Selfless

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When I woke up the next morning everything felt weird.

We were getting married tomorrow.

I focused on Colby's arms around me as I tried to ignore the pain that I was feeling in my arms and legs. He was still sleeping as I could feel his slow breathing on the back of my shoulder. I never wanted to move, this was our last morning together before we got to spend the rest of our lives with eachother, and it was just a over all strange feeling.

After a few minutes I felt him tighten his arms around me, "good morning." I said quietly as he kissed my shoulder, "good morning baby girl." He said lowly.

"Are you excited for today?" I asked as we both got out of bed. "I'm really excited, but I'm more excited for tomorrow." He said as I put my feet on the ground.

I screamed out in pain for the first time in a while, "holy shit. Are you okay?" Colby asked and came over as I balled my fists, gritting my teeth against the pain.

"I'm hurting really bad today." I said and looked up at him as he looked at me with concern in his eyes. "I'll be fine, I'll just relax and maybe take a bath before the rehearsal dinner. I think physical therapy is just kicking my ass." I said as he helped me stand. "Owwww." I whimpered and sat back down looking at him with tears in my eyes.

"It's okay, lay down. I'll start the bath." He said and kissed my forehead. "I'm sorry." I whispered as he brushed my hair back, "don't you dare apologize." He said and caressed my face before walking into the bathroom.

I was a lucky lucky girl.

A few minutes later he came back and scooped me up, I rested my head on his shoulder as he carried me to the bathroom. "Do you think this is related to stress?" I asked as I pulled my shirt off, "it could be, so let's just have you relax in the bath for a while. I'll go grab you some tea and we will get those legs moving again." He said and helped me get in the tub.

I felt almost immediately better as soon as my body was in the water. "Water gun me." I said and held my arm out as he chuckled, "when I come back with the tea." He said and then left the room again.

I closed my eyes and relaxed into the water, really trying to let my mind stay blank.

Colby came back a few minutes later with Mia in one arm and a cup of tea in his other hand. "Thank you babe, I'm feeling better already." I said and took the tea from him as he opened the cabinet to grab one of the water guns for me. "You always feel good in the tub though, it's when you get out that it hurts." He said and handed me the water gun. "True." I said then relaxed again.

We spent the next hour pretending we were on a game show and asked questions about eachother. Everytime Colby got one wrong I would spray him with the water gun which would cause Mia to belly laugh.

It wasn't exactly how I expected to spend the morning but I wasn't complaining.

When I got out of the tub I felt better, I was still going to take it easy today but it wasn't as excruciating to walk anymore.

We finally went downstairs to get some breakfast to see everyone cleaning up the kitchen already. "There you guys are! Good morning." Mr. Brock said as he came up to clap Colby on the back. "Good morning." I said and sat down at the table.

"You feeling okay today?" Sam asked as he sat next to me, "had a rough morning, but feeling better already." I said and gave him a thumbs up. "Are you getting pumped Coraline?" Jake asked making me roll my eyes playfully.

"That's not my name." I said and stuck my tongue at him as Colby set a bowl of cereal in front of me, "thanks babe." I said and smiled as he sat on my other side. "For the record I'm very excited. I wish it was time already because I'm so impatient." I said and bounced in my chair as I took a spoonful of cereal and put it in my mouth. "PLEASE stop bouncing and be careful." Dad hissed causing me to laugh, "I'm fine dad." I said with a laugh as I ate my breakfast.

As soon as I was done Kat pulled me into her room so she could ask me questions while she packed. "So you found your something old?" She asked and shoved pajama pants into her suitcase, "yeah, my dad made me a necklace with the cufflinks from his wedding on it." I said and sniffled as tears formed in my eyes again. That was the nicest thing anyone could have done for me, it was just so special.

"That's so cute!!" She yelled and zipped up her bag. Once it was zipped she picked it up and sling it over her shoulder.

"Alright let's get you packed." She said and helped me up off the bed so I could walk upstairs, my legs were just not cooperating today since they hurt so bad.

I stumbled a little but Kat steadied me, "woah, I'm sorry I don't know what's going on. I think the nerves are starting to really effect my body." I said and shook my head as she frowned, "everything is going to be okay. It's alright to be nervous but don't let it effect to the point where you go back in progress alright?" She asked and made sure I was stable again so we could walk again.

"Yeah, I need to calm down if I want to surprise him tomorrow." I mumbled and she nodded, "we can practice it tonight in the cabin. Just once, to make sure you still got it, I don't want you busting ass on your wedding day." She said and I laughed, "this is why I love you." I said as we made our way upstairs.

It took a couple hours to pack my bag because we kept getting distracted. We ended up going through the photo album that Colby made me for Christmas and reminisced about the memories we have all shared together. I started getting a little sad, thinking of all the memories we had honestly.

Today felt bittersweet. I was so excited to marry Colby and spend the rest of the my life with him, but at the same time I feel like I was putting my innocence to rest. I didn't really party much and I certainly never went through a phase where I slept around but like..it made me wonder if I was missing out.

The fact I was getting married made me feel like I was missing out on something. I wanted to marry Colby so badly though. I didn't regret what we were doing at all.

It was just bittersweet.

Devyn eventually came in and started getting me all pretty for the rehearsal. She also decorated my cane with some white flowers and green leaves. It still looked kind of dumb but I appreciated the effort.

I was wearing a short white dress with silver jewelry and my hair pinned up. I wanted to wear heals but I don't think heals and a cane go well together so I wore some simple white flats instead.

Devyn did my make up to perfection and looked at me in the mirror, "you're gorgeous Cor." She said causing me to smile. I did look gorgeous.

"I'm nervous." I said and frowned, "why? It's just the rehearsal dinner, it's nothing. We are all just gonna have a good time. There's no reason to be nervous." She said and smiled softly as I tried to stand up.

"Thanks Dev, you're right. I think it's just pre wedding jitters. I'll be more excited when we get there I think. But right now, I have a little girl to dress." I said and made my way out to the nursery.

When I went into the nursery to see that Colby already changing Mia into her little yellow dress, "hey." I said quietly causing him to look up, "hey-holy shit you're gorgeous." He said and I giggled.

"Don't make me blush, Brock." I said and walked up to them.

Mia looked at me with the biggest smile as Colby put the headband with a big bow in it on her head, "theres my cute little girl." I said and pinched her cheek gently as she smiled. "She's cute as hell." I mumbled to Colby and he laughed, "she really is. We did goooood." He said quietly then turned to me. "I'm gonna go get ready, I'll be back in here in a couple minutes though to bring Mia and her stuff down." He said then kissed my cheek and left the room.

I picked Mia up and sat in the rocking chair. I wanted to just relax for an second before we went.

Mia sucked on her pacifier as she looked up at me. "I love you little girl." I said and kissed her head as I rocked in the chair.

A few minutes later Colby came in and just smiled at us. He had so much love in his eyes I could feel my heart racing from the look he was giving me.

"Ready to go?" He asked lowly as I rubbed Mia's back soothingly. "More than ready." I said and stood up then handed Mia over so he could carry her down.

We were really on the way to the rehearsal dinner.

For our wedding.

Holy shit.