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random shit

Yo

So I just feel like updating 😅

But uh.. it's gonna be about really random shit that comes to mind XD

So...

I wanted to say I might've figured out what my level of the asexual spectrum is. But uh... After typing for so long and reading into those sexualities more, I realized that I'm just not any of those? 😅

I used this image to help me...

And yet I can't figure it out.

So because I can't explain it, I'm just novisexual? 🤣

See, here's my case...

• My crushes are always small— they don't grow more unless my relationship with that person becomes stronger (it doesn't grow by a lot though)
- this leads me to assume that if I ended up in a relationship, I'd let my feelings grow more there...

• I don't crush majorly very often— it's very rare for me to have a huge crush on a specific person... I think it's happened like twice, and one of them is for an embarrassing reason (it was fourth grade -_-)

• I feel like this is the most important part... I usually have a few "considerations"... what that means is if I get along with a guy well, I think to myself, "if he ever asks me out, I wouldn't just say no" if you know what I mean. I guess that's just my desire to be in a relationship but with someone who I actually get along with... I'm not desperate, I wouldn't date just anybody 😅

So uh... what I mean is there are a few guys that I wouldn't say no to if they asked me out. Not many, but it's a few. Again, they're not major crushes, hence why I used the term "considerations"

... don't judge how my mind works..? 😂

• Sometimes I'm even unsure what my "crush" on a person means. Is it that I want to become closer with them? Is it actually a desire for a relationship with them, or is it just wanting to be better friends... I seriously don't know.

I really do want a relationship and for someone to love me like that, but I don't know how I'm ever gonna get someone since I'm so fucking confusing 🤣

So uh, I have that confusion fest going for me XD

What other randomness can I come up with...

Oh, I finished one of my summer packets for AP Chemistry... it was hell since I had to try to follow along to a video while Claudia kept screeching in the room next to me since she was playing Minecraft, but I got it.

... somehow.

Only two more to go and then extra worksheets, but it's gonna take hours since I have three more hour long videos to watch 😓

And then I need to read Dead Wake ;-;

It seems interesting, but I really don't like reading nonfiction.

It's about the sinking of the Lusitania or something...? 😅 I dunno..

All I know was this was during WWI and that the boat was sunk by some German U-boat, I think..? I know it was German, but I have no idea what the thug itself was.

But yeah. Summer work is  f u n.

No it's not -_-

Speaking of school, there's a high chance were returning in August, but there's the possibility of us wearing masks. I don't wanna social distance and wear masks in school, I wanna hug everybodyyyyy ;-;

I just want this virus to be over and I don't want anyone to be scared anymore ;-;

Also, if Color Wars and Homecoming doesn't happen this year, I'm rioting.

Okay...

Enough of that...

Random question...

Is it wrong to be kinda pissed at a friend when they're in a relationship and they talk about it a lot while you're just there like "mhmhmhm I've been single all my life and I want a relationship and you're here bragging to me about your fourth fuckin' gf"?

Sorry, that was a mouthful.

Like... I know a bunch of friends that have either had multiple relationships or are currently in one— maybe both— and they talk about it on a few occasions and it just makes me angry inside for some reason.

I guess it's just questioning what I'm doing wrong that people don't like me. And I guess it's also anger from the fact that dudes only look at appearance these days and I'm ugly as shit, especially compared to all the other girls in my grade -_-

Fuckin...

Bleh

Oh yeah

I might as well talk about book updates

Art Book chapter is coming soon for sure ^^

I doodled something that is I guess an AU of an AU...? 😅 I'll explain it further in the chapter itself when it comes out

ATSC has been untouched for a while, and its anniversary was June 24th...

I thought it was sometime in August but apparently not? 😅

Umm... hopefully I'll get to it soon...

Anyway, 06 rewrite

Guess what bitches

I finished chapter 12, which contained Silver's finale and Sonic's finale.

I'M ON THE LAST STORY

I'M ALMOST FUCKING DONE WITH WRITING THE REWRITE OH MY GOD—

This better be received well 😂 I worked on it for over half a year now—

So that's fun :DD

Imma write out what art I want for each chapter so that I can get some people to help me 😂😅

Alright...

Well, my internet just shit itself while I was trying to watch a Game Grumps comp -_- how I'm gonna go to sleep now, I don't know

Imma go try to fix that..

That being said, that was the random shit I had for today

I didn't have much, but what can I say, it's like 1:16 am

Aight, see ya guys 👋🏻