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"So how you holding up?"Wanda asked.
"Yeah i'm fine"I lied.
She gave me a look.She can read my emotions even though i tried my very best to hide them.
I sighed not giving in "What?"
"You know what"She replied.
"I don't know?"
"....Hmm ok"She replied with a small smile not pushing any further.
"Who wants more drinks"Tony shouted holding a bottle of alcohol; everyone cheered and i was just not in the mood so i went to go back upstairs still holding the little of my drink i had left and when i turned to get up i accidentally walked into Bucky spilling my drink on him.
"Oh my god i'm so sorry"I said quickly putting my drink down and i lifted my hand up to his chest and tried wiping it if that would help, as i did his breath hitched and before i knew it i looked around at the others just staring at us and then i realised how close i was to Bucky so i quickly stepped back and hovered my hand and then i swiftly walked out and went upstairs into my room.
What was that? Why did my hand hover? What is wrong with me? I lay on my bed thinking to myself.
What if Bruce never comes back, he will....right? Am i just going to be alone for the rest of my life, or should i move on? There's too many questions with no answers.He'll come back right, for me? I can't imagine loving anyone else then him.
My thoughts were destroyed by a knock at my door.
"Come in"I replied.
Then in came Bucky with a fresh shirt. "About before i was just letting you know you don't need to worry about anything, it's my fault, sorry i didn't say anything"He stated lingering at the door.
"N-no it's ok it's my fault"I replied sitting up. He looks sad, his face is very still and void of emotion any other person wouldn't even notice, but i can see it in his eyes, i always have.The deep blue metallic eyes that if you look closely enough you can see the pain and suffering in them.
I then noticed he was staring into space. "Bucky"I stated still nothing. "Buck?"I repeated. "James!" That caught his attention.
He looked almost confused as he snapped back."S-sorry was i drifting again?"He asked.
"Yeah, you alright?"I questioned.
"Mhm"He stated.
"Ok"I replied not wanting
Then it got a bit awkward. "Ok good night"He stated faintly smiling and walking out.
"Night"I replied.....Does he still have feelings for me?
I just stared in thoughts losing track of time and before i knew it i was asleep once more.
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In the morning i woke up groggy stretching, i looked at the time and it was 7am i have training in an hour. I got up then washed and changed and headed to the training room earlier. I started with some basic punches on the punching bag and they gradually got harder and stronger and before i knew it, Steve was there watching me.
"Stop"He stated.
"What?"I replied confused but continuing.
"Your knuckles"He replied.
I looked down and they were dripping with blood. "O-oh thanks"I replied; Shortly walking away to clean up.When i came back Steve, Tony, Clint and Bucky were all stood there and i realised they cleaned up where my blood had smeared.
"I was going to clean it up"I stated a bit harshly.
"We know"Steve replied.
"What do you guys want?"I questioned impatient.
"We want to help you"Clint replied.
"I think i know how to punch"I stated stubbornly to try and ignore what they're about to say.
"You know what we mean"Tony replied giving me a look.
"I-i"My eyes started wander around the room trying to fix on something to look at but they ended in Buckys eyes as i know he would help me get away from this situation out of everyone here. "I don't need help"I sighed my eyes now trailing to the floor.
"Yes you do"Steve stated.
"I'm not having this conversation"I replied annoyed walking away.
"Wait"Bucky stated. Now i know he's not backing me on this one. "Please talk to us"He continued.
I hesitated for a split second until i shook my head and just walked away.I headed to my room and showered, i then put on one of Bruce's jumpers and some joggers and started some work.
-A few hours later-
I got tired and realised i hadn't eaten all day, i rubbed my eyes and went back downstairs, i started making a pot noodle and whilst i was i looked up and Fury was stood there looking at me.Not again, please not again.
I looked at him waiting for him to speak but he just watched me.
"Nat?!"Tony stated. I snapped back and realised i was just hallucinating, that's not a good thing.
"Yeah"I replied.
"You were staring into space?" He said.
"Oh ok"I said brushing off what i felt and i looked down and my pot noodle was done.I grabbed a fork and sat down in the living room where some people were sat but i just ignored them and looked at my phone.Suddenly i got a text message and it was from an unknown number.Who could this be?
A split second after there was pictures of Bruce like some one was spying on him, i finally saw his face.He looked healthy and clean but in every picture he looked sad and lonely. But most important of them all who was spying on him?!
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I'm so so sorry for the delay i've just not been in the mood to write but to make up for it i will also be posting tomorrow.
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