Why Have I Done This??? (Lams Oneshots)

Military

A/N - ok so this one shot and the last one were both sort of requests made by @It_Be_Like_dat

John's POV

   "THE MILITARY!" Alex screamed, making me jump. "YOU CAN POSSIBLY-"
   "My whole family is military, Alex. You know my dad. I've gotta."
   "But-...what about me? What happens if you die! I KNEW I SHOULDNT HAVE-"
   "Will you calm down? I'm not gonna die." Alex raised an eyebrow and gestured to his bookshelf.
   "The heroes never truly win!"
   "Baby, those are just books."
   "That have lessons in them! Please don't go? What happened to marine biology?" I sighed heavily and Alex folded his arms.
   "This is better."
   "HOW IS DEATH BETTER!"
   "Will you stop it with the death? I thought you were over this?" He threw an empty pill bottle at me and I sighed heavily. "You can't pay for refills, can you?" He shook his head and I smiled. "C'mon. Let's go get you-"
   "No!" He pushed away from me and sniffed. "I don't want you back in a box." That hit me hard, Alex and I have always been really close and he's really fragile. I really like him as more than a friend. He's sweet and cute and...I'm gonna miss him.
   "Don't play that card." I whispered.
   "I just did." He snapped.
   "Alex...I don't wanna fight with you. I just want you to be happy."
   "I'm happy knowing you're safe!"
   "Please don't fight with me?" Alex sighed and slowly put his forehead on my chest, signaling he wanted a hug. I gladly hugged him and rested my head on his. "I'm sorry, Alex."
   "Promise you'll write?"
   "Absolutely. I'll write as much as I can and I'll even FaceTime you when I can."
   "Promise?"
   "I swear up and down and promise with all of my heart." I squeezed him tightly and I could tell he was crying.

   Alex insisted on driving me to the airport so I let him and he wouldn't talk on the drive over. He's mad I know that and upset but I'm kind of sad about it. I'm all done up in my uniform and Alex keeps glancing at me. When we got to the airport I grabbed my bag and slung it over my shoulder. Alex stayed in the car for a minute and I knew he was crying. Alex has always been really fragile and I'm always there for him. The truth is I can't promise that I'll come back in one piece but I'm gonna do my fucking best to stay alive for him. Alex got out of the car and I saw that his eyes were a little puffy and his face was red. I entwined our fingers and he took a gasping breath, trying not to cry. "So...are you gonna go to college?" I asked, looking down at him.
"No." His voice was barely a whisper and I squeezed his hand. His medication would take a few days to come in so he's still very upset and fragile.
"Why not? I thought you wanted to go to King's and be a lawyer?"
"I do but...I don't have the money."
"Take my trust fund."
"What!" Alex looked up at me and I chuckled.
"Take my trust fund. I want you to go to college. Either that or you could enli-"
"I wouldn't last a day and you know that." We laughed and I opened the door for him. "I don't wanna take your m-"
"It's not taking. It's borrowing."
"I will be in debt to you until I die and I'm not turning into my father."
"Ok. Then burrow it with the collateral of being my friend." Alex raised an eyebrow and I laughed. "Just take it. You can pay me back in smiles." I teased as I checked my bags on the screen, Alex groaned and laid against me.
"You're not gonna let me out of this, are you?"
"Nope!" Alex groaned loudly and I lifted my bag onto the scale.
"Fine. You annoy me."
"You love me." Alex sighed dramatically and I chuckled. "I'll buy you coffee."
"You know the way to my heart, Laurens."
"Yes, I do." No, we aren't dating. We're just really close but I have a crush on him. That is a thing. He's perfect in every way. I bought him some coffee and he stared at the ground as we waited for it. "Hey...don't think of it as me leaving. Think of it as-"
"John...you're going to get hurt."
"How do you-"
"Because I know you. You're reckless and you'd do anything to protect the people around you. You're gonna hurt yourself and I don't want to see that happen."
"I know...I'll be careful. I promise." Alex looked unsure and I pulled him into a hug. He started crying and I held on tightly.
"What am I gonna do without you?"
"Well...I'm sure you'll go to college and get amazing grades. You'll have all these silly stories to tell me." Alex hugged me tightly and I kissed his head. "C'mon on, baby. I don't like this either. I don't wanna leave you but I gotta."
"What happened to Marine Biology!" He smacked my arm and I chuckled.
"It'll be ok. I promise?"
"Those are empty promises!"
"They aren't. I'll be careful and I'll come back in one piece."
"You better." He got his coffee and I held his hand tightly. We played card games and Alex seemed to forget for a few moments. Right now he's laying against me with his head on my shoulder and we're playing war. I kissed his head and laid my head on his. "What am I gonna do without you?" He asked quietly, I sighed and laid a card down.
   "I'll call you and wr-"
   "Flight 1782 is now boarding." Alex started to cry and I cleaned up the cards.
   "Please don't cry, baby. I'll call you everyday and I'll write to you. I promise."
   "I'm scared."
   "I know. I'll come back in one piece. I promise."
   "Promise?"
   "Promise." I lifted his chin and pressed my lips against his. He whimpered and kissed back, grabbing fistfuls of my uniform. "I'm gonna be ok."
   "You better be." He sniffed.
   "Look at me, peaches." He looked up into my eyes and I cupped his freckled cheeks. "I'm not that much of an idiot. I'm not going to get myself killed. I promise. I'm gonna come back to you." Alex nodded and I hugged him tightly.
   "If you die I'll kill you." I chuckled and pressed another kiss on his lips.
   "Promise?" He playfully shoved me and I laughed. I dug in my carry on and pulled out the stuffed turtle my mom bought me years ago. "Can you do me a big favor?" Alex sniffed and nodded. "Can you take care of her? I need you here on the home front, baby." Alex giggled a bit and took the turtle. "I gotta go. I have a lay over I'll call you. I promise."
   "Bye, Jacky."