"How is that possible, you said your father was dead"He replied trying to not sound too horrible.
"It was in my dream, and i can't remember what he looked like, but it all seemed to real"
"I'm sure it's nothing,"He replied, rubbing my arm.
"I don't know,"I said confused and anxious.
"Ok let's get some rest and we can talk about it in the morning"He said tiredly.
"Yes ok"I said rubbing my thumb on his cheek and kissing it softly.
We lay back down and after around half an hour I knew he was asleep, so I left my bed and went to my office.
I don't need sleep.I need answers.
I went to my computer and found all the information we had on that night, we even had a video tape.
I watched it and when i first did i tried so hard not to break down, but i didn't because i wasn't surprised, because nothing goes my way in life.
I then zoomed into the man and got a clear shot and searched for the image.I found the identity of a man called Alexander romanoff, surely not?
I sighed and thought I should probably go to sleep because it's nearly morning so someone will find me up.I cleared all the information from my screen and went back to Bruce taking in his warmth.
.........
I woke up adjusting to my surroundings and when I did i realised Bruce was already awake.
"Morning"He spoke softly.
I smiled at him, I was exhausted.Then it hit me, what I dreamt of and sighed in distress, however Bruce had already left to make breakfast.
I got ready and then headed back downstairs, i was about to walk into the kitchen until i saw Bucky looking at me.The kiss.
I went up to Bucky saying "Please tell me you haven't told anyone"I asked.
"N-no i haven't"He said unconvincingly.
I gave him an evil glare.
"Ok fine, i told Steve".
"STEVE"I almost shouted, he can never lie to anyone.
"Yes i'm sorry, i tell him everything"
"Well this time you shouldn't have"I stated.
Right on cue Steve walked into the room and his face changed as he realised what we were talking about also.
"Nat"He said disappointedly.
"You don't understand,"I replied.
"Understand what, that you kissed my best friend".Steve replied.
"We have a past, you know that, and i was the one who went and found him before he starved to death ok, it just happened".
He gave me a forgiving look but then replied "You need to tell Bruce!" loudly.
"N0-"But then i saw him enter the room.
"Is everyone alright...it seems a bit tense in here"He said as we all stood there in silence.
Before we knew it Tony, Pepper who is pregnant and Clint walked in also.
"Y-yeh we're fine....Bruce can i just talk to you for a minute?"I asked so then he nodded his head and then we walked out of the room.
"What is it?"Bruce asked.
"I-um"I felt like I was going to be sick. I couldn't tell him, not now.I quickly walked out and to the bathroom again, and I threw up again. What is happening to me, I'm never ill.
The last time I threw up like that. Was when i was pregnant.But i already know that's impossible.
Bruce knocked on the door and came in as I steadied myself on the sink.
"Nat are you alright?, what is going on?"He asked.
"I'm sorry"I said, putting my head down trying to hide my face from showing a small tear.
"Don't worry i understand why you went after Bucky, i would never had let you go-"
"No...no"I said, shaking my head...."
"It's ok, I understand,"He said, rubbing my back.
"I kissed him"I said almost silently, but he stopped rubbing my back, so I knew he heard.
"I didn't mean it, I just-"I stated.
"Well what did you mean, because if you carry on like this I won't be able to trust you....do you love him instead?"He asked, I could hear the sadness in his voice.
"No...no"I said, turning around and putting my hands on his cheeks "...I love you".
"Then please act like it and make your mind up, because otherwise...."He said as if he was about to break down and then he walked out of the room.
As i watched him walk away, tears still stinged my eyes, i then noticed everyone turned to see what had happened, i stood looking back at them for a few seconds especially Steve and Bucky and then i quickly walked back into the bathroom locking the door, i couldn't go out not yet.
I sat on the floor overthinking everything, everything that had happened.I started crying, but silently of course.It was up to a point that i felt sick.
I threw up.Again. What is happening to me?!
I lay there in a ball exhausted and I drifted off to sleep.In the past i had learnt to sleep almost anywhere.
I woke up slowly, still lay on the floor.Bruce wasn't there this time. No one was.This is what it used to be like without Bruce.And i don't like it.
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