Calum.

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The next morning I got dressed and completely pushed yesterday's events to the back of my mind.  I wasn't going to let his asshole behavior hurt me.

During third class, our teacher gave us a new seating chart. I was put right next to Calum. He sat down next to me with the nastiest look he's ever given me. The worst one I've seen yet.  So in return, I glared right back.  There wasn't anything that I could do about him.  I didn't know why he all of a sudden started to act like this,  I don't think I did anything wrong...

Two thirds into the class and the most awful thing happened. Spots of blood were running through my jeans. It took me this long to realize that I was rubbing and lightly scratching the area where I cut the night before. It had a type of stinging burn to it I craved.  Calum was looking at me with a disgusted yet questioning look. Fuck him.

As soon as the class ended and we were transitioning to next class, I went home. I ditched. I wanted to cry.  I couldn't risk anyone seeing what I did. Or should I say,  what Calum saw.

When I got home I went straight up to my room and took a nap. Sleep calmes all pain...at least mentally. I woke up at around five. My parents were still at the bakery. I went out to get a slice of pizza a few blocks away from my parents' bakery, then I went to the bakery to help out.

My mom was sending out an order to a customer who just so happened to walk in right after me. That someone was Luke.   "Hey Luke!" I smiled and waved at him. He waved back and greeted me too. Turns out he got a cake for his mother's birthday.
Luke was really nice...at least much nicer than Calum.

When I got home I ran myself a nice bath. I deserved it. Lavender bath bomb and bath salts. Lavender bubble bath and bath pearls as well. Music to remind me that I am my biggest fan.  Beyoncé.  This was all well deserved. This was something I needed.

That night I made the biggest decision I've ever made for myself. I decided that I was going to take care of me, love myself more than ever. Give myself a new outlook.

Obviously it required a lot of work.  I also decided that I would start a much healthier lifestyle...which included getting rid of my blades...