Must Not Fall Inlove

Part 40

Part 40
Alex's POV

"that's all, have you eaten lunch? " he said nnag makabalik na kaming dalawa sa corridor.

Tumango naman ako,  ayoko na kasing abalahin siya sa trabaho niya, kita ko naman na andami niya pang gagawin sa taas. "hihintayin ko na lang si Kuya sa office niya para makauwi na rin ako." sagot ko. 

Tumingin naman siya sa relos niya at saka tumingin saakin pabalik, "Tara should be there but your brother is in a meeting. Kain tayo? " pagpupumilit niya.

"I already ate, do your work na, alam kong madami ka pang gagawin sa office mo." pagpilit ko rin sakaniya, ayoko kasing maging sagabal sa kung anong ginagawa niya dito sa company.

"but I haven't eaten anything yet neither do you, come on let's eat" sabi niya saakin. "stop being hard headed." at kinindatan ako. 

"geesh! I'm really not hungry, I'm full. Bye. Thanks." sabi ko sakaniya at tinalikuran ko siya agad, ang awkward and I knew at nararamdaman kong namumula yung pisngi ko tuwing kinakausap ko siya.

"then you'll let me starve, dude? " I looked back at him and he was damn pouting at me. God why does he have to be this cute? Hinatak ko na yung kamay niya para makalampas na kaming dalawa sa corridor kung saan napakaraming tao. "I knew you couldn't resist me." he chuckled.

"Kuya's going to kill me if he finds out about us." bulong ko sakaniya nang makapasok kaming dalawa sa elevator, hinarang naman nang isang kamay yung pinto bago pa tuluyan magsarado ito.

"find out what?" Kuya asked nang bigla siya sumulpot, Jax was smiling as if wala lang sakaniya yung malamang na narinig ni Kuya, he shifted his gaze at the both of us at diretso lang ang mukha ni Kuya, "oh the both of you? yuck, pero I have nothing against you, love birds."

"no, si Jax lang naman eh." pag giit ko sakaniya, nakakaasar kasi yung tingin niya sakin while Jax was all smiles.

"si Jax...palang.." pang aasar ni Kuya, "Tara's in my office, she likes airplanes so she's crafting out one." habol pa niya. 

"good for her, Tito Cam's picking me up for dinner, make sure she's not here when he arrives." sagot ni Jax kay Kuya, I wonder kung bakit parang hindi sila close na close ni Tara, at namalayan kong ako pala ang kinakausap ni Jax.

"why?" I asked, di ko kasi matiis na manahimik lang, gusto kong malaman bakit ayaw niyang makita si Tara.

"long story, Alex. Baka makatulog pa si Jax pag kiniwento sayo." Kuya said at bumaba na siya nang bumukas ang pinto, I was about to follow him pero si Jax hindi parin siya bumababa.

"san ba? " I asked, nagsarado na ulit yung pinto at umaakyat nanaman kami, it's nice na nakikita mo yung city view from this elevator.

"my office, I decided to just order some food para dito na lang tayo kumain." he said and shrugged his shoulders, god his veins were no joke.

Tumango na lang ako at tinuon yung tingin ko sa labas, I mean, I'm confused, hindi naman saken sinabi ni Jax if he's courting me, he just said na he likes me and I don't know what he really means about that. Ayoko naman siyang kulitin about doon dahil nakakahiya lalo na kung i bring up ko iyon out of nowhere.

I know magagalit saakin si Ate, hindi lang siguro galit baka nga itakwil na ako non pero hindi ko naman mapigilan din, I'm also attracted to Jax, ayoko naman siyang ipagtulakan din tas masasaktan ako, Ate and Jax were over and sana maintindihan niya kung anong magiging desisyon ko.

Pag pasok namin sa office ni Jax, nakaayos na yung pina order niyang pagkain, it was a lot at parang buong building ang papakainin niya, alam naman niyang hindi ako big eater.

"Alex, hindi mo ginagalaw yung pagkain mo, ayaw mo ba? " he asked, I was staring blankly at my food, naiisip ko talaga anong magiging reaction ni Ate when she finds out.

"di, gusto ko, just eat, don't mind me." I said, I don't want him to worry lalo na sa naiisip ko, although I want a way out of this thoughts, pano na lang kaya kung bigla umuwi si Ate then suddenly she wants Jax back. Ayoko naman na mawala siya agad saakin. Ayoko din naman na mag away kami ni Ate.

"your sister made it clear with me, she's onto someone else. Last night she called me." Jax started, nakatingin siya saakin, "hindi kita ginagawang rebound, Alex. I really don't want the help to be back with your sister, wala akong madahilan para kitain kita almost everyday."

"hindi ko naman naiisip yon, Jax. Naiisip ko is what if one day biglang gusto ka na ni ate agad? Pano pag ganon? Syempre, ayokong masaktan si Ate pero ayoko din na masaktan ka."

He held my hand na nakapatong sa table, his eyes were worried "we'll talk if needed, Alex. Ate mo yon, maiintindihan ka niya for sure."

"ate's not like that, she's not like kuya who can understand, minsan sinasarado niya yung utak niya para hindi siya masaktan." sabi ko kay Jax, tumango tango naman siya, alam ko gets niya ako dahil nakasama rin naman niya si ate.

"I know but she tries her best to understand, she's also scared gaya nang mga tao na nakapalibot sakaniya, gaya mo." he reasoned out. "alam ko falling inlove with you would have it's consequences but handa kong harapin yon, kaya kitang samahan through that."

"h-hindi, kaya ko. Basta wag mo muna akong guluhin, pagiisipan ko." sabi ko sakaniya then stood up, sinabi ko na nga ba sana talaga hindi na lang muna ako nag punta dito. Naguguluhan talaga ako sa anong dapat gawin ngayon, I mean, alam ko hindi naman niya ako pinipressure pero ayoko muna siyang makita, parang hindi ako mapakali lalo na pag magkasama kami eh. 

"I can wait, Alex. Kahit na kasing tagal pa nang retirement ko." sabi niya and then smiled at me.