Island of BL

Chapter 76: Mean, Plan

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Plan's POV

A mild shiver ran through my spine as I felt Mean's lips on mine. I felt his tongue seeking entrance into my mouth by pushing my lips apart. I willingly let his tongue explore the insides of my mouth.

I cannot tell at what exact moment my mind had shifted to Jaylerr. I'm guessing it was when his moist lips lingered on the base of my neck as he started to unbutton my pajama top because that was always how Jaylerr started his lovemaking session with me.

"Jaylerr..." I moaned as I felt his mouth on my nipple.

The moment I felt his mouth leave my chest, I realized that it was not Jaylerr who was starting to make love to me.

Bloody hell, what was I doing, letting someone other than Jaylerr touch me intimately???

I felt Mean quickly leaving the bed and I hurriedly buttoned up my pajama top as he stood by the bed. I could tell he was glaring at me with a face full of hurt and accusation even if I could not see it clearly in the dark.

I was at a loss for words. I was full of shame and guilt.

Then I saw Mean's form making its way to the door. I was galvanized into action.

"Mean! Wait!" I cried as I leapt out of bed to go after him.

"Plan, I think it's best that I go back to my cabin," I heard him say in a hurt tone and I couldn't blame him.

I pleaded with him to stay. I needed someone to stay with me through the night. The news from my cousin Sek that Jaylerr was now with someone else devastated me and I knew that I could not make it alone to the following morning.

"I... I'm sorry, Mean, it's just that I'm a little bit confused right now," I tried to say but he interrupted me with, "No, Plan, you're not confused. You're still in love with Jaylerr. He's still very much on your mind."

I could not contradict him because he was telling the truth, but I badly needed him to stay with me till morning at least.

"I need you with me tonight," I pleaded, hoping against hope that he would give in to me and stay.

In the dark I could see him shaking his head.

"No, Mean, no!" I pleaded, "Don't leave me! Pleeeze!"

To my happy surprise, I heard him say, "I won't leave you, you baby."

I didn't mind him calling me a baby. I will admit that I am still immature in many ways. I can sometimes be so needy for company and tonight was one of those times.

I grabbed hold of his wrist and pulled him back into bed with me.

I moved to give him a grateful hug once we were in bed but he held me away.

"No, Plan," he said, "let's just try to sleep now, unless you want to talk about why you and your boyfriend are not spending this vacation together."

I explained to Mean that Jaylerr had refused to come along on this vacation because he felt that doing so would push our relationship to a committed level and I could tell that Jaylerr was not ready for that.

Mean must have heard the hurt in my voice because he tried to console me by saying that things might be different when I got back with Jaylerr, that maybe when we saw each other again, Jaylerr would agree to a more committed relationship.

I let out a sigh, "I don't know, Mean, I don't know, but please just hold me in your arms until I fall asleep."

I heard him sigh as well as he slid his arm under my neck and moved close to place his other arm around me.