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W e l p (witness me getting a quick shift in emotion)

Yo guys

Quick update, huh? 😂

It's really been a while since I updated two days in a row XD

But anyway...

Umm...

I'm sick

F U N

I don't know why, but it's basically the same as the thing I had with the side pain when I ended up in the hospital—

If you guys don't remember that, that was in RU2, but to keep it short, what happened was one day, I woke up, felt fine, ate breakfast, kept getting ready for school, started feeling like shit, collapsed on the floor, I had pain on my side that was intense, and then I vomited and felt a little better (and that continued for two more days)

So let's just say.... I got it again.

Kinda.

So I was gonna see some neighborhood friends since I really needed to cool down from stress from something that I won't get into. I was riding over to Landon's in my bike and then I felt like I was running out of breath, I had to breath harder just to stay focused.

I finally got to his house and he showed off his new car (because he's getting his license soon since his birthday is in early July), which I didn't really care about tbh XD I told him I kinda felt shitty so I sat down while he called Ben to come outside.

We rode over to Ben's and I sat down again because holy fuck everything hurt (even worse, my amazing girl issues started today -_-). He came out with his new puppy, which made me super happy because holy shit Sunny is adorable, I—

I still felt out of breath even though I was sitting down. Sunny was nibbling on my shoelaces, which was funny, and then I think Landon noticed I was not doing much better so he asked Ben to bring me water.

I don't remember why I ended up standing... I think I was making my way over to my bike..? But point is, I suddenly felt my vision blackening, so I was like, "Guys, I might pass out—"

Because if you guys remember, I've passed out before, so I know what it looks like. It's terrifying.

Since they both weren't right next to me, I had to kneel down myself instead of grabbing into them before I fell. I ended up just laying on the ground. That's when Ben booked it inside to get water and then Landon came over and asking if I was okay. I guess because I slid down before I passed out I didn't faint...?

So I just stayed there laying on Ben's driveway for a little bit. Every time I stood up I felt like shit, I felt like my head was weighing me down and like I was about to vomit. Landon and Ben both offered to help me get home somehow, so I just said that I'd just call my mom to pick me up and shit.

Landon ended up riding my bike over to my house later and ran back home.

But yeah. My mom came to pick me up, and wouldn't you know it, once I got home and laid in the bathroom for a little, I threw up (and yes, I threw up in the toilet, I didn't want anyone to clean up my vomit -_-)

It... hurt.

But I felt a little better after that.

That scares me though since that's exactly what happened when I had to go to the ER.

Will it happen again tomorrow like it happened last time for two days straight...? I don't want that. I wanna actually see people and shit.

But yeah.

So right now I'm laying in my bed like a flip with towels all around me just in case it happens again.

So uh... :'D

Hopefully I'll be better soon though. I felt bad that Landon and Ben had to be a part of this, I didn't even feel weird before I left my house, I only started feeling weird on my way there.

But yeah.

In other news, later on Friday, the whole Saturday, and probably most of Sunday I'm not gonna have any internet access or data service. I'm going to a family friend's lake house in Indiana, which I don't have too much fun at but... 😅

Yeah. So if you try contacting me this weekend, I'll most definitely not get the message until later on Sunday -_-

I don't wanna go, but I kinda have to because my dad is pretty.. uh.. he puts his foot down firmly 😅

So if any of you update books I read this weekend, I won't be seeing them super quickly 😂

The lake house is cool, ngl, I've been there a couple times, but the fact that there's only a Wii with not even that many good Wii games is just.... eh.

I mean, there are quads that we could ride in their huge ass yard, but it gets boring after a while :/

And I'm terrified of natural water, so I am not going to the lake.

So time for me to be bored this entire weekend :DDD

.... but another thing that's been on my mind.

Am I a bad person?

... I feel like I've done some things without realizing and how they're coming to bite back at me. Especially with... well... I'm not gonna say.

I just want things to be okay. I really don't wanna be mean to anybody. Please tell me if I'm offending you when I'm talking to you, okay? I really don't mean to be rude. I only get aggressive when I feel like the person I'm talking to is scolding me, constantly making fun of me, using a mocking tone against me, or other stuff like that. ...

I'm never flat out rude to anyone when I first meet them, but if you feel like I am, please tell me what I'm doing wrong. I don't wanna hurt people, and I myself don't wanna feel a shit ton of guilt later on for not being more careful.

So... again... please tell me.

I don't mean to be obsessive, over dramatic, mean, or anything intense. Sorry if I come out that way.

...

I'll go rest now, I feel like being sick and on my monthly glories is really getting me to be super emotional and paranoid.

If you guys haven't already, read the previous chapter. It's a lot more uplifting and just me expressing my interests and fangirling, so it's a lot better than having to deal with me being "expresso depresso" today.

I don't like burdening people with my problems, so go read something more fun I guess.

See ya guys.