Who Knew Rugby Could Be So Complicated?

Awkward

Months went by saracens and loughborough were neck and neck at the top of the table. Everytime I won a game, i would rub it in the girls face and vice versa. My team seem to have took a better liking to me, we got on a lot better. Emma seemed to like me but whenever she was talking to the girls about Harry she would shut up immediately when I was around. Harry came to a few games which I tried to avoid him like the plague. My mental state wasnt great with him being around but I got by. Luckily everytime Harry was at a game Owen was there too with Oliver. If they ever crossed paths in the car park they would share a mutual evil look.

Tonight was the saracens Christmas party, which is the first christmas party which both the women and the men team shared. Which will be super weird, all partners are allowed to go, so Ben&Holly and Emma&Harry were going. This was going to be one awkward night. Oliver stayed with Abbi and Charly with the boys. They were down in London since next week we had the england squad christmas party.  Owen wore a light blue shirt and black trousers and I wore a dress that matched his shirt. We said our goodbyes and ubered it to the party. Telling them all to behave on our way out, which got a response of "dont be too much of a mess tonight"

When we got there we were greeted by the Vunipola brothers. They handed us both a glass of prosecco. "Dont drink too much this time" Billy nudged me "no promises" we both laughed. Some of the girls made their way to me and guided me to their table. Owen was left standing with the boys, laughing. I squeezed into the long chairs with the girls. We all raised our glasses and drank.

Holly tried to join us, but somehow she didnt fit in with the squad. She spotted the ring on my finger and eyed it up. "So whens the big day" she asked me I rolled my eyes "1st September" some of the girls squealed. "You didnt tell us" I laughed. "I thought I did" Holly really didnt like that. She got up and joined Ben at the bar. Emma came over and greeted us and introduced Harry to everyone, I quickly downed my drink and went to the bar. "Double vodka lemonade and a pint of whatever hes drinking" I pointed to Owen who was still stood at the bar with the lads. He was that engaged in conversation and laughter that he didnt even notice I was near him.

"Not fancy buying me a drink" the hairs on the back of my neck stood up. "No" I snapped. He placed his order with another barmaid "So I heard about the wedding" I shrugged, hoping these drinks would hurry up. "You wont go ahead with it, you love me. Do you think I really want to be with Emma? I'm only with her until you realise you want me back" I looked at him disgusted. "You are a waste of space" I grabbed the drinks and went to walk away, but he grabbed my arm. "Leave her alone" my knight in shining armour appeared "you're only here because of Emma, but you dont want to start something here" Harry scoffed and walked away with his drinks.

"You okay?" I nodded and handed Owen his drink. I joined the lads, Owen kept an arm round my waist keeping me close. "Hey" Ben Earle joined us. Owen rolled his eyes. "Be nice" I mouthed to Owen. Holly wasnt far behind Ben. "Fancy a top up babe?" She asked Ben. He nodded and gave her some money and she trotted off to the bar. The guys ordered shots. What is it with this rugby team and getting me drunk.

I danced with some of the girls including Sam and Louise who seemed to be my saracens best friends. The Vunipola brothers joined us on the dance floor which made a lot of people in the room laugh. The Time of My Life played through the DJ speakers and Mako signalled for me to do the jump with him. I laughed way to hard and I knew he could pick me up one handed if he wanted. Luckily I only had little heels on. I took a little run towards him and he lifted me with ease over his head. I was hoping no one would see my pants, or if they did they were nice ones. When I was in the air I looked over to Owen to find Holly next to him. He didnt even realise I was in the air held by Mako.

I carried on dancing but kept my eye on Holly and Owen. He had his hand round her waist and she was twisting her hair with her fingers. They were laughing. Owen caught me watching and immediately made space between them. She looked over to me and smirked. She was getting into my head. Harry also caught me watching and laughed, raising one eyebrow at me. My body suddenly went weak, I couldn't be here. I found my phone and stormed out the party. Texting whatever I can to the girls.

I cant do this. I need to get away.