I started writing my note....
I'm going to be leaving for a little while, i know where he....i think i know where he is, i'm going to go alone as it's the best option for everyone, please don't come looking for me as it will ruin my plan and he may run even further, he doesn't like a crowd, but you know that.Whatever happens just know Bruce i will always love you and i'm sorry for becoming a burden for everyone, you don't need to worry about me.He needs to know it's not his fault.
-Natasha.
I folded up the letter and put it to the side of me, i got up from my bed and started discreetly packing my bag, i brought all the cash i have, i don't want to risk using my card.I packed some clothes that would fit but it wasn't many.I'll have to buy some more eventually.I also packed some more essentials and set it in my room.
I'm planning to leave around 8am, so hopefully i can sleep on the 10 hour flight and i'll arrive at 1:00am with the time zone for.....Russia.
I'm going there because that's a good spot to hide as it's off the grid and i think i know the place where he is potentially at.It's going to be extremely cold so i'm going to have to bring a warm coat, which won't be a massive give away as i'm also leaving in the a few hours but i hope that everyone is busy and don't see me leave.
I wanted to spend the hour left i had with Bruce so i headed straight to the lab.However i realised that everyone was sat together in the living room.Tony and Pepper were stood next to each other with smiles on their faces, that's when i heard Pepper say.
"I'm pregnant".
Everyone was happy for them, i understood why they didn't want to tell me after what just happened, but i felt isolated and left out whilst doing so.I stood to the side out of sight but still eavesdropping to what they were saying.
A few minutes later I sat in my room letting my thoughts get the better of me.It should have been me i thought, not my beautiful child.I sighed trying not break down.
"Are you alright?"Bruce said softly to me startling me.
"Y-yes i'm fine"I said rubbing my eyes looking at him.
"You heard the news didn't you"he replied.
"Mhm"I said acting unbothered.
"They were going to tell you, they just thought-"
"I know"I cut him off quickly.He nodded his head in response.
"Ok i'll leave you then, i should head back to the lab."He said about to walk out.
"Wait"I replied, and he stopped at the door.
"I love you"I said with a sad smile, he doesn't know it will be the last he will hear that for awhile.
"I love you too"He responded with a big smile and exited my room thinking nothing of it.
........
I decided this was my time to leave, i went back to my room picking up my bag and coat and headed out through the side exit so i couldn't be seen and leaving my neatly folded letter on my bed.
I walked down the road, a few miles from the facility and then called a taxi.I made my way to the airport debating on whether i made the right decision,Bucky will eventually come back.But it's too late now.I feel like this is the right thing to do, for everyone's sake.
I boarded my flight relatively easy and i left my phone off so if they tried to call or text me it wouldn't go through.I looked out the window at the clouds and how nice and peaceful it was.I wish everything could be like this.
-9 hours later-
I didn't get much sleep as i was still trying to plan where i could even stay, for at least a week.I just hope James is where i think he is otherwise i would have done all of this, for nothing.
The plane started to descend over the pitch black Russian morning, i was back, to where it all started.And i was alone.I could already sense the bitterness from the cold before i had even got out of the plane.
I put on my coat and backpack then trying to hide my face towards anyone i could, i didn't want to add any more problems to the ones i already had.
The air gave me a rich punch in the face as i exited the plane and i watched everyone on their phones either calling someone or embracing a warm hug to someone.I walked out of the airport alone and with no one to call for.
It was now 1:15am in Russia and i decided to hire a taxi to my destination, i remember an old pub me and james used to go to, so hopefully it was an old memory to him.I doubt it.
I paid the taxi and stepped out into the freezing snow, all the old memories came flooding back, some good mainly bad as i took a deep breath however as i turned around i noticed a motel opposite the bar, this is just what i needed.
I paid for my room and headed to it hoping it wouldn't be horrible.I opened the old door to find a single bed with a bathroom that looked bad but i reckon i've had worse.As i sat my things down, i sighed making myself look presentable as i decided, i need a drink.
I walked out the motel wearing a new dress and my coat with my purse in the pocket and made my way over the road to the bar.
I entered and it was surprisingly busy, there was still music playing and everyone was in groups all drunk and some couples were dancing around.I decided to sit in the bar stool as far away as i could however the guy next to me was only one stool apart from me.
I ordered my drink and then i noticed i started getting some stares from the guys next to me.I took my vodka shots quickly and tried to just stay to myself.However he then started moving closer to me.
"How about a dance?"The man said.
"I'm waiting for someone"I lied.
"I don't see them."He said now harshly moving even closer.
I was about to say something back until someone replied.
"She's with me"And a cold metal hand came out to reach mine.I sighed in relief quickly standing up and getting away from the table.
"Oh my God, James"I whispered hugging him strongly.
"How did you know i was here?"He replied confused.
"I hoped"I said in relief.
"Where are the others?"He said still in my ear as we tried to act natural in the dance floor. James noticed the guys were still staring at me so he turned his back to them.
"I came on my own, i feel like y- you w-would've....."My head started to spin like crazy as i stumbled on my words.This wasn't just alcohol.
"Nat"James said anxiously holding me strongly in case i collapsed.
"I-i think they s-spiked my drink"I said feeling sick.
"Ok i think we should go"He said quickly putting my coat on me.
"Mhm"I mumbled as he helped me out quickly not arousing any suspicion.
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