Meaning Of A Purr (Sanders Sides - LAMP Fic)

Chapter 59: Frustrating Desire

Remember all of those fun kinda fluffy loving chapters recently? Good, keep remembering those and don't kill me for this. Trigger warnings for this chapter include; a lot of suggestive and sexual content, mentions/references to past rape and abuse, panic attacks, and non-descriptive flashbacks. As always take care of yourselves and thank you for reading!

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Therapy had ended rather early today. It was not because anyone was uncomfortable or anything, but instead because he had been in one of the more physical sessions with Patton who had been planning on making some dessert for tonight and had to leave earlier than normal. Virgil of course still felt a bit needy after it. Having been touched so many times with the intentions of getting his body in a rather excited state and then having it just drop quickly before it could go anywhere was getting a bit on his nerves. He was well aware that he was the one who had originally made the decision to have things be this way, but he still felt so frustrated by it at times. He was pretty sure that was a normal feeling to experience, craving more intimate touches from the others and letting them make him feel the best they could. He needed to talk about this with them, or at least do something about it on his own soon, he felt like he'd go insane if he didn't.

Since Patton had left Virgil right after the session ended that only made the drop from bliss feel so much worse. Roman had volunteered to hold him and try to help him calm down from the session but Virgil still felt off, a faint, dull throb in his lower body driving him mad. They were watching a movie together but Virgil couldn't concentrate on it, he just felt so frustrated. He kept inching closer to Roman until the larger side let out a chuckle, understanding some of what Virgil wanted and hoisting him up onto his lap. Roman gently kissed the back of Virgil's neck as something that was meant to be short and comforting, but Virgil reacted by letting out a pleased hum.He exposed his neck as best he could, giving Roman an obvious invitation to continue. He let out a breathy sound when he did, adoring the warm feeling dancing over his sensitive neck. He didn't want to be loud and disturb Logan, who was sitting only a few paces away reading, or even Patton who was baking brownies in the kitchen. Even then he couldn't control the heavy breaths that tumbled over his lips. He shifted a bit in Roman's lap making the other male release a groan low in his throat. Roman's arms wrapped around his front as if originally intending to steady him, but Virgil didn't care. He moved one of Roman's hands up to his chest and the other to the bottom of his shirt. Roman hesitated a moment but when Virgil reached down to stroke Roman's thigh with one hand and the other reached back to loosely twist into Roman's hair he gained more confidence to act on his own. Roman's lower hand moved under Virgil's shirt rubbing at the sensitive and ticklish skin along his lower abdomen while the upper one gently massaged Virgil's pectoral muscles with his finger tips. His mouth left open mouthed kisses all over the back and sides of Virgil's neck, sucking small red marks into the pale skin. His whole body was throbbing with electricity but in a very good way, heating up like the bright heat inside of him had ignited into a fire. He wanted more, he wanted Roman to touch him more. He didn't want this to stop, he was a little afraid of the fire but more than anything he wanted it to swallow him whole.

"Roman," