Wings

Chapter 39

Chapter 39- A Guilty Conscious

When I turned around Alaric was sitting up and looked at me worriedly. "Don't." I said before he could speak a word.

He closed his mouth and frowned slightly before standing up. "Hope there is nothing to be ashamed of."

I scoffed. "Nothing to be ashamed of?" I countered. "I just kissed some other guy and felt something. I hurt him and I never wanted to do that."

Alaric smiled sadly before rubbing his hands across his face. "God help me." He muttered before taking in a breath of air.

"Hope, I care so much for you but in order to choose you have to know who you have true feelings for. Its not an easy path, I know but just be cautious about how you go about it. Try to think about it from our perspective. Each of us love the same girl and are destined for her but we have no say in whether or not we get to be with her."

I swallowed at the thought of them loving me and tried not to go into a wave of panic. "And yes you smell like Xavier so its not hard to pinpoint that you kissed him, its a very strong smell the body emits when it finds someone attractive. Your body is changing Hope. Of course you would feel something toward what your body is changing into."

I grumbled exasperated and fell back against the wall sliding down to the floor.

"I don't feel anything but lust and its just because of this beast that I'm becoming." I growled.

Alaric's eyes snapped to me and widened. "Hope, calm down."

I looked at him and dug my nails into my hands angrily. "Don't you dare tell me what to do. This is all so confusing and I just want it to stop." I yanked tirelessly on my hair and slammed my hand against the window seal.

I looked at it a thought swirling in my mind. Before Alaric had time to react my body was plummeting to the ground.

My body slammed against the grass and I sucked in a breath. Blood was gushing from my head and the world was spinning. "Hope." I heard Alaric's voice but I didn't respond. I pushed myself off the ground and my only thought was that I had to get out of here and away from everyone so that I could leave.

I pulled myself up and sprinted toward the back gate. Surprisingly enough night had come once again, time had crept away from me and all of the guards had been stationed inside. The world slightly spun but I ran as fast my legs would let me and soon enough I was clear of the castle. Blood dripped from my forehead and mixed with my sweat. I should have been majorly hurt from falling two stories but all that I felt was a throb in my head and hunger.

I could sense that Alaric would be on my heels in seconds. I looked around frantically when a hand grabbed me and pulled me into the shadows. I gasped caught off balance to find myself falling into a bitterly familar embrace. I pushed on the culprit my heart beating but the arms of Simone encase me.
I want to vomit but some reason I don't.  He winks at me and I look at the pulsing artery in his neck and he tsks at me.
"I hate to do this, my darling but I cant have you knowing how to leave."
I look at him confused until white powder is blown in my face.
I gag and wheeze grasping my neck as it constricts and then I feel my body sink into blackness.

When I awake I am in a vast room. Simone and  Nova stand before me. Novas expression is that of annoyance while Simone looks entertained his hands wrapped around the shoulder of a boy who is on his knees, hands bound against his back.
A feeling of uneasiness fills me. Nova looks at me and smiles wickedly, prouducing a blade from her velvet dress.  Words are stuck in my throat as she slices clean across his carotid artery.
It pours down his shirt and I watch in horror as the red headed guy that must been a few years younger than me bleeds to his death.

My agape mouth begins to burn and I howl in agony from where I lay on the cold floor. I cry out as I feel fangs protrude through my gums. My eyes water and drip down my cheeks as Nova pulls the dying body of the boy toward me leaving a trail of blood behind him.
"Stop, it hurts." I sob as I try to scoot backwards but two sets of hands hold me in place.
Nova pulls the boy up by his hair so that he is at eye level with me. "Looks good." She purrs and I clench my teeth and watch as Simone walks toward me slowly, smiling. He looks at me and the obvious fangs that have pulled from my gums. "Ah, Hope you should have listened to Alaric."
I shake my head and watch as Nova drops the boys body and her and Simone exit the room.
"Remember this when you question listening to me." Simone says and I choke on a sob as he leaves and the two guards who hold me release their hold. I scramble to the boy fighting the urge to drink the crimson on his neck. My body shakes wanting to unleash the beast that was coming forth but I don't. I rip the boys shirt and press it against the deep cut.

The browns haired guard grasps onto me and tries to shove my face into the boys neck.
I hiss at him and feel unkempt anger boil in me. I swing around and grasp his ankle bring him to the ground before without warning I bite into his neck.
It's warm and almost impossible to control how much I take. I pull away and look at the other guard who is petrified. I press my hand painfully against his neck and look at his fellow. I can feel new strength flow through me. "Tell me how to save him." I snap.
The guards stumbles over his voice looking around the dungeon like room. His eyes snap back to me. "Your blood will heal him." I look at him questionably but when I decide I have no other choice I take my hand from the bleeding guard and move to the boy. I feel his pulse which is barely there and I move the cloth to find that his blood has began to clot.

I feel myself pale and bile rise in me. I sink my teeth into my wrist and look at the guard for
Reassurance. He nods reverently and I let the blood drip onto the boys neck and wait.