𝐧𝐛𝐚 𝐥𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬 [𝐜𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐝]

heartbreak • d'angelo russell

dear d'angelo,

i can't really believe it. how could you fucking do this to me?

here i am, writing to you at 2 am in the morning, crying my eyes out because of you.

i always thought that if i cried because of you, it would always be out of the happiness you gave me. you made me so happy, d. you really did. i thought everything was going so well, because i loved you so much and i thought you loved me too.

i should have known that i was living a dream. it was too good to be true. i was always happy with you, even though you might not have been. i see that now. 

was i not enough? was i not there for you? was i not doing enough to keep you happy? something about me must have been wrong. what did i do wrong?

i gave everything to you. i let you in, and did absolutely everything to keep you the happiest, even when it cost me. because seeing you happy was enough to make all the bad things disappear.

i loved you with everything i had. i loved you with my entire fucking heart, only to find you had given your heart to someone else.

is she prettier than me? is she better than me? is she nicer than me? tell me what i've done wrong, d. i need to know.

you screwed me over, and i've never felt so much heartbreak and pain in my life.

i don't ever want to see or talk to you again, despite how much i love you.

because you don't love me. and that's enough for me to stay away.

i hope she's good enough for you, because i wasn't.

from,

jasmine

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aww dlo :(