"Bruce"I shouted as loud as i could trying to search for him everywhere.I found him sat on the bar stool with his head down.
"Bruce i'm sorry i didn't tell you. I don't love him!"I choked with tears.
"There's always something going on with you isn't there"
"No Bruce don't say that"
"I can't trust you"
"I did it to protect you"
"Then why are you always in danger and i just have to watch until... t's too late?"
"Because i would die the most painful death if that meant you were safe"I said trying to make him look at me but he just brushed me off.
"Do you not think i would do the same exact thing?"He said his voice shaky. I just went quiet.
"Of course i would think you would but you don't deserve to die, you have done nothing wrong...i should already be dead"
"Don't say that"He said looking up; his eyes were puffy and his head was still bleeding.
"...You're still bleeding you need to get it patched up"
"I don't care"
"Well i do"
"No you don't...you just care about yourself and not about how others will feel about your actions"
"I-"
"You know it's true...Maybe we shouldn't be together"He replied i could tell he was also crying.
I froze."Maybe we shouldn't" I murmured walking off.
Then everyone walked in dragging Alexei with them.
"Nat are you alright?"Tony stated seeing probably the most i've ever cried in front of anyone. I tried to walk past but they wouldn't let me.I just sighed still looking down.I looked at Alexei and he stated "See i told you no one loves you...apart from me".
"Fuck you"I stated storming over to him and easily grabbing him off Bucky and his gun, he quickly pinned me to the floor, so i just shot him straight in the head.His blood pouring all over me.I lifted him off me and got up all bloody.Now everyone was watching, i held the gun still in my hand, this time it wasn't going to jam.But i couldn't do it.I just sighed looked at it and carried it with me.I looked down as i walked away everyone quickly moving out of the way .I didn't care.
"Nat wait"Bruce said.I pointed the gun directly at him. Everyone was scared to death at what i was going to do next.
"Nat stop"Clint stated.My mind was set.However my head started to spin i couldn't concentrate, i felt sick, i tried to keep steady but i couldn't the realisation hit me.I put the gun down, dropped it.I held my forehead and hazily went upstairs.Not looking back.
I got in my room and just went into the bathroom and turned the shower on sitting down.I didn't bother to get undressed.I didn't care.The water was freezing cold.I didn't care.I liked it cold.That's what i was used to anyway.I watched the blood drain off me and i started sobbing.I couldn't stop.
-An hour later-
I was so focused on sobbing that i hadn't even realised Bruce came in."Nat"He stated.
"Go away"I said through tears.
"I'm not going anywhere"He stated.
"I want to be alone"
"Come here"He said touching my shoulder and felt the freezing water."Nat you're freezing".
"Oh"I stated not daring to look at him.
