It was around 8pm now so i decided to get the tests now before anyone was too suspicious otherwise i know i won't be able to sleep tonight.
I grabbed my purse and i was about to walk out of the door until Bruce asked
"Where are you off to?"
"O-oh i'm just going to the store do you need anything?"
"Why are you going now?"
"I-i'm just hungry"
"We have plenty of food here"
"Just forget about it" i stated harshly walking out the door.
I drove off in my car thinking to myself, what if i am pregnant, what am i going to do, how am i going to tell Bruce, he probably won't believe me now.I can't afford to look after a child, i'd be a terrible mother.
I sighed and got out of my car and into the store.There was only one other person in the store, this is going to be awkward.
I walked to the pregnancy tests looking for the best ones and grabbed a few of them, i also grabbed some chips to go with it, if anyone questions what i bought.
I brought my things up to the cashier with an awkward smile and she smiled at me back.
I paid for my things and as i was about to walk away she stated "good luck".
"Thanks" i replied because i need all the luck i can get, for what i don't know.
I got back in my car and headed back home.
........
I opened the door and luckily no one saw me enter, i quickly went off to the bathroom in my room and locked the door, i took the tests out and looked at them for a bit, then looking at myself in the mirror, what am i going to do?
Fuck it, i opened one of them and took the test, i paced around the room waiting and waiting, until a result came up.....
It was negative, i sighed in relief, but was it relief, did i really want to not be able to have a child of my own, because i really did, it's all happening so fast.
I then looked at the last one and sighed it took it, i had to find out, i waited again until the result last came up and it was...
Positive.
I stood there almost shaking, holding the test in my hand in disbelief, what am i going to do now.I started tearing up, i don't know if they are happy tears, or sad but i need to act like everything is normal, until i find a way to tell Bruce at least.
I looked in the bin and grabbed my other positive test out, luckily there was nothing else in there.
I held one in each hand then put them down on the cabinet and wiped my eyes, i don't know how to feel, sad, happy, but i know for one thing i am petrified.
Then came a knock on my door, it was Bruce.
"Nat are you alright?"He said to the locked door.
"Y-yeh i'm fine" i replied trying to hide my feelings from being heard as much as possible.
"Wanda said you were sick"He replied.
"N-no i'm perfectly fine"I lied trying to hide the pregnancy boxes as well as i could and hiding the three tests in my purse.
I wiped my eyes once more, putting on a fake smile and then walking out the door.
"See i'm fine" i said putting the crisps on my bed and my purse on the floor to the side of me.
"Alright" he said kissing my head, and then i got changed and back into bed with Bruce.
"Night"
"goodnight"I replied trying to get as much sleep as possible, which probably won't be enough.
........
I'm lay on a medic table, there's doctors all around me, i'm very heavily sedated and worn out and can barely see a thing, but when i look down, i see a baby at the end of me.....is that mine?, did i just give birth?
Everything hurts, i can tell the doctors are holding the baby and talking but it's all a blur, but i managed to hear one thing.
"Barnes"....Bucky? Oh no. The next thing i saw was the baby being carried away.I tried to scream and shout as best i could but it was just all in my head.
Then the next thing happened so quickly, i was quickly carried away out of that room and into another.Then i saw it, the machine that wipes your memory, i tried to break from the soldiers grip but it was no use...i was too weak.
They forced me on the chair strapping me down, and then the machine started whirring, tears fell down my eyes, i knew i could never know about my child again, and then there was a bright flash. Suddenly i'm going at a million miles per hour through the graduation ceremony until.....
I sat up gasping for air, tears streamed down my eyes as i ran into the bathroom and paced around then threw up panicking. I was pregnant before....with Bucky's baby?. And he never told me.Or was it just a dream?
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I know i've posted another day in a row, i've just come up with a lot of new ideas as before i had no inspiration as such, so i'm not sure when i'll next post i could potentially post tomorrow again, but i may not have the chance as i will be revising, so at latest i will try and post a week from now and if not earliest tomorrow. x
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