Just wanted to let you know there's a suicide attempt in this chapter so if this would effect you in anyway please do skip it!
It's been a few hours since i've seen Bruce so i started getting worried for him.I went into the lab quickly saying "C'mon Bruce you're leaving"whilst pulling him by the arm out of the room.
"Nat wait"He stated stopping me in my tracks.
"I don't want to hear it"I replied tugging his arm but he pulled me back.
"Nat wait i need to tell you something i-i didn't mean for it to happen and i tried to stop it b-but"He had tears in his eyes.
"What happened?"I stated concerned.
"S-she kissed me". I froze trying to take in the information but i couldn't understand.
"Who did?"I stated now everyone heard the corruption and was standing next to us from the side lines apart from Wanda and Vision.He looked over to Karen who smiled smugly.
"So you decided to spend all night with her then to be honest with me"I stated now my eyes now stinging.
"I pulled away as fast as i could i don't like her like that at all i love you we just needed her to finish the project,I just couldn't face you i felt guilty."He said now looking down.
"And no one told me"I stated looking mostly at Tony.Everyone just went silent."любовь для детей" (Love is for children).I stated now i tear falling down my eye.I walked away until i suddenly slammed Karen into the wall shouting "Why would you do that?!"
"Bruce doesn't love you"She stated smirking
"Yes i do"Bruce shouted.I snapped my mind was full of adrenaline and Karen's face looked as though her soul had left her body.
She pushed back but i slammed her back harder.Everyone ran up to me to try and stop me and Bruce wasn't going to snap me out of it this time. I cracked her in the jaw as she went to fight back and i dodged until Clint started pulling me back.I effortlessly out strengthened him pinning him to the ground and slamming him and with one punch knocking him out. That's how deadly i can be when i don't hold back.
I ran back up to her and pinned her to the ground starting to choke her emotionlessly, that was until Steve then wrapped his arms around me and pulling me up, i kicked him in the crotched with my free leg and he knelt to the ground as i punched him in the head. Bucky then joined in this was going to be fun, now Bucky knows how deadly i can be he's going to be weary.I went up to him and we started fighting he swung at me which i dodged but i wasn't wasting my time on this, i quickly took him by surprise by wrapping my legs around him and choking him to the ground as he now lay on the ground in pain.This was getting fun.Then suddenly Karen pulled out a gun this was funny, i knew she wasn't going to shoot.I strutted up to her grabbing the gun easily.Bruce then ran up to me saying my name and i pointed the gun at him putting my finger on the trigger.When i saw Bruce's petrified face at the end of my gun i came back.
I looked around me all my friends in pain on the floor.I had done that.I was pointing a gun at my boyfriend like he meant nothing to me.I am a monster.Why do i deserve to live if i harm everyone around me. Alexei was right i'm just kidding myself.
"любовь для детей"(forgive me).I stated.
I closed my eyes; put the gun to my head tears streaming down my cheeks and pulled the trigger."NOO"Everyone shouted.But I felt nothing.The gun.Fucking.Jammed.
I dropped to my knees the gun slipping out my hand.Why can't my life be over.I now curled up in a ball not daring to open my eyes.I felt big arms wrap around me tightly holding me to his chest."I'm sorry"I stated sobbing into Bruce's chest.
"Don't you ever scare like that again i can't lose you "He said his voice shaking.
"I don't deserve to live"I stated still my eyes closed.
"Yes you do"He replied back.
I opened my eyes everyone else who i injured lay on the floor had tears in there eyes even Bucky and Steve showed some type of emotion.Wanda and Vision were also stood there and Wanda was full of tears.
Bruce helped me up i just looked down i just want to be alone but what would i do to myself.I can't trust my own mind.I don't feel angry about the kiss anymore.I feel nothing."I'm sorry about the kiss i didn't mean for it to happen"Bruce stated thinking he was the cause of all of this.
"Just forget about it i don't care, i don't deserve to be loved"I stated.
"Don't say that, i'm never going to stop loving you"He said holding my cheeks, everyone else still watching.
"I love you too"I stated hugging him again. "That's why i don't deserve you"I stated sorrowfully getting my favourite red and black blade out about to put it through my chest until it flew out of my hand and into Wanda's."No give it back"I stated running over to her until Bruce tackled me to the ground pinning my hands behind my head.
"Nat stop you deserve me; you deserve us and we're not going to change our opinion about something you can't control"He stated tears in his eyes once more.He then fell on top of me.I looked up and there was Karen holding a gun she had just knocked Bruce out.I turned around laying Bruce on the floor carefully and then standing up and turning around.
"Shoot me"I stated looking directly into her eyes.Her hand started shaking and she wasn't going to do it, until she pointed her gun at Bruce on the floor and she shot.I fell to the ground. I took the bullet for Bruce. She dropped the gun as everyone rushed to me, Wanda threw Karen against the wall knocking her out."Let me die"I stated tears now flooding my eyes.
"No"Bruce stated hazily, her hit wasn't that strong so he woke up easily.I saw his face and i couldn't leave him, he needs me.I need him.Steve had his hand holding my wound as everyone quickly lifted me up taking me to the infirmary.The doctors started taking the bullet out and tried to stop the bleeding. Everyone was by my side also getting mended up as Bruce held my hand.After an hour or so i got to rest and me and Bruce started talking as everyone gave us our space.
"I'm sorry"I stated.
"You shouldn't be sorry you saved my life in a sense"He replied brushing my hair behind my ear.
"I nearly killed everyone in the room including you"I said looking down.
"It's not your fault".Bruce replied.I just nodded my head yes it is in return.
"...Bruce i need you"I stated looking into his eyes.
"I need you too"He said smiling back
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Ok so i know you said you didn't want Nat getting hurt but this is the last time👀.
Thankyou for reading :)
comment your thoughts!
And i'm sorry if this effected you in anyway.
Yasmin<3
