Why Have I Done This??? (Lams Oneshots)

Stay Alive

A/N - saw this TikTok trend and I had too I just...I had too theres a fuck ton of angst it's just a mini shot

Alexander's POV

   "Morning, Alex!" My best friend, John, grinned.
   "Hey."
   "What's wrong?" I shrugged and he bit his lip. "How long?"
   "Three days." John's smiled dropped and his eyes swam with sorrow.
   "Please...I'm begging you. If you won't do it for yourself then-...do it for me?"
   "John...you know-"
   "Alex...you've served it. You don't have to die!" When you kill someone they're lives add to yours...when I was twelve I brought home to sickness that killed my mother and I acquired her lives. Then I lost my brother to a hurricane and I have no one left. Well...no one but John. Part of me longs to stay and be with him but I don't wanna watch him run around with someone else. I want to be with him. I want him to myself. I...want him.
   "Yes, I do, John."
   "Alex-"
   "Drop it." John sighed and the bell rang.
   "Can I take you to lunch so we can talk about this?" I sighed knowing John wasn't gonna let me go.
   "Alright, fine."
   "Ok. Thank you." He kissed my cheek and sprinted down the hall, leaving me a blushing mess. I grabbed my bag and headed to class.

John's POV

   He can't die. I can't let him. He had so much to live for and I just...I can't. Not while I'm still alive. I drove Alex to McDonalds during lunch and I sat next to him. We snagged a booth in the bag just in case and he ate in silence. "Why won't you kill someone?" Alex looked up at me and sighed.
   "I don't want to live with this...weight."
   "Baby...in three days it'll be lifted."
   "The guilt will still be there."
   "But it wasn't your fault."
   "Then why'd I get her lives, John?" He snapped, I fell silent and Alex huffed. "I'm sorry. Ok? But this is my choice. Not yours." Tears slipped down my cheeks and Alex bit his lip. "No...please don't cry?"
   "I'm really gonna miss you, Lex."
   "Please...don't do that?"
   "I'm sorry. I just...-" I hugged him and he hugged back. I cried into his shoulder and Alex gripped onto me. I felt his tears soak my shirt and I lifted my head to look at him. "I'm begging you...You hate Thomas. You always say you wanna kill him. I'll hold him down for you. Or Samuel! Or Lee! Or-" Alex leaned forward and kissed me, catching me off guard. I cupped his cheeks and after a moment we pulled away. "Why would you do that?"
   "Partly because you need to shut up and partly because you're cute." I blushed and wiped my face.
   "That was an asshole move, Alex!"
   "You didn't pull away! So why does it matter! I'm dying anyway!"
   "Because I like you, damn it!"
   "...what?"
   "We're gonna be late." I gathered my things and threw the trash away. Alex scrambled to catch up and falling hard. I rushed to help him and found that his skin was ice. He started coughing and I helped him up. "Let's get you home."
   "But school-" I picked him and he tried to steady his breath.
   "Your GPA won't matter in two and a half days." I sighed, carrying him to the truck. "I swear if you have Corona-" Alex started laughing and I chuckled. I laid him in the passenger seat and buckled him up. I got in the car and started driving.
   "Do you really like me?" Alex raspy voice asked, I glanced at him and sighed.
   "Yes..."
   "For how long?"
   "Since...last year?"
   "Why didn't you say something?"
   "I thought you like Eliza?"
   "Nope...I like you." I sighed heavily and kept my eyes on the road. I reached over and took Alex's hand. "I'm sorry. It's not fair to you." I sighed again turned off the truck, turning to him.
   "You're right it's not and I will literally get on my knees and beg you to kill someone but you won't change your mind. I know that. It's one of the many reasons I like you."
   "I'm sorry, John." He started coughing and I kissed his forehead.
   "I know." I carried him inside and laid him down in his bed. He looked horrible but still beautiful. His once sun kissed skin was now a sickly pale white and his once vibrant hazel eyes were now dull and sunken. I drew the covers around him and he smiled.  "Get some rest." I whispered, kissing his forehead and sitting next to him.