ran onto him to catch him out if he ever falls.

I faced him to see what was going on, "ang putla mo, where are you key card? " I asked dahil mukha na talaga siyang babagsak and he was damn pale, it scares me seeing him like thism

He handed me out his key card for me to open his room, he was grasping for some air kaya tinulungan ko siyang makaupo at inayos ko na rin yung room temperature.

"can you hand me my bag, please? " he asked, hingal na hingal na siya habang nagsasalita at halos pabagsak na rin yung mata niya, I couldn't think of anything else dahil wala naman akong alam sa sakit niya. I took his bag from the study desk at agad na inabot ito sakaniya.

He took out his inhaler and grasped some air onto it, he slowly inhaled some air with his eyes closed. He kept quiet for awhile after breathing normally. "I'm all good, Alex. You should rest now."

Napailing naman ako sa sinabi niya, I can't just leave him here dying, what if something bad happens to him, konsensya ko na yon diba? Besides, hindi niya ako iniwan nung may sakit ako.

"nope, I'm staying. I can't just leave you like this." pag giit ko, he may be hard to talk to right now pero kung makikita ko siya sa gantong kalagayan, I wouldn't even think twice to spend my night here.

He closed his eyes at parang pinakikiramdaman yung sarili niya, "leave me like what? Alex, I told you I'm okay." pag didiin niya, I started to feel so pissed kaya hindi ko na masyadong pinakinggan yung mga sinasabi niya. "now, you're not listening. Great." he sarcastically added.

I looked outside at his view kung saan sobrang breath taking kasi makikita mo almost yung city lights here sa hongkong, sobrang fascinating.

"stop being so hard on me, Trip. Ano bang nagawa kong mali? " I said, I can't take it, he talks way too much just because he want me to leave.

He stopped nagging at tinignan niya na ako nang mas mabuti as I was fiercely looking onto his eyes, "this is not hard, this is just me. You didn't do something wrong, Alex. Meron ba akong dapat ikagalit? "

His face was full of expressions, all I can say is he's badly digging into our problems, mas papalalimin niya pa toh for sure, he'll try to put the blame on me kase ganon naman talaga, I'm the one to be blamed.

"you changed, last night okay na okay tayo, tas ngayon ganyan ka? Parang hindi mo ko kilala ah." sabi ko, I know he's being such an ass at gusto niyang sagadin ako sa galit.

He smirked parang nangaasar as if may mali sa sinabi ko, sinasabi ko lang naman yung alam ko at napapansin ko.

"changed? Come on, Alex. You know I didn't." he calmly said at mas umupo nang maayos para makausap ako nang mabuti, " what am I supposed to do? Aliwin ka? Makipag inuman sayo? Makipag laro sayo? Alex? Sumagot ka." sabi niya saakin but he wasn't mad nor shouting. He was just asking me.

Ramdam ko naman na umiinit yung mata ko ans I started tearing out pero hindi ko parin tinatanggal yung tingin ko kay Trip, his face expression changed nang makita niya akong umiiyak, it was more of a pity expression.

"I'm sorry, Alex. Sorry I just can't. Maybe tomorrow I'll be better." sabi niya at pinagmasdan lang akong pinupunasan yung mga luha ko, "I didn't mean those harsh words, masama lang talaga yung pakiramdam  ko."

I feel like crying pa kaya I stood up then left his room, I couldn't say anymore, maybe I was reacting way too much. Bakit kahit sobrang saglit lang sobrang nakaka attach yung ugali niya.

"shit sobrang tanga ko naman." I said to myself nang makahiga ako sa kama, I was cool with it, okay nako. Sana this won't ever happen again, it fucking kills me.