Why Have I Done This??? (Lams Oneshots)

Happy

A/N - I'm very very tired and it is time for spring break

Request made by @It_Be_Like_dat

Alexander's POV

I sat in a bedroom type thing, fiddling with the sleeve of my jacket- James' jacket. I wouldn't let them take it from me. I didn't wanna be here but I can't survive in society like this. They keep saying there's something wrong with me but they won't say what. I don't talk to people...I don't like talking to people. They ask too many questions. Too many questions I don't want to answer. The doctor seems nice but I'm still not going to say anything. He's just trying to figure me out. He's making me go to this small group thing, I'm not telling anyone anything.

"Welcome, everyone. I'd like to introduce you to our new member. Everyone say hello to Alexander." A man smiled, people waved and I shifted. To my left was a girl with dark brown hair and pretty eyes wearing a blue night gown. Next to her was a boy with red hair like me but his hair was straight and he had chestnut eyes. Next to him was a boy about my age, he wore a straight jacket and his nappy blonde hair shrouded his face. Lastly, the man on the end was well built with brown hair and blue eyes. "Well, let's start with Hercules and we'll go around the circle. Ending with Alexander."
"Hi, I'm Hercules- FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, ELIZA! FIX YOUR DRESS!" I looked at the girl and she frowned, looking at her dress.
"There's nothing wrong with it."
"Hercules, just breathe." The group leader smiled, Hercules took deep breaths and the leader moved on. "John?"
"Fuck off." He spat.
"We discussed this, John. No foul language."
"Oh yeah? Well. FUCK YOU!" I flinched and he looked at me funny.
"Laurens...calm." The leader smiled, John was seething with rage now and I drew my knees into my chest in fear. The red head put a hand on his shoulder and John grumbled something to him. "Good. Lafayette?"
"I'm feeling pretty good today actually."
"Well. That's splendid. Very good. Eliza?"
"He's pretty." I glanced at her and she was staring at me. I shifted and scooted away. She crawled closer. I moved away again. She got closer. She started touching my thigh and I panicked. Lafayette grabbed Eliza's foot and pulled her back. "No! He likes me!" I shook my head and buried my face in my knees.
"Ok. Moving on. Alexander? How are you feeling today." I didn't answer. "Alexander?" No. I won't answer. The group talked for the next hour and I kept my head down. Lafayette's voice seemed to change a couple times and Hercules leaned over to fix my hair once. Eliza kept eyeing me like prey and John just stared at me. His gaze was hard yet calm. He didn't talk other than telling someone to fuck off when they spoke to him and he wrestled with the jacket as he stared. When group was over I was sent back to my room and I sat looking at the empty extra bed. I was bored. There was nothing to do so I just stared out the window until I fell asleep.

John's POV

   "What's wrong with him?" I grumbled to Laf and Herc. Herc was to busy clicking the channel three times before going back to the show he wanted to pay attention and Laf looked over at me.
   "I don't know." He shrugged, I guess his little personality was out because he was playing with his hair and using his little kid voice. Let me explain. Laf has Multiple Personality Disorder. He has three other personalities. A little kid because he was robbed of his childhood like me. A drunk high school kid because...I'm not sure. And a personality where he literally doesn't know anyone. Herc has OCD. So... it gets annoying sometimes.
   "Can he talk?"
   "I don't know!" Laf whined, annoyed with my questions. I huffed and followed the stupid guard to my room. I have Intermit Explosive Disorder. I get really angry for no reason and I lash out horribly. My father has it and he beat us for years. I've always been terrified of turning into him and it makes me angrier that I can't control it. I also have depression and I have scars littering my arms from years of undiagnosed depression. I'm not allowed to go anywhere without a guard and I can't walk around without a straight jacket. So you stab one person with a plastic fork and you're suddenly 'dangerous' and 'psychotic'. Lee started it and I got taken down for it cause he 'doesn't know better'. Bullshit. He knew exactly what he was doing. After a couple hours of drawing nothing with nothing on the bedsheets the door opened and I looked up. Doctor Washington stood in the door and I glanced at him.
"You may eat dinner with the others. If you lash out there will be consequences." My eyes widened and I got up, following him to the dining hall. I sat beside Laf and Herc and smiled.
"They let you out?" Laf grinned, I nodded and sat next to him. He seemed to be his normal self and Herc was impulsively moving things and tapping glasses and what not. I shifted in my seat as people stared at me and waited to be served. Laf noticed the new kid sitting at a table alone and smiled. He got up and slowly approached him. "Hey, can I sit here?" The boy looked up and nodded a bit. Laf sat down and smiled. "My name is Lafayette. It's Alexander, right?" Alex nodded and I rolled my eyes. "Can I introduce you to my friends?" The boy looked at Laf then us and Laf beckoned is over. Hercules dragged me to the table and forced me to sit down. I huffed and folded my arms.
"Hi, I'm Hercules. Um...do you mind if I-" Herc started rearranging things and Laf rubbed his shoulder. "S-Sorry. I have OCD." Alex nodded and Laf smiled warmly.
"I have multiple personality disorder." Alex nodded and looked at me. Laf gave me a pointed glance and I huffed.
"I have Intermit Explosive Disorder." I grumbled, the boy frowned and I rolled my eyes. "I get really angry for no fucking reason." I snapped, he nodded and Laf smiled.
   "Can you talk?" The boy nodded. "Do you wanna talk?" He shook his head slowly and Laf gave a calm smile. "That's alright. We won't pressure you. Just take your time." He kept glancing at me with a worried look and Herc caught on.
"John won't do anything. He's fine." Our food was served and the boy poked at it. I scarfed mine down and the boy slowly ate. Laf and Herc talked and asked him yes or no questions and I just stared around. When dinner was over I was taken back to the stupid white room and locked in for the night. Great.