Imagine [L.H]

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LUKE'S POV:

Jumping wouldn't be so bad, would it?

I'd jump to save my life. But my heart would stop during the saving of my life.

I'd be helping myself, doing myself a favor, if I just let go.

This is okay, right?

I looked down from where I was sitting, rocks and misty water at the bottom, me at the top. The sight was amazing I must say. I'll miss things like this, nature.

I'm going to do this, but first I must think of what I'm going to lose.

I'll lose Calum.

I'll lose Michael.

I'll lose Katy.

I'll lose Lacey....

They'll lose me.

I'm never going to see her again, what's the point? I'm going to die - according to Ashton - if I don't find her in a certain period of time.

I'll die either way, why not simply end the future suffering. Life is "precious," I know. I'm going to die a painful death if I don't find her.

But she'll die if I die....

Am I considered a selfish being if I say I'd like to spend eternity with her in heaven? Even if that means dying purposely to have her come with me several years later.

The thing about pain is; it consumes you. It distracts you from the slight happiness you may have experienced in your life at one point.

All the sadness and despair I'm feeling was layered over the happiness I felt before everything.

I was happy, now I'm everything but.

I smile sadness, I fake happiness.

The desire of death craves me more than ever.

I believe I'll grant the wish of death itself.

The wish being my punctured heart.

I own a punctured soul, a scarred body.

A broken soul, a broken boy is all I am.

I wish I could've become more.

I inhaled a breath of air, I guess this is it.

I've always questioned the existence of heaven and hell. I guess I'll find out.

I exhaled, gripping the edges of the wet earth beneath me. The air smelt of the outside freshness. The grass, greener than ever. The sky was a pale blue, some clouds here and there. At least I'll die at a beautiful sight.

I took in a breath of air, closing my eyes, I won't miss it here. I exhaled, opening my eyes and looked down.

I'll miss Lacey.

I took in one last breath-

"Don't!" I heard a voice yell.

I cocked my head to the side and met the pale green eyes of a stranger.

"You have so much to live for," the girl said, slowly approaching me.

I pursed my lips, watching her as she sat down next to me, setting down her beaten up backpack besides her.

"Why shouldn't I do it?" I asked, looking back down.

"I'm Ellie," the girl said randomly.

"Luke," I replied, eyebrows furrowed. She looked thirteen, why is she by herself?