I was lay next to Bruce in bed still hungry as i had barely eaten all day until Tony knocked on the door saying "You guys better not be doing anything in there but if you aren't then you can come down and watch a film with us if you want".
"Yes we'll come give us one second"I said getting up and getting some comfy clothes on as Bruce got up as well.
"I knew it"Tony replied way to happily.
I walked out the door saying "We weren't doing anything" as i gave Tony a death stare.
"oK"He replied so i hit him on the arm.
"Not yet"I said laughing whilst walking past him as Tony and Bruce walked together and i could tell they were talking about me.
I went downstairs where everyone was sat waiting but i first grabbed some food and then they started the movie as i sat next to Bruce, i had no idea what film it was though.
I finished my food and set it down in the kitchen and walked back and snuggled next to Bruce as Clint went "Awhh" as he looked at us and then everyone else looked as well so i threw a cushion at Clint and slightly departed from Bruce.
Later on in the movie things got very violent and someone took advantage of someone in a sexual manner. I then got flashbacks to when i did and i could feel tears build up in my eyes and my legs started to shake, so i quickly got up and went to get a drink. Bruce then realised and then started saying "Hey why are we watching this?!".
"Because it's a good film".Tony replied
"Has anyone forgotten Natasha has gotten fucking raped so why would you put this on"Bruce stated angrily.
The others just went silent as Tony stated "I'm sorry we forgot".
"How could you forget?!"Bruce replied i could sense he was getting even angrier so i decided to just wipe my eyes and just sit back down.
I walked back over and just sat next to Bruce putting my arm on him saying "Hey it's fine it doesn't matter just carry on watching the movie". I said staring blankly at the screen as i knew if i made eye contact with anyone it would just make it awkward.
"Nat it is important"Bruce stated.
"Just forget about it"I said my voice shaky and tears welling in my eyes.Everyone just went silent and carried on watching the movie but i couldn't forget about it.
My breathes quickened as tears trickled down my eyes and my body froze i couldn't move it was like i was trapped in a bubble. I could faintly see Bruce seeing if i was alright as he was saying my name, i then saw everyone else gather around me and look at me.
I kept getting flashbacks as i murmured "stop, stop, please stop" until my mind jolted and i came back to reality. I gathered my surroundings as i quickly bolted up nerving away from everyone until i realised where i was and my breaths slowed.
I quickly wiped my tear stained eyes and looked at everyone as they were staring at me. I just realised what happened and i quickly started walking upstairs, i quickly walked in my room and shut the door whilst locking it and i started sobbing i couldn't hide it anymore.
I then heard a knock at the door i just ignored it but at the second knock i just gave in, i quickly unlocked the door jumping onto Bruce and hugging him tightly as i pushed him onto the bed so he was below me and cried on his shoulder saying "I told them to stop".
He held me stroking my hair saying "I know, i know".After awhile of me lying on him i managed to fall asleep easily.
I woke up and looked at the time and it was 3am but i wasn't tired i was angry like i wanted to break something, i decided to sneak out of bed and i got changed into some training gear and to start building my strength back up.
I went downstairs and into the training and started doing some basic punches, the basic punches then turned into heavy punches and then i started punching the punching bag as hard as i could until suddenly it split apart and huge amounts of sand came out of it. I sighed and went back into the kitchen, i grabbed a dustpan and brush and walked back in collecting all the sand and walked back out placing it in the bin.
I walked back into the training room hoping all my anger would have gone but it just kept boiling up i had the urge to kill someone but what am i thinking, i can't just going around killing everyone i fancy that's inhumane.I am inhumane.
I needed to clear my mind i need some fresh air, i went outside for a run; totally unarmed and just listening to music. I started running as fast as i could i didn't care where. All there was around the avengers for facility were trees and fields. I had already ran for a few miles and then i started overthinking, i just slumped down and put my head in my hands. I then sensed someone come up behind me i quickly got up and there was a group of what seemed to be 18year old boys and of course they were drunk.
I just decided to avoid them so i quickly decided to walk away until they shouted me over, i turned around to see what they wanted and of course they had a gun, i just looked at them as they told me to come nearer them.
I honestly couldn't be bothered to deal with this right now so i just decided to walk away until they shot their gun luckily it didn't hit me. I then quickly walked over to them as this was getting annoying now.
"What's a pretty girl like you doing in these woods"One of them said as they went to touch me, i twisted their arm and it broke so the guy with the gun went to shoot at me but hit his friend who was in front of me so his blood spilled all over me. I had to go as quickly as possible away as they ran away the opposite direction as quickly as possible but as i ran away i realised the blood on me wasn't just the boys but it was mine.
The bullet had gone directly through the boy and into me, i had to get back as quickly as possible, but i wasn't sure how long it would take as i ran a good 4miles. I started jogging as quickly as possible but i had to slow down as the bleeding quickened and i was losing a lot of blood and it would take me at least an hour to get back and of course i didn't bring a phone or anyway to call for help.
I just carried on running as fast as i could both hands on the wound trying to keep as much pressure on it as possible sweat now pouring down my face, i had travelled at least a mile so roughly three more miles to go, my strength weakened so i would have to walk the rest of way which would take even longer. I'm lucky to be alive at this point i know i had lost at least 4 pints of blood.
After another 5minutes my vision started to blur but i've been through worse, i traveled a few more minutes until i stumbled as i was getting very lightheaded, i'm extremely lucky the bullet only grazed me.
I walked for a few minutes until i stumbled and fell onto the ground this time with a thud but i had to get up i only had roughly 15 minutes until i was back to the facility. I lay on the ground just wanting to give up right then and there but i knew better than this. I painfully got up supported by a tree i really hoped i was going the right way.
I walked for 5 more minutes my vision still a blur and i stumbled again, surely i had lost 6pints by now, how am i still alive. Blood was basically a pool in my hands and soaked my clothes and it was starting to get light outside so i couldn't afford for anyone to see me.
This was it the home strength just 5 more minutes to go i had to make it. I stumbled yet again in the dirt. I spat to the side which also included blood. I got back up my legs felt like a jelly i finally made it to the front gate, i pressed the buzzer and let them know it was me.
I was let in and i started walking as fast as i could to the front door, i pressed the doorbell as Bruce opened the door as i he looked petrified at the state i was in and i collapsed into his arms.
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There will be some fluff in the next chapter don't worry
This is a lot longer than usual though 😌
Yasmin<3
