Will Of Fire ~KakashixOc (Editing)

Scouting Ch.11

Song- Tip Toe by Imagine Dragons
"In the morning light, let my roots take flight. Watch me fall above, like a vicious dove. They don't see me come, who can blame them? They never seemed to catch my eye. But I've never wondered why, I won't fall asleep. I won't fall asleep. Hey yeah, don't let 'em know we're coming. Tip toe higher. Take some time to simmer down, keep your head down low. Hey yeah, tip toe higher."

I sat on a small cushion, leaning onto the cot next me. I rested my head on my hand, eyes scanning Kakashi's sleeping body. His hair was perfectly leaning towards the left, even while he was sleeping. He slept almost silently, soft sounds of breathing were the only noise he made. His long eyelashes sat on his cheeks and his eyebrows twitched occasionally. I wondered what he was dreaming about... Sometimes his fingers would twitch, as if he was trying to grab something. Then he would make a weird expression, as if he were in pain, then his features would settle down to neutral. Then, after a while, it would all start over again.
I lean closer to him, studying his mask. Before, I think I remember touching his face... It was almost like a dream, like I wasn't actually there. My face heats up when I remember how I felt his lips. Damn. I must have been dead tired in order to do that. Why would I do that? He said something about having a beauty mark, under the left side of his lips. My fingers twitch, wanting to tug down his mask and see for myself. It was mean of him to show me his face when I couldn't even see. It was like he was teasing me. I sigh, pulling away from him. Perhaps I'm over stepping boundaries. Kakashi and I have made up with each other months ago, but we don't have the same relationship as we did when we were younger. To be honest, I don't think we ever will. There is too much past shared between us, but it's hard to just restart from the beginning. There are things left unspoken between the both of us, that neither of us are comfortable saying. There are topics that we don't discuss, things we don't bring up. Which, I guess, is okay with me. We're allowed to have walls. I just can't help remembering what it used to be like when things were simple, when everything was black and white. We could say anything we wanted, without really risking anything. Now we live in the grey, where everything has a double meaning. Where anything we say could hit left or right. We have to watch ourselves, careful not to overstep. I don't want to lose him again, over something I said or did. That's why I have to be careful. I keep my toe on the line, but I can't step across. I can't overstep that boundary.... I think it's slowly tearing me apart at the seams.

"Himiko?"

I look up, green eyes meeting Kakashi's dark grey one. I blink, eyes narrowing.
"Kakashi Hatake, you're in deep trouble." I growl, glaring at him. His eyes get wide, bracing for my lecture. "I can't believe you! You really expected me to run away with my tail in-between my legs?! And leave you behind?! Just for the sake of the mission?!" I glare, tears starting to form around my eyes. "I'd never! I'd never leave you behind, Kakashi Hatake! I don't care if I was blind! I don't care how much you would beg! I'm would rather die! And, if you do that to me one more time! If you order me to leave you, I will kill you myself!! You will NOT put me, or our kids, through that again!" I take a breath, choking on emotion. "I... I was so scared, Kakashi... I thought you... Look how injured you are. If I didn't have these stupid eyes, I would have been able to help. He wouldn't have laid a finger on you... This is all my fault. Y-You wouldn't have gotten hurt if I-" my voice trails off as
Kakashi's hand finds mine and he pulls me into his chest, arms tightening around me. I fit perfectly into the curve of his body, tucked into his side. His face pressed into the side of my neck, not saying anything. Not crossing any boundaries. My breathing slows down and my heart rate calms down as well, listen to Kakashi breathing next to me. I could hear his heart beating, steady. I haven't cried in years, a decade almost. But today, I came close. The thought of losing Kakashi almost pushed me past my limits, but Kakashi's body next to mine almost made me cry as well. His gentle touch made me want to stay here in his arms, but I couldn't. I pull free from his arms, looking away from him.
"I going to patrol the area." I say, standing up. I don't look down at him, but I could feel his gaze on me. "I'll... I'll be back later. I'll send in the kids so you can speak with them." He doesn't say anything, and he watches me leave. I close the door softly behind me and see Naruto, Sasuke, and Sakura instantly back away from the doorway, like they were listening. I smile softly, ruffling Naruto's hair.
"You guy's have to train more on your detection skills." I say, shaking my head. "He's awake now, go on in." Sakura walks in, Sasuke following. Naruto stands still, looking up at me.
"Himi-Sensei..." Naruto says, blue eyes meeting with my green ones. "Were you really scared? When Zabuza attacked?"
"..." I nod, smiling at him. "Even shinobi get scared, Naruto. You just have to learn to swallow your fear and face the enemy. The only thing a shinobi has to fear, is to become a shinobi without fear." Naruto nods, grinning at me.
"I couldn't even tell you were afraid, Himi. You were cool!" Naruto says, nodding. "Even when you're blind, you're so confident when you fight. If I was blind, I don't think I could do half of what you do."
I laugh, hugging him tightly. "Thank you, Naruto... I really appreciate that, you know?"
"You're welcome, Himi-Sensei!" Naruto says, smiling at me as I pull away. "Have fun on your patrol!"
"I'll see you later." I say, flash stepping away.