SBS 1 : One Last Cry [COMPLETED]

Chapter 28

Ashton's POV

What should I do?

How am I going to explain everything to my brother if I know that it would break him. Even my parents who have known it for so long doesn't know how to tell him, how can I?

I just found it out and I'm afraid of what could be the effect of it to Ren. Kung halos lahat ng nakaaalam ay takot magtapat, paano na lang ako?

This was the secret that is hardest to keep but also the hardest to say. I wanna say it to him but I'm afraid. Ang pinakamahirap na sikreto ay yung gustong-gusto mo nang sabihin pero hindi pwede dahil natatakot ka sa magiging resulta.

Ren's sitting beside me now and I had to do a lot of effort to stop myself from the temptation of telling him what I know. I wanted to tell him but my parents ask me not to.

I don't understand why they have to keep it from him? They are giving him false hope!

Ilang beses na akong bumuntong-hininga but I still feel like telling him mabuti na lang at inunahan niya na ako sa pagsasalita.

"Okay, fine, I'm not gonna force you to say it pero sana sabihin niyo rin sa akin paghanda na kayo," tumayo na siya matapos niyang sabihin iyon saka siya umakyat sa taas dala ang bag niya.

Damn it!

Napahilamos na lang ako sa mukha ko dahil sa nangyayari. Nagsisisi ako na narinig ko ang lahat. This is making me crazy. Arrgg!

After a minute or so, I decided to go to my room and take some shower to freshen up. After showering I went straight to the bed but I can't sleep. Ilang beses na akong nagpagulong-gulong sa kama but I can't find the right position to fell asleep. I'm so damned!

Brizzzkkk! Brizzzkkk!

I picked up my phone as I felt it's vibration.

Miro's calling...

"Hey," I answered the call.

"Are you alright?" I heard his concerned voice.

"I would lie if I say yes, Mikey. The truth is I'm going insane, I regret everything and I want everything I heard to vanish from my mind. This secret is a shit," I said problematically.

"I'm sorry, Rein. I'm sorry that we need to keep it, we can't tell him because he's gonna freak out for sure. Even your parents are scared to tell him because they know what could happen," he said full of sympathy for my brother and for us.

I sighed. "He'll find it out sooner or later, Mikey. Things will happen even if we try to stop it," I mumbled.

"I know, we know... but it's not the right time to tell him, malapit na ang graduation nila and we can't ruin it. Everything's set kailangan na lang natin ng tamang panahon bago sabihin sa kanya," mahabang litanya ni Mikey sa kabilang linya.

"Kailan naman ang tamang panahon na iyon? Kahit kailan naman natin sabihin sa kanya ay masasaktan at masasaktan pa rin naman siya. I mean, what's the difference between telling him now and telling him later?"

"Rein, you need to understand that we only care for your brother."

"He'd be mad if finds out that we knew it already..."

"We can endure it."

"Fine. But it's really hard to keep it, especially when we lived in the same house. Just like earlier, it's hard to stop my urge to tell him everything," I said biting my lower lip.