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You're More Than Worthy

WARNINGS/TAGS: MEANTION OF THE WORD F*GGOT,  ABUSE, BULLYING, SUICIDE, ANGST

Today is the day, he's going to do it, after all the threats an bullying, he's finally going to do it.

Suicide,

"Kill yourself! You fucking faggot! No one even cares for you" , "why are you still alive?"

Namjoon looks at his arms, all the scars on his arms and thighs.

He remembers that time when he was choked until he passes put because he was "wasting" the bully's oxygen.

He frowns, but smiles again when he remembers the way Yoongi rushed him to the hospital.

That was the first time he saw his hyung cry, it hurt to see him like that. Namjoon smiled and hugged the older, "don't worry hyung, I'm here now, aren't I?"

Well he's about to leave officially now, he already texted Yoongi, only person that really cared for him.

He looked at his scars again and smiles, the almost faded permanent writing above his scar.

Yoongi did that, he took a permanent marker and wrote something nice over each scar. "You're beautiful", "you ARE worthy of living" , "I love you."

Sometimes Yoongi even wrote cheesy lines that he knew would make Namjoon laugh. It made him smile, he loves Yoongi, but Yoongi could never love someone like him, even though he says it, Namjoon isn't worth of Yoongi's love.

The letter Namjoon wrote to Yoongi was right beside him, 4 pages, back and front, he let his whole heart out.

Namjoon sighs standing, it was currently 2:09 AM, September 12th.

His birthday, he had wanted to do it this day and the same exact time he was born.

Why? He doesn't know.

"I'm sorry Yoongi.." Namjoon mutters before taking a deep breath and closing his eyes, his back facing the wide city view. "I really love you, I do.. but.. I just don't belong here."

"KIM FUCKING NAMJOON" He heard his name and his eyes opened. "H-hyung?"

But he was already falling

Yoongi ran as fast as he could and grabbed Namjoon's shirt, the only thing that he could reach. He pulled him up with all his strength.

He pulled Namjoon close to him, hugging him tightly. "Your a fucking idiot!" Yoongi shouted, tears streaming down his face. "I t-told you that whenever you felt that way to look at the words I put on you!" Yoongi yelled at Namjoon.

"I-im sorry hyung, I-i" Namjoon couldn't continue as he started sobbing on Yoongi's shoulder. "Your more than worthy Namjoon. I love you so much"

Namjoon cried and cried and eventually he fell asleep on the roof. "Your so important to me Joon ah", the wind was blowing hard. A paper flew over to Yoongi, it picked it up and opened it.

"To: Yoongi Hyung"