Ring of Fire (Completed) Book 1 Vanelzing Series

Alexis Journal Entry 17

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I went to the Watts house next afternoon. I made a promise to Shawn and I always keep my promises or at least I try too.

The steel storm door and screen door were open so I went inside. I didn't knock. Honestly I don't know why. Maybe it was because deep down I didn't want Renee to know that I was there or Caleb.

I can handle Renee if she is one of her moods but I can't handle Caleb. That man terrifies me. I don't want to be in the same room as him let alone the same house.

As I walk through the house, I try to be as quiet as possible. Renee could be passed out on the couch. I wouldn't want to wake her up that would automatically put her in a mood.

The house was a complete disaster. Dishes are piled in the sink. The carpet is so nasty I cannot describe it. Just think of the nastiest thing you can think of and the smell that comes with it sprinkled with vomit. Beer and various alcoholic beverages are scattered everywhere. It is obvious Renee had a party last night. 

I took a deep breath getting a big lung full of foul air and cough. It smells like cigarettes and something else but I don't know what it is. Whatever it is something told me it was probably illegal.

I laid my backpack down outside on the back porch so it doesn't absorb the smell. Heaven knows I didn't want that following me around.

"Mrs. Watts," I call as I enter the kitchen. 

She is in the kitchen with a bottle of vodka and a glass in front of her. She motions for me to sit down. I pull out the chair and take a seat. She takes the bottle, grabs another glass from the counter, and pours it in front of me then pours one for herself.

"Here you go baby," she mumbles pushing the glass closer to me.

She can't be serious right? She must know how old I am and that is nowhere near the legal age to drink. I don't want to be rude but she is completely out of it anyway.

She's a wreck just like the house. I wonder if it's because she kicked Shawn out or because Caleb left her. Do you blame him? She's so messed up. They both are to be honest. 

"He likes you. Did you know that? Talks about you all the time." She takes a hit from her glass then pours herself some more. I leave mine untouched.

"Yes ma'am," I reply going with the safe answer. Don't upset her. Don't make her made. She's off her rocker.

"Even she loves you more than me," Renee downs another glass and pours another. How long had she been sitting here?

I don't say anything. My fingers wrap around the glass. I throw it back and let that horrible burning liquid run down my throat. I can't believe I did that. 

Angel had called me Momma on more than one occasion. That to me speaks for itself. It's not my fault she's a horrible mother. She can't take care of Angel. She can't even take care of herself. If it wasn't for Shawn I'm sure she would have killed her or herself.

Shawn surviving her was a miracle but then again she wasn't this messed up when Shawn was coming up.

What happened to her? When Shawn was about seven she changed into someone else. I think she just gave up. Gave up on Caleb, on herself, and everything else. The drugs and the drink became her whole world instead of her only son and daughter.  

How could Shawn have left Angel with her?