Must Not Fall Inlove

Part 1

Alexis' POV

"Alex, stop texting. Nasa church tayo oh. " pag saway sakin ni Ate.

I tried my best not to reply dito sa ex ko.

For sure magagalit nanaman nento si Kuya Alexander.

"Alexis, hand me your phone nga. Napaka kulit." naiinis na sabi sakin ni Ate. Tunog kasi nang tunog yung cellphone ko dahil sa sunod sunod na text.

Agad niyang pinatay ito at ibinulsa.

Dad wasn't able to catch up with us dahil busy pa siya sa business meeting then si Mom naman I know she'll always guide us from heaven.

Mom's death was traumatic, car accident kasi. Unfortunately siya lang ang di naka survive saming apat. Ilang taon din yun bago ako nakapag recover from that accident.

Kuya Alexander finished studying and is now a pilot,  which he works for our business too dahil isa rin kaming airline company. Ate Alexandra finished college this year pero dahil madami pang aaralin ang pagiging pediatrician niya, she decided to study abroad and will be leaving in a week.

Ako, stuck with the same school, mastering my desired job as an aircraft mechanic. Gusto ko rin kasi mag trabaho sa company nila dad. Mas madali kasi don, less hassle.

After the church, inaya ako ni ate kumain sa labas.

"don't forget na susunduin natin si kuya bukas." she reminded me.

Full shift si kuya simula pa nung thursday, hindi na siya nakakauwi dahil sa Europe ang biyahe niya and he decided to stay there for awhile.

"his with his friend, he'll be staying with us for awhile." she added.

I don't mind being with his friends, mababait naman kasi and may respeto. I'm not sure if kuya will have his huge break dahil nga sa sunod sunod niyang flight

From: Tristan
Can I see you? I mean, I just need someone to talk to.

I was hesitant to answer him, alam naman nila ate at kuya na we're over dahil he chose his studies over me pero yun pala may bago na siya. Kuya got so mad na he met Tristan para lang makipag bugbugan dito.

"Alex, stop fooling yourself, iniwan ka na niyan. Magpapakatanga ka nanaman ba? " sabi ni Ate, she really knows me so well.

"hindi ko lang talaga alam,ate. Sobrang hirap niyang tiisin."

"hanggang ngayon, Alex?  Damn 6 months na kayong wala. Di ka parin ba nakakamove on? " pagalit niyang sabi.

"i don't know."

From: Tristan
Hey Alex?

To : Tristan
yeah, sure.

I replied before turning my phone off, we just had the typical lunch out, since dalawa lang naman kami ni ate

"kilala mo ba yung bisita ni Kuya? " I asked.

Back to college days, tropa din ni Ate yung mga tropa ni Kuya. Kaya baka kilala niya yung dadating.

"kilalang kilala." she bitterly said.

Wala yata si ate sa mood to talk about the visitor kaya I just kept walking while she was lurking around the clothes.

"alex? " a manly voice called,dalawa kami ni Ate napalingon dahil Alex din ang palayaw niya.

"hey? " I said, si Tristan. What on earth at dito pa kami nag tagpo.

I glanced at ate at kitang kita ko yung nakataray niyang mata. Ayaw niya talaga si Tristan para saken eh.

"we have to be at home by 1, Alex. " alam kong gawa gawa lang ni Ate yon, she really just refuses Tristan to enter my life again.

Kagaguhan kasi nitong taong toh, which leads him to be the worst person. Dati okay na okay sila with Tristan.

"ate, I have to go. See you at home." sabi ko at bumeso na lang kay ate, I know she'd say more, kaya hinatak ko na palabas si Tristan.

Sobrang bilis kong maglakad, it feels awkward naman kasi na makita kami ni ate together

"thanks for saying yes, Alex" sabi ni Tristan nang matigil kami sa tapat nang isang fastfood.

Tinignan ko siya sa mata, his eyes looked so sad and his smile was fake proving himself that he's sad.

"no problem, masyadong crowded dito. Don't you want somewhere quiet?" I asked.

"ikaw parin talaga yung Alex na kilala ko. " he smiled.

Umalis na kaming dalawa sa mall and dumiretso sa park na covered nang trees kaya hindi mainit. Tristan and I used to be bestfriends. Sobrang open namin sa isa't isa kaya madalas din kami nagkakaintindihan

Ewan ko rin dito why he chose to left me and replace me with his blockmate, stupid talaga.

"what happened? What's wrong? "I asked to start the conversation, nahahalata ko naman sakaniyang marami siya pasanin sa mundo, he's older than me tho, kaya siya ang breadwinner nang family nila, sakaniya na lahat umaasa from his younger brother to his mother.

"I've been so burned out, sobrang empty ko, sobrang pagod na pagod na pagod nako." he exclaimed and he started tearing up.

"you tried telling this to your girlfriend? Baka matulungan ka niya." I wasn't being sarcastic, ganon naman talaga yun eh.

umiling siya, "uhh wala na kasi kami, she-" di niya na natapos yung sasabihin niya dahil naiyak na siya.

Kahit kami pa naman noon, problema niya na talaga yung pera, plus his family status, iniwan na sila nang dad niya.

I comforted him by rubbing his back habang siya nakadausdos sa braso ko.

"alam mo, if you felt so burnt out, you should've taken your time for yourself. Okay lang naman to rest if that would do something good for you, Tristan. I mean gets ko naman na gusto mo nang magandang future para kila tita pero dapat ihanda mo rin yung sarili mo for it, magpahinga ka." I said.

He started sniffing and wept his tears.

"thankyou for keeping your promise, na kahit anong manyare, best friends parin tayo." he said

"i know, ikaw lang naman di natupad nang pangako" sambit ko

Tbh, sobrang wasted ko nung iniwan ako nento, sobrang sakit kase siya yung first ko and thought he'd be my last, I had expected way too much from him pero iiwan niya rin pala ako.

"what if I want you back? " he asked.