Why Have I Done This??? (Lams Oneshots)

Stargazing

A/N - all of these events r things that happened when I went star gazing with my friends like some of it is exact quotes 😂

Alexander's POV

   John entered my room out of nowhere and started shoving my blankets and pillows in a bag. I frowned but didn't question it. I was too busy writing my speech for law. It was due in two weeks and it was long as fuck. It needed to be longer. John is my best friend and I have a crush on him. I tend to shove my feelings deep down and shut myself down. John is hot and he works out everyday. He's a head taller than me and well built. He had a lot of freckles and I'm gambling that they're everywhere. He had emerald greens eyes and curly brown hair he kept in a ponytail. He bent down and picked me up by the waist, throwing me over his shoulder like a sack of potatoes.
   "JOHN! WHAT THE FUCK! I HAVE WORK TO DO! PUT ME DOWN!"
   "No. Laf start the car!" John called.
   "Jack! IM NOT EVEN DRESSED!"
   "You look hot. It's fine."
   "JOHN! PUT ME DOWN! PUT ME DOWN! NOW! JOHN LAURENS!" I started to pound on his back and kick my legs. John just tightened his grip and I screamed and fought. He shoved me in the back of the car and sat next to me. Laf started driving and John handed me shoes and pants. I glared at him and he smiled. I sat in a oversized t-shirt and boxers with a scowl on my face. "I have work to do."
   "No you don't."
   "Yes, I do!"
   "Alex, you haven't left your room in three days. Now. Put pants on." I groaned and put the pants and shoes on.
   "Where are we going?"
   "You'll see." I shoved him and glared.
   "Tell me now or I'll scream."
   "That's ridiculous, Lex. I'm not telling you." I opened my mouth and shrieked at the top of my lungs. John cupped his hand over my mouth and I licked it. "Are you done yet?" I groaned and nodded. He let go and wiped his hand on my knee. "Thank you. It's a surprise. You'll like it trust me." I rolled my eyes and John sighed. "C'mon, Alex. Don't be like that." John tried to put his arm around my shoulders and I scooted to the other side of the car.
   "Fuck you."
   "Alex-"
   "Don't 'Alex' me. This is kidnap." John rolled his eyes and I crossed my arms over my chest.
   "C'mon. Are you really mad at me?"
   "Yes."
   "I'm sorry, Lexi. If I asked you never would've agreed." Fuck. He has a point. I looked out the window and stayed quiet. "You know I'm right. I know you know I'm right."
   "Fuck you."
   "I rather not."
   "I hate you."
   "No you don't."
   "You're right. I don't." I huffed, John chuckled and shook his head. I spent half the car ride mad until John started to gently pull individual hairs and I started giggling. Soon we were laughing and cracking horribly offensive jokes.

