Llana's point of view
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Pagbalik sa aking silid, nadatnan kong tulog na ang aking kapatid. Hindi ko inabala ang kaniyang mahimbing na pagtulog at tinakpan na lamang ng makapal na comforter ang kalahating katawan nito.
I stared at her for a while and headed my way out of my veranda.
Hindi ko mapigilan ang pagngiti habang pinagmamasdan ang maningning na kalawakan. Madilim subalit nagsisilbing liwanag ang dilaw na buwan sa buong kapaligiran kasama ng mga kumikinang na bituin.
Is it really possible to like the person you hated before? At...pwede rin kayang ma-in love ka sa kaniya? How would I know?
Ang daming gumugulo sa utak ko. Samahan pa ng iba't-ibang emosyon na nararamdaman ko ngayon.
I was ecstatic by the thoughts of him adoring me secretly. And the rage inside of me that I have for him before suddenly vanished.
I hated him for peasing me off. All the time. I hated him for hating me for no reason...or, for his reason to forget about me. I hated him, but that was before, I think. I'm scared that he might just playing some kind of dirty tricks and worst, maybe he's just toying me. But I want to give a try. I want to give him a chance.
Pero saan patutungo ito? Sa kabilang banda ng kasiyahan ko, nangangamba ako. Kapag nalaman ng pamilya namin ito, anong magiging reaksyon nila? I'm sure magagalit sina mommy at daddy. Kahit na hindi ako isang tunay na Medina, kahit na hindi ako tunay na kadugo nila, pamilya ang tingin nila sa'kin. Anong gagawin ko!
Gusto kong bigyan ng chance si Nate, pero dapat bang layuan ko na lang siya habang maaga pa?
"Can't sleep, ate?"medyo napapaos na boses ng aking kapatid mula sa aking likuran. Siguro'y nagising lamang mula sa pagkakatulog at nang maramdamang wala pa ako sa tabi niya, minabuti ng hanapin at lapitan ako.
Nilingon ko siya. She's sleepy but she can still manage to smile.
"Bakit bumangon ka pa?"
She didn't answer.
"You should go back to bed. Baka mapuyat ka," I said.
Tinitigan niya lamang ako sa aking mga mata. When she's like this, I know she has something to say, or something to ask.
"What is it?" inunahan ko na siya.
"I accidentally got inside kuya Nate's room. And...i've heard everything." nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa gulat. "Lahat, ate. Narinig ko."
Hindi ako nakaimik sa kaniyang sinabi. Nag-iwas rin ako ng tingin sa kaniya.
Ito na nga ba ang sinasabi ko, eh. Paano kung sabihin niya kina dad? They'll get disappointed with me, for sure. Sigurado akong ilalayo ako rito. How would I explain to her! Oh my!
"You've made the right choice, ate." her mood suddenly changed. "He's already courting you, right? Omg! I knew it. Alam ko naman umpisa pa lang, eh. Ikaw ba naman, bukambibig puro Llana. Sinong hindi makakahalata, 'diba." she giggled.
Sweet, Jesus! What is this little girl talking about. Kinakabahan ako. I thought she's going to confront me and tell our parents but, iba sa inaasahan ko ang ginagawa ng kapatid ko.
I was about to speak and explain pero naunahan niya ako.
"Ate," she suddenly hugged me. "I know something's bothering you. I wasn't that mature enough to understanding things like this, pero gusto ko lang malaman mo na, boto ako para sa inyo ni kuya Nate. I will always support the both of you." my sweet loving sister said while hugging me so tight.
