Mass Destruction

Chapter 97 :-)

"Don't do this Corrie. I can make things better"

"You can't. Not anymore. I'm done, I want a divorce

He didn't mean to leave her alone in the hospital, and he certainly didn't plan on going to Diosa to cheat on her.

He swears she only gave him head; he won't have sex with anyone but Corrie. She has to believe him.

She has to fucking trust him.

Corrie hasn't been home in three days which absolutely kills Jax. He hasn't slept a wink since she left; too busy worrying about his marriage.

Jax calls her again, running a hand over his face as the dial tone plays in his ear.

Hey, it's Corrie. Leave a message

Jax's lips quiver and a single tear escapes his eye.

"Baby, it's me. Uh, Jax." He shakes his head, why the fuck wouldn't she know it's you dumbass?

"I uh, I didn't mean to uh... babe, I'm sorry about everything. I've been a coward ever since we found out you might have cancer. I left you when you needed me most and I'm so goddamn sorry about that. I'm so fucking sorry for going to Diosa but I swear to you I didn't let it go far, and it's not because Phil stopped us. I swear baby, I'm so sorry. Please just hear me out Corrie – just one time. Don't break this off before I have a chance to explain. I'm begging you, please don't do this. I love you Cor, more than life. I know I haven't been the best husband or father, but I can make it better. I can be better. I'll be the man you deserve or I'll try to be. I'm excited to become a father again – I can't wait to find out what we're having, I'm sorry I made you doubt it. Please call me, I'm begging you. I love you baby, more than you'll ever know."

Jax is full on crying when he hangs up. He stares at the photo of him and Corrie in high school displayed proudly on his desk in his dorm room.

He picks it up and smiles at Corrie through a river of tears, "I'll make it better."

**

"Jax" Tig knocks on the door and stares sympathetically at a crying Jax. The president hastily wipes away his tears

"Brother, it's time for Church."

He nods his head and stands up, "has Corrie been here?"

Tig shakes his head, "not since yesterday. Sorry bro."

The blonde nods, "alright, let's do this."

**

Jax checks his phone after Church, his heart breaking in a million pieces when he sees she hasn't called.

"I'm going home, uh, to try and find Cor."

Chibs nods his head, "Okay bro."

**

Jax speeds off to the house hoping like hell that Corrie is still there. He's relieved when he finds her car still parked in the driveway.

Jax runs into the house, "Corrie! Cor!"

He runs into the bedroom and finds her packing up her clothes. Jax halts in his steps at the sight of the bags.

"Please don't leave me Corrie, please."

She looks at him though red eyes, "you betrayed my trust Jax, I love you but I can't forgive you"

Jax tries his absolute best to come up with words to keep her, everything he said in his voicemail was true, had she listened to it?

"H-have you listened to my voicemail?"

"Yeah"

Jax nods. Tears form in his eyes reddening his blue orbs. "I meant every word"

"I know you did" She answers truthfully. She stops packing and sits down on the bed. "Why did you do it? Why did you leave me to go to a whore house?"

"Because I'm a goddamn coward Cor. I run from my problems, I didn't want to face it. If you had cancer and I'd lose you, I'd drown."

"You're a selfish son of a bitch" She snaps, startling him. "I was the one facing cancer not you. But I didn't piss off like a stupid little girl. I stayed. I fucking stayed."

Jax bends down on his knees in front of her, "I know. I am selfish, I'm arrogant. I hate myself for it. I left you when you were facing a massive decision, I almost got out son hurt yesterday. I'm a disaster, but you keep me whole babe. You keep me grounded. I love you so much. I'll do anything you want. Please stay, please don't divorce me."

Corrie sniffs, "speaking of your son. He hit a boy over the head with a metal lunch box. When I asked him why he did it, he said it's because mommy and daddy hate each other"

Jax scrunches up his face in sadness, "I didn't know"

"We need a break Jax."

"Corrie, Cor, please don't. Please." Jax is full on crying now. "Please don't leave me."

"I already did."

Jax steps closer to her and hesitantly takes her hand in his. He's relieved when she doesn't pull away

"Do you love me?"

Corrie shrugs as an answer

"It's a simple question babe"

She meets his eyes, "I don't think I will ever stop. That doesn't mean that I'm extremely angry and hurt. I need time, and you need to give it to me."