Bruce came rushing in to see me weeping on floor, i looked at him with guilt in my eyes.He came up to me sympathetically and wrapped me in a warm tight hug.
"Don't worry it was just a bad dream"He said stroking my hair.
"I know"I lied, i had no idea if it was a dream or not, what if i did actually give birth, if i had there is no doubt in my mind i would go searching for them, even if it's just by myself.
I was about to tell him, i was about to tell him i was potentially pregnant, but i couldn't, i couldn't do it.
He sat with me on the bathroom floor helping me to settle down, his presence put me at ease.
I thanked him and we both headed back to bed, but i couldn't get to sleep, no matter how hard i tried.
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I sat up and it was pitch black, but my eyes easily adjusted, i was sat on a bed with many beds around me with girls in asleep.I was in the red room.I was going to meet Bucky.I unlocked my handcuffs and creeped out of bed making my way to the door silently. I placed my ear to the door, hearing if anyone was in the corridor but luckily there was no one there, i creeped out and made my way to the stairs and all the way up to where Bucky's room was.
I managed to make my way up past the many floors without a sound, and then there was his room, it was metal and heavy but he had a key without anyone else knowing, we usually meet up out on the roof to look at the stars but it was especially cloudy today so they wouldn't have been seen, to compromise we usually go to his room.
His room wasn't very big, more like a prison cell with one small single bed, a toilet and a sink.I knocked on the door once as quietly as i could and then the door opened and he was stood there in his full winter soldier suit, it did scare me at first when he first came to train us, but then i decided to love the eeriness and fear behind that.
I walked in and he silently shut the door behind us, we never spoke much with our time together, we just enjoyed each other's presence, but tonight it was different. I stood in front of him as he made his way over to me, we looked into each others eyes and we knew what we wanted to do, i know i've never felt any sort of love before but i couldn't throw it away whilst i have it, i leaned into him, i kissed him softly on the lips but then he made that connection stronger and more passionate, i've been meaning to do this for awhile.
The kiss became more passionate as i wrapped my legs around his waist and his metal arm supported my back as his other arm had a fist full of my hair, he moved me backwards down onto the bed, i knew what i wanted to do, i started taking his shirt off which was a very risky move but he didn't seem to mind, he then carefully lifted my shirt up and then we went from the there, i wished that i was on top but he liked to be in control and if he wasn't you're asking for a death wish.
That night we never said a word to each other but it was special, special in many ways.
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It was 6am in the morning, and all i felt was guilt, i felt i had cheated on Bruce, but i hadn't, it was just a flashback, but i know that it will stick in my mind, i need to tell Bucky, to find out if it's true, surely he will know.
If he doesn't then i can't just sit around and ignore it, i need to find out more, but maybe i don't, no one will believe me, i bet Bucky won't either, but if he lies to me i know i can see right through him and he knows it too.
I took in deep breaths, it was just a dream.....it was just a dream, right?
I quickly got out of bed, i needed to find Bucky as soon as possible, i need answers, i got changed and whilst brushing my teeth i looked at myself in the mirror, this made no sense, how could i forget i had given birth before, maybe that's why it felt so familiar.
I questioned myself, what if Bucky had known all these years and he'd never told me, maybe he got brainwashed too, or maybe as he started remembering things again, he remembered that too, it isn't exactly that hard to forget, but somehow i managed to.
I walked out the bathroom quickly but firstly opening my purse again to look at the tests one last time and then i put them away and headed to find Bucky.
I found him sat talking with sam and Steve they all liked getting up really early.I was about to walk up to him but i couldn't, how could i say this straight up to him after last time we talked. I just sighed and walked away into the kitchen and of course Wanda was there watching me.
"You're pregnant."She stated.
"Wha- no i'm not."I replied harshly back.
"You haven't told Bruce have you."She said.
"Why would i because i'm not."I said looking sadly, of course she can read right through me.
"Oh my god."
"What."I replied.
"It isn't Bruce's baby."
"I- yes it is why who else's would it be"I stated not thinking what i was saying, i was too spooked about what had just happened.
"So you are pregnant?!"She whispered in shock.
"You better not fucking tell anybody"I stated leaning down putting my head in my hands, i can't believe i just confessed.
"It's Bucky's baby."She stated.
I looked at her speechless, i was acting like it was but i know it isn't, i was focused on what i just dreamt.
"Natasha"She stated loudly making everyone else turn around.I sighed and dragged her by the arm out of the room.
"No it isn't Bucky's baby"I said harshly.
"Then why did you act like that."She stated.
"I-.....it was because i have been before ok."
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I know i managed to have the time to write another chapter as i'm getting more inspiration so look out for the next chapter soon, i might even write another chapter later today if i can as after that i can't post until next week.
Yasmin<3
