I eventually finished all my sandwiches with bruce by my side and i came to the conclusion that this is the perfect time to open up with the most trusted man i know i thought, doubtfully.
"Ok i need to tell you something that's been happening recently" i started with my head looking at the floor. He put his hand on my jaw lifting my head up calmly and responded "I'm listening" in an understanding tone. "Promise you won't tell anyone ok" i said sternly looking into his soft eyes. "I promise" he said with a small smile.
"Ok" i gulped "So recently i've been having these dreams well nightmares or flashbacks about my past, um" i can feel my throat going dry and my eyes stinging. Bruce gave me a reassuring look. "Basically where for example last night when i woke up and found you, i had a dream, probably the worst one i have had, where i was on one of my most dangerous missions" i sighed. "Take as long as you need" bruce said reassuringly.
"what happened was i was set out to kill the red room's biggest enemy, the red room is which is where i grew up as you know"i spoke quickly. "I was at the red rooms arch enemies base trying to kill the leader, i even found his office however i could sense guards coming but the door was locked, and i didn't have enough time to open it so i had to choose fight or flight, and of course i chose fight" i tried to put on a fake laugh.
"So i fought and fought, knocking down guards one by one, however they knew my weakness" i tried to fight back the tears in my eyes but it was no use, a few tears trickled down my cheek, i tried to wipe them away quickly, but bruce just grabbed my hand and wiped them away using his thumb and stated "it's ok".
"This is going to sound stupid, ok my weakness is um, it's fire" i said looking down. "Basically that's how my parents died when the red room came to kill them and they then found me and took me in as their own". I said croakily as more tears ran down my face. "Hey we can stop now if you want"Bruce replied sympathetically.
"No it's ok" i replied. "So in my dream they came out with a um, a flamethrower and i froze... i then awoke from my dream barely breathing, with sweaty palms and a sore head" i quickly looked up at bruce and i could see the pain in his eyes. "so i got up to get a drink weary of my surroundings and that's when i took you to the ground, i'm sorry" i said with a small chuckle and he smiles back.
"I actually went back to sleep alright afterwards however when i woke up this morning to my alarm at 7 and got in the shower, after i walked into my room and i um, i passed out". Bruce gave me an alarming look and stated "So you passed out before training and you didn't tell anyone, is that why you 'slipped' in training?
I stared at him for a few seconds and replied with a quiet "yes...it was only for 5 minutes but i also had that burning sensation on my right side, it was like from my dream" i said reluctantly looking back at the ground "I could barely move it hurt so much, and that's why i sprinted out the door into you because i was late".
I felt so good letting this all out yet so exposed at the same time. Bruce just stared at me in aw. "Then after training after you went , i'm sorry i was arrogant, i have a tendency to push people away" i explained "I could barely walk to my room because of my back, and it didn't help that Steve was banging my head with a million questions". I rolled my eyes.
Speaking of the devil Steve opened my door swiftly and stated "Nat have you seen Bru-...oh sorry" He said surprised as he saw a teary eyed me, with Bruce sat next to me. "Anyway we have a big mission in 2 hours if you want to get ready" he said whilst closing the door.
I just stared at Bruce as he asked "I don't think you should come" he stated looking at me deeply. I replied with "No i'm fine honestly, i'm sure it won't be that bad" i responded wiping my eyes hoping he would agree with me. "Nat your hurt you shouldn't be goi-"i cut him off "Well it's not up to you is it"i responded raising my voice. "You said it yourself nat you can't even walk downstairs" he replied sorrowfully.
I stood up too fast about to ask him to leave and it's not his decision but i completely forgot about the pain in my side as i winced out in pain and fell to the ground as bruce caught me.
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I feel like this chapter was a bit boring but idk leave your thoughts in the comments :)
Yasmin <3
