Imagine [L.H]

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(This chapter is dedicated to anyone who is or has struggled with self harm, I love you all so so much and stay strong xxx)

LUKE'S POV:

"I fake a smile to please those around me," Katy smiled sadly at me, setting the blade down on my bed and putting a hand over my own.

"Listen," she began. "You'll win this war, okay? If you lose it, it just proves that you are human. If you lose you must have a rematch and keep going until you own an eternity of won battles. I know it seems hard right now, you feel unbearable pain, but trust me when I say this," she paused. "No feeling in this world will last forever, our moods will change constantly like the moon, but everything has a sun rise."

"Everything also has a sun set," I remarked.

"There's sun rises, sun sets, new moons and starry lights, but feelings provide us with the fact that we are us and that we are alive, breathing, feeling, and human," she said softly, eyes becoming tear stained.

She took in a deep breath, "you will win this. Depression is a battle you will win, not lose."

I stayed silent, taking in what she just said.

"The only reason I've held on is not because I love life, but because life loves me. I may not have a perfect life, I don't have a stable mind, b-but I am surrounded with the best people alive," she stuttered, tears pouring out from her eyes.

"You're really wise, you know that?" I chuckled lightly, running a finger over the cut on the palm of her hand.

She shrugged, smiling sadly, "I've experienced a hand full of wars."

I felt a pang in my chest.

My breathing suddenly soon began quickening, I struggled to breathe. My chest heaved up and down and everything around me slowly became blurry.

"Luke I - are you okay?! Luke!" I heard Katy yell, voice seeming muffled as if I were underwater.

"I-I'm fine I j-" I felt her hands grip the side of my face.

"Fuck," she mumbled, grabbing my arm and pulling down the sleeve of my shirt.

The pentagon on my arm wasn't glowing like it would. It looked like a fire while it was being put out. It looked faded, as the leaves fade on a tree when autumn comes.

"Luke listen to me," I heard Katy say, I opened my eyes I hadn't even realized were closed to make eye contact with her.

"Keep your eyes open okay? Don't close them," she said.

"Wha-" my body was overcome with dizziness and I felt myself become nauseous. My insides churned at the empty feeling in my stomach and I soon felt a lump in my throat.

I quickly stood up and scurried to the bathroom, almost tripping over my legs.

I groaned as I reached the toilet and spilled my guts out.

My stomach seemed to sizzle, that's not normal...

I felt a hand on my back, rubbing it soothingly. The touch felt soft and delicate. I looked up, seeing familiar eyes and grinned.

"You're back," I breathed out, pulling Lacey in for a hug.

"I'm sorry, what?" She asked, seeming confused.

"H-how'd you get back Apple?" I fumbled to find the right words to say.

"I'm not..." She trailed off.

I blinked.

Katy.

I shook my head, "I'm sorry."

"It's fine," she whispered.

"Are you okay?" She whispered, patting my back lightly. She didn't seem phased as I just puked my insides out right in front of her.

I shook my head, "I miss her."

"I know," Katy said softly.

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This chapter is short but so damn deep Adele wouldn't even roll in it oh

Hello amazing people

Okay let me just point out two things; one, Luke is depressed because Lacey isn't near him. And two, Luke is not pregnant

Just kidding

He secretly is we're naming the kid Bob

Bob Hemmings

Who wants to be the godfather/godmother

What am I even doing with my life I just

Oh yes:
Katy is not mentally stable and you will find out why later... maybe next chapter if I feel nice enough

I actually really love Katy, she's one of my favorite characters

So no, I didn't add her just because, she plays an extremely important role in the story plot, all the characters do

Ashton has an important role

Calum has an important role

Michael has an important role

Nathaniel plays an //extremely// important role

Etc

Random story because why not:

I fell asleep at about 7 pm or so (it's 11:40 pm rn) because I was mad

When I get mad I tend to lay down and calm the fuck down

I guess I calmed down a lot so I fell asleep and woke up about an hour ago ago

I was mad because I tried to practice a song on my clarinet and kept squeaking so I gave up and laid down only to fall asleep

I FORGOT TO THANK YOU GUYS LAST CHAPTER BUT THANK YOU SO SO MUCH FOR 3.1K VIEWS THAT'S 3,100 SOMETHING PEOPLE OH MY LORD IM SUFFOCATING SEND HELP PLEASE

*calms down*

I'm good now

Wow "18" by 1D just came on my heart ouch

I love each and every single one of you so so much

Let's virtually hug through our screens

*hugs screen*

I'm weird

Guys

I'm getting over being sick yay

Finally

Okay okay there I'm done rambling

Until next update my sunshines :D

Excuse any mistakes I made it's sorta late haha

~xoxo~

Linda