   The car ride lasted for two hours until Laf pulled into a park and parked next to a river. John grinned and got out. Laf and Herc chases each other around as I leaned against the hood of the car. John sat next to me and smiled.
   "Still mad?"
   "A bit."
   "Hey, let's go down to the river!" John grinned.
   "Oh, John. I-" he grabbed my arm and towed me to the river. The only problem was to get down the bank we had to go down a steep incline. "John!"
   "What?" He asked from the bank.
   "I can't-"
   "Yes, you can. Just walk down."
   "I'm gonna fall."
   "No, you won't." He chuckled, I huffed and started to walk down. John held out his hand and I took it, letting him help me down. "See. You're fine." He smiled down at me and I blushed. He hadn't let go of my hand yet and he didn't until he stooped down at the rivers edge and picked up two flat rocks. He handed one to me and I frowned. "You skip it."
   "I don't know how."
   "You're cute. Like this-" he moved my legs into a good stance and showed me how to properly throw it so it would skip across the river. I did what he said and skipped it twice. "That's it." John grinned and gave me a high five.
   "Hey! Let's go hiking!" Laf called, I looked at John and was already climbing back up.
   "Wait! John! I can't-" a hand grabbed mine and John helped me up the steep incline. We started walking to the trails and I got lost in my thoughts. Laf and Herc were rough housing behind us and John and I walked silently shoulder to shoulder. We came to the trail entrance and were met with a cone. "Mountain Loins spotted. Enter at your own risk." I read aloud.
   "We shouldn't go in." Herc hummed, John and I looked at each other as shit eating grins spread across our faces and trouble blazed in our eyes.
   "FUCK YEAH! LETS GO!" We yelled and took off up the trail. We came to a rickety pavilion and collapsed on a bench in a fit of giggles.
   "You're gonna get us killed!" Laf huffed.
   "YAY!" I cheered, John elbowed me and glared. "Sorry." I shrugged, grinning.
   "You're lucky." We chatted for awhile and it wasn't long until I was excluded. Although I was tight with all three of them there was a barrier. They had all played for the same high school football team, I had been on the colorguard. I had John in a few classes and we were paired up to be partners on projects but we were never really friends until he started waving to me in the halls senior year. I discreetly stood and walked along the trail. I came to a small bridge and smiled. The air smelled sweet and the sound of the water danced in my mind as I let my other senses take over. Sadly I was brought back to reality by foot steps on the wood next to me. I opened my eyes to find John standing next to me, staring at our surroundings. I blushed as I look up at him and bit my lip. "Hey."
   "Hi."
   "It's nice up here."
   "Yeah."
   "Now do you see why I kidnapped you?" He looked down at me with those gorgeous eyes and my heart stopped. "I'm worried about you. We all are. You're not taking care of yourself. You have bags under your eyes and you're loosing weight. Hell, Alex! I cried the other night because I didn't know what to do."
   "Maybe we should go back." I mumbled, I turned to walk away but John grabbed my arm.
   "Please don't avoid this. Don't avoid me." His eyes swam with sadness and I looked at my shoes. "Lex, you're getting skinny. What if-" John voice quivered and I looked up to see the tears started to fall. I rarely see John cry, he's always smiles and hugs but every now and then he needs smiles and hugs. "What if you die?" There was a time when I would've welcomed it but John helped me get out of it.
   "I'm sorry. I'll start taking care of myself. Jack, you know me." I brushed his tears off his freckled cheeks and smiled. "Sometimes I need a little reminding." I cupped his cheeks as he gripped my wrists and cried. "John, please?" I begged, wanting him to stop crying.
"I'm sorry. I can't stop." I engulfed him in a hug and he buried his face in my neck. "You're right."
"Huh?"
"We could be dead." He chuckled, wiping his faces
"Yeah." I giggled, it fell silent and I got an idea.
"Maybe we should scream." We spoke in unison, we burst into a fit of giggles and I smiled. John was smiling again and that made me happy. I felt bad for making him cry and I wanted to make it up to him. Without warning he took my hands and I froze.
"Alex...there's something the important I need to tell you. I-"
"Yo! Pizza's here!" Laf called from three feet away, John hugged and I glanced over my shoulder.
"We'll be right there!" I called back. "You were saying?"
"I was saying we should probably go back." He chuckled, I smiled and linked my arm with his. We skipped back down the trail and back to the bank where we parked. John and I decided we wanted more best friend time so we opted to eat our pizza on the bank of the river. After we ate we chased each other around and giggled. John is way faster than me so I was panicking, trying to get away. I tripped on a root and fell into the river. Now any other ordinary person would just swim to the surface. Yeah no. It was a steep drop off and I can't swim. I thrashed and gasped for air only for my lungs to fill with water. My vision started to blur and a pair of arms wrapped firmly around my chest. They hauled me to the surface and onto the bank. Someone hit my back and I threw up all the water. "Alex?" John's worries voice came rushing through my ears as I cough and sputtered. "I'm so sorry." John is the only one who knows about my past and my conditions. Memories flashed through my head as I coughed and I grabbed John's arm.
"Help-" I croaked, he understood immediately and picked me up. He was soaking wet from diving in after me and I shivered in the cool evening air. The sun hadn't set yet and it was only gonna get colder. As I relived the horrors of the hurricane John undressed me down to my boxers and wrapped me in his blankets. They smelled like him and I burrowed deep in them. He pulled a towel out of no where and began drying my hair as I sat in the back of the SUV. I watched him quietly as he dried my hair and cupped my cheek.
"I'm so sorry." He mumbled to me as he worked. "I'm so stupid. I shouldn't've chased you." He was ready to cry again and I reached up, caressing his cheek.
"I'm ok." I mumbled, trying to make him feel better. "I promise."
"God. I'm a horrible friend."
"Shut up. You're perfect."
"Is Alex ok?" Laf appeared and I sniffed, tightening the blankets around me.
"I'm ok." I mumbled, John pet my hair and sighed.
"The sun is setting. We're gonna go out in the field." John nodded and Laf disappeared.
"Where are my clothes?"
"No. Not those wet things. I have my gym bag."
"Ew! I don't want your sweating nastyness!" I gagged.
"Will you shut up? It's my back up clothes. Besides, people would pay for my sweat." I rolled my eyes and shoved him playfully. "I'm sexy." I blushed and glared at him playfully. He got real close to my face and grinned. "Do you disagree?"
"Nope." I shook my head and blushed harder.
"Good." He pecked my nose and fit one of his blue muscle shirts over my head.
"John...this shows all of my scars." I mumbled as he helped me into the shorts that hung of my hip.
"Shit...I'm sorry. I don't...have anything else."
"It's fine. Maybe they won't notice." I shrugged, John shook his head and sighed.
"I'm so sorry."
"Stop apologizing. I tripped because I'm stupid. It's not your fault." John huffed and picked me up bridal style. "I can walk."
"No. There's stickers everywhere."
"My shoes-"
"I said no." John smiled and I rolled my eyes. He laid me down on the blanket and stretched out next to me. The four of us chatted for a bit before John's hand took mine and entwined our fingers. He leaned over and I blushed madly. "Can we go done by the river? I promise I won't push you in. There's a little clearing where you can see the stars."
"Ok." He picked me up again and we headed down to the river. John kicked his shoes off and we walked hand in hand along the rivers edge in silence. We walked for about five minutes before John stop and moved in front of me, taking my free hand in his own. "John-"
"I'm in love with you." He breathed, my cheeks heated up and my palms got sweaty. "I have been since senior year. I'm sorry if that upsets you but I really wanna stay friends."
"I'm in love with you too." John stared for a moment before leaning in. Our lips met and I melted into the kiss. John pulled my waist closer and I grabbed fistfuls of his damp t-shirt.
"Alexander Hamilton, you are the most perfect person on this earth. Will you be my boyfriend?" I blushed and smiled.
"I'd love too, John Laurens." John kisses me again and I realized something. "Senior year?" John blushed and chuckled dryly.
"Yeah. Sorry."
"Why didn't you say something, you asshole?" I playfully shoved him and he giggled.
"That's why, shorty."
"Hey, now-...I'm not that short."
"Yeah...you are." John pulled me into a hug and rested his chin on the top of my head. "I love you."
"I love you too."
"We should get back to Laf and Herc."
"Yeah." We walked hand in hand back to the blanket and laid down in each other's arms.
"Finally."
"What?" We asked in unison.
"Are you guys a thing now?"
"Yup!" I smiled proudly and John grinned.
"Hell yeah." John kissed me gently and I nuzzled into his side. We stared at the stars and chatted mindlessly as John held me. Everything was perfect for once.