A cruise ship carrying hundreds of passengers which include several Thai BL actors from popular BL drama series such as Love By Chance, 2 Moons S1, Lovesick, Kiss Me Again, Theory of Love, etc, gets wrecked during an unexpected heavy storm after it...
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Mean's POV
I could sense Plan's hesitation when I first placed my lips on his but as I deepened the kiss I felt him starting to kiss me back. That emboldened me a little bit so I pushed his lips apart with my tongue and when he slightly opened his lips I pushed my tongue further inside, tasting and exploring the insides of his mouth.
I could feel his heart beating fast against my chest as I pulled him closer to my body. I caressed him all over his back as I continued to kiss him.
He moaned softly when I moved my mouth to the side of his neck. I planted soft moist kisses all over the side of his neck before moving down to the crook of his shoulder.
I felt him raising his arms to put his hands on the back of my neck.
He did not stop me when I started to unbutton his pajama top. I savored the silkiness of his skin as I caressed his bare chest following each path of my hand with my tongue.
When I found his nipple, he jerked his chest forward as I started to suck on it.
"Jaylerr......" I froze when I heard him say a name, someone's name, someone else's name, someone else's fvcking name......
I quickly let go of him and got out of the bed. I stood by the bed, my hands on my hips, looking down accusingly at him. He could not see my facial expression in the darkness.
I waited for him to say something but he kept silent. I couldn't see his face in the dark but I could make out his movements. He was buttoning up his pajama top.
When I made a move towards the door, "Mean! Wait! Please!"
I turned around and slowly walked towards the bed.
He climbed out of the bed and moved to embrace me but I held him back.
"Plan..." I had to swallow hard before I could talk again... "I think it's best that I go back to my cabin. I think you should..."
"Mean, please, I need you beside me," he interrupted, "I... I'm a little confused right now and I... "
It was my turn to interrupt him, "No, Plan, you are not confused. You still love Jaylerr, is that his name?"
He did not reply so I continued, "You still love your boyfriend... "
"Ex," he interrupted.
"Don't call him that if you have not had a formal breakup," I reminded him, "and anyway what I wanted to say earlier was that, no, you are not confused, you still love your boyfriend, he is still very much in your thoughts... " my voice trailed off because my chest was getting tight and I was starting to breathe heavily in my effort to keep my tears at bay.
Plan did not contradict what I just said so his silence confirmed to me that he still loved Jaylerr and therefore Jaylerr was still very much on his mind.
"I need you with me tonight," I almost did not hear him because his voice came out in a whisper, as if he did not want me to hear what he was saying.
My resolve to go back to my cabin softened at the tone of his voice. Even if it was a whisper I could hear the pleading in his voice.
What was I to do? Why was I so soft for him. I shook my head at the realization that I was putty in his hands.
Plan must have seen me shaking my head in the dark because he quickly grabbed my wrist.
"No! Mean! Please don't leave me!"
"I wasn't going to," I assured him.
"But why were you shaking your head?"
I didn't want to tell him why. If I did then he would know that I had fallen for him. I was a big stupid brainless fool who had fallen for someone who was in a committed relationship and was still very much in love with the person with whom he was in a committed relationship.
"I won't leave you, you baby," the 'baby' part came to my lips unexpectedly.
I heard him let out a heavy sigh of relief as he climbed back into bed, his hand not letting go of my wrist.
The moment we were both settled in bed, I felt him try to hug me.
"No, Plan," I said, holding him away, even if it hurt me to do so, "let's just try to sleep, unless you want to talk about your boyfriend and why you came on this vacation without him."
"I wanted him to come with me on this vacation!" his voice cracked and even though I could not see his face, I knew that he was crying again.
"Why did he refuse to come along with you?" I asked, needing to know just what was going on between him and his boyfriend.
"Because he felt that coming along with me was going to take our relationship to another level and he was not prepared for a deeper kind of commitment," Plan explained.
I could hear the hurt in his voice. He must love this Jaylerr so much that he was in a hurry to get into a deeper commitment with him.
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I started to wonder how this Jaylerr looked like and what kind of personality he had. Was he so handsome and charismatic? Could I even try to compete?
My heart sank at the thought that I would never be able to replace Jaylerr in Plan's heart.
"Maybe when you get back to him after this vacation, he will change his mind about not going into a more committed relationship with you," I tried to assure him, even though my chest was tight with pain.
"I don't know, Mean, I don't know," was Plan's response, "please just hold me in your arms until I fall asleep."
And because I was a moron, an idiot, a fool, who was blindly in love with someone who did not love me back, I placed my arms around him and whispered, "Try to sleep now. I will hold you like this until you fall asleep."
"And then you will leave me?" his voice sounded sad and mournful.
"I won't," I promised, "I will still be here when you wake up."
On impulse, he gave me a grateful kiss on my cheek.
