Imagine [L.H]

40

Dear Journal,

I have come to this point in my life where I feel like vanishing and disappearing. I just want to leave this world.

No one will notice I'm gone anyways...

I can hear my parents yelling right now, my heart aches for their love to ignite once again.

I miss being happy, but does happy miss me?

The feeling of happiness seems so faint and distant to me; I've forgotten how to smile.

The scars now scatter my entire body, it pains me to move, I can't move without feeling my skin stretch. It hurts to breathe, it hurts to live.

I'm silently screaming for help, but who would want to help a person overcome with loneliness?

No one, that's who.

I feel hated and undesired by this world.

Why was I given a life I wouldn't enjoy?

I'm seconds clean, I'm watching the blood slowly drip, drip, drip down my arm.

The undeniably irresistible urge of cutting your skin is amazing; I feel alive, I am alive.

This makes me feel human, believe it or not.

Should I do it? Should I leave this world permanently?

No one cares, no one understands, no one understands the way I work, the way I think.

My sadness is overtaking me, eating me apart slowly every day. One day I'll be completely gone, and that will be the day I die.

My death will be slow; I'll dress up for school in the nicest clothes I own. I'll talk, I'll socialize. I'll go about my day and smile, knowing what I'm going to do once I shut the doors. And once those doors shut I'll be the happiest person alive. I won't be depressed, I won't be sad. I won't be alive. I'll die a slow death, a death I will enjoy. But the day I die, will be the day I am alive.

~Anna

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Incase you don't remember who Anna is; Lacey found her journal and that is what this chapter is.

I don't know how I feel about this, I'm quite sad to be honest.

Such a dark chapter...oops

I hope you enjoyed this extremely short chapter

Oh lord we're at chapter 40 already yay

We're barely like halfway through the actual plot; everything has barely begun

I love you all so so much

Until next update my sunshines, bye

~xoxo~

Linda