Imagine [L.H]

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(*Warning: Possible triggering* Had to re-upload it bc wattpad was glitching and stuff so here ya go)

ASHTON'S POV:

Lacey is gone. Caitlyn is gone. Everybody is gone.

I have absolutely no one, and it pains me to think that.

My sister is countless miles away from me.

But the thing that makes me feel even worse is the fact that it's been a year. A full three hundred-sixty-five days without Caitlyn.

Today was meant to be our three year anniversary.

She's not here, so I'm celebrating alone. But not with balloons and streamers, but instead tears and blades.

I slid my blade across my wrist, remembering our first kiss. I slid it up my arm, beads of blood making their way through the slits of open skin. Tears streamed down my face, soft whimpers escaping my lips at the physical and mental pain I was feeling.

Why couldn't Caitlyn just come back? Why did she have to leave? It was all those stupid people's faults. She died because of the followers.

Why am I blaming them?

It was my fault.

The crimson blood that belonged to me was the reason as to why she left. It's like the life poured out of me right then and there. Just like the blood pouring out of my wrists.

~Flashback in italics~

"Caitlyn do not close your eyes okay?" I pleaded, silent tears streaming down my face as I carried her to safety.

"I-it hurts," I heard her whisper.

"I know baby, but please," I begged. "Do not close your eyes."

"I...I promise," she smiled, though her eyes told me she was in excruciating pain.

I softly set her down on her bed. Caitlyn and I stayed in an apartment structure towards the small town a few miles away from the walls.

"I'll go get the f-"

She cut me off by grabbing at my wrists, I winced slightly but crouched down besides her.

"Don't leave," she choked out, coughing slightly.

"I-I need to fix you," I replied.

She shook her head, smiling as she closed her eyes and inhaled and exhaled softly.

"You can't Ash, it's okay."

"Caitlyn baby please don't make me do this," I cried.

"You can't fix this," she whispered, staring at me with green, tear brimmed eyes.

"Yes I can!"I yelled. "I don't want you to leave me."

"You're being selfish Ashy," she pouted, sucking in a breath of air as she stuck out her hand to caress my cheek lightly. It pained her to move and that hurt me.

That's when I realized I was being selfish. I didn't want to let her go because she was the only person that ever made me happy.

"You're right," I nodded, biting my lip to hold back from breaking down for the millionth time that day.

Caitlyn coughed lightly before grabbing at her stomach where the wound was. She took my bigger hand in her smaller one and looked at me in the eyes.

"Everything will be okay, even when you think it won't," she assured me, a tear rolled silently down her cheek. She quickly wiped at it and smiled weakly at me.