-A few hours later-
We had all eaten and then we were all sat around watching a movie, i looked up and Bucky was looking at me but then he was quick to look away.I waited for a few more seconds and then looked away myself.
"I'm going to get a drink, does anyone else want one?"Bucky stated. Some of them said they did but it was all a blur to me as i still watched him.
"I'll help you"I replied getting up, to be honest i was getting restless, but i had to find out if he knows about my flashback.He gave me a look and then we headed to the kitchen.
We were getting the glasses from the cupboard until i stated "I've been pregnant before haven't i?"I said in a curious whisper.
"I don't know what you mean"He replied in a way even i started questioning myself.
I gave him a look "I had a flashback"I stated and then he paused.
"What about?"He replied anxiously, then i could tell he knew something.
"Don't fucking lie to me"I harshly whispered looking directly into his eyes.
"........."
"You got me pregnant didn't you, and then they wiped my memory"I stated harshly.
"I don't remember"He stated staring into space.
I shoved him against the counter then making everyone turn around.
"Yes"He whispered so quietly i almost missed it and still staring straight.
I got off him and then i froze trying to take in all of this information.My flashbacks were all real. I was pregnant before.My baby could potentially be in this world somewhere, but i reckon there's an 90% chance they are already dead.What am i going to do now.
"Natasha"Bruce stated as i came back to reality and Bucky was also stood there looking at me, i didn't even realise there was tears rolling down my cheeks.
"How long have you known, before all of this avengers shit"I stated only so Bucky could hear.
"I never forgot....i-i just couldn't tell you because they were going to hurt her and"
"Fuck you"I shouted whilst pushing him away, not wanting to know what they did to my poor daughter.
Everyone watched me quickly leave the room, i was so angry and frustrated how could he not tell me, how could he live with that weight to keep that big of a secret on his hands.
I walked out into the pitch black night completely ignoring how cold and late it was around me. I started pacing around the gravel on the driveway, until i heard a noise behind me, i turned around and as i did everyone came out suited behind me, there was someone here.
Suddenly it all went in slow motion, the sight of the the man, to the sound of the gun, Wanda killing the guy in seconds, to the pain i felt in my stomach......
I looked down. Blood covered my hands as i held my stomach. It seemed as if these were my last seconds on earth. The only seconds i had before my life became worthless once more.
My eyes streamed, as i fell to the floor roughly and then everyone realised, and that broke me the most.
I lay on the ground choking in my tears as everyones shouts were blurred in my head, i didn't care if i lived or died, my past baby was dead and now my present. And it's all my fault. Then everything went. Black.
..............................
I heard sounds of muffled beeps, i was alive, but i wasn't. But i was, and i might aswell be dead. I squinted at the blinding lights above me.Please tell me this was just a dream....it was just a dream.
