Must Not Fall Inlove

Part 61

Part 60
Alex's POV

I have spent most of my day here sa burol ni Kuya, everyone was busy kahit na wala ako dito ay maayos naman but I just don't want to leave him alone. Kinausap na rin ni Dad yung school ko kung baka hanapin man ako. Trip was also here and helping.

Hindi ko na muna sinasagot ang mga tawag ni Jax, kanina pa siya naka dating sa Spain and I was too busy to answer his calls. Ate was informed and I was so scared to tell her that I was in a relationship Jax, she's coming home later.

"let's eat? " Trip asked, tinititigan ko nanaman si Kuya habang natutulog siya sa loob nang kabaong, he still looks sad at hindi ako sanay na makita siyang ganyan.

"mauna ka na, Trip. Wala akong gana eh." sabi ko sakaniya then hugged myself. I really want to be alone and speak to kuya in my mind.

"magagalit yang kuya mo when you skip meals." he insisted. I couldn't help myself but to cry at niyakap ko na lang siya, tangina ba't pa kasi nangyayari toh. He hugged me back at binulungan ako. "let's eat, wag ka nang magpasaway."

"is this why you're not answering my calls? " nagulat ako nang nakatayo na si Jax sa harap namin with really sharp eyes at igting na igting yung panga niya, hinatak niya ako kay Trip at lumabas kaming dalawa. "what the hell was that? "

I didn't answer, tinahimik ko na lang yung sarili ko habang nahikbi, umupo muna ako sa tabi while he was still glaring at me.

"ganito ba dapat yun, Alex. Sinabi ko naman diba call me when something happens. Why do you have to seek comfort from somebody else?" galit na galit niyang tanong saakin yet hindi parin ako sumasagot, pinagmasdan ko na lang kung pano niya ako tignan habang pinagsasabihan niya ako. "Sumagot ka naman Alexis."

"pagod nako, sa susunod na lang tayo mag usap." sabi ko then stood up pero hinatak niya ko para yakapin, I cried. Ang tanga tanga ko.

"andito naman ako eh, ba't ka ba nagkakaganyan?" he whispered habang nakayakap parin saakin, hinatak ko naman yung sarili ko from his hug at tinalikuran siya.

"sinabi ko naman na pagod nako, wag na muna tayo mag usap." I said then left him outside, bumalik naman ako kung nasaan ako kanina, Trip was talking to someone else at mas better na sana wala na lang silang dalawa dito.

Pumanik ako kung nasan yung kitchen, busy sila dahil maraming dumadating na bisita. Dad was here and he was helping na mag salin nang pagkain sa cups. Nag bukas yung pinto and Jax entered the room.

"oh Jax. Good that you're here." sabi ni Dad at niyakap si Jax. "you have a business trip at Spain. Pano ka nakauwi? "

"we had a stop over at Abu Dhabi po then heard about the news so I decided to take the flight back to Manila." he answered, he was smiling bitterly at pinapasadahan niya din ako nang tingin.

"condolence for losing your bestfriend." Dad said at niyakap ulit si Jax. Tatango tango naman si Jax .

"I'm really sorry for your loss, Tito." he replied. They talked for awhile at tumabi naman saakin si Jax habang busy ako na nagphophone. I wasn't really doing anything hinihintay ko lang talaga na umalis siya.

"Alex, have you eaten dinner? " he asked while he was fixing his own plate. Tumango lang ako then continued scrolling through my phone.

I was so in doubt of what I'm doing, I badly wanted to end our relationship, ayokong sumagabal sa love story nila ni ate. Ayokong ako yung maging dahilan bakit hindi sila nag katuluyan.

From: Trip
I'm sorry, sana hindi nalang ako nag pakita.

He's wrong, sobrang thankful ko nang matulungan niya ako kahapon, wala akong ibang matakbuhan kundi siya lang.

To: Trip
No need to be sorry, I'm so thankful that you had my back every time.

"buti pa yan, na rereplyan mo." Jax said pero mahinang mahina lang, I looked at him and he was distinctly looking at me, I know I'm doing something wrong, pero lahat lahat kasi nang meron kami ni Jax ay mali.

"Dad, balik na lang po ako bukas. Uwi nako." I said then stood up at lumabas na, hindi ko na dinala ang kotse ko dahil sabay kaming pumunta ni Trip dito. Luckily there's a cab near the place kaya nakasakay agad ako.

What the fuck came into my mind para gawin kay ate yung mga ganitong bagay. I am doing her so wrong.

From Bub:
What's happening? We have to talk.

I was supposed to be thinking of something I could do for him to stop loving me. I should always think of others before me to avoid hurting them.

To: Bub
I don't have time, leave me alone.

I ignored his calls after that text, I blocked his number from my phone. I started texting ate then informed me that she was leaving in an hour.

"you look so tired, have some rest." sabi sakin ni Ate, I insisted on video calling her para mabawasan yung konsensya ko sa nagawa ko sakaniya.

"I know, how are you? It has been so long." I asked, it had been so long since I talked to her since I got so busy with Jax. She smiled at me but then it turned away.

"Jax was no longer talking to me. I wonder what's keeping him busy? " she said, I looked away and quiver. Hindi ko alam it would still be affecting her that much.

"he might be busy with work. He's a busy pilot." I lied, I couldn't take it anymore so I told her I have to go. I started to cry again after feeling this heavy thug in my heart.

Sobrang tanga ko na maski si Ate nasasaktan ko na para maging masaya lang ako. I was so wrong on choosing my happiness over her.

From Jaxrill Smith :
What's happening to you? Come out, let's talk.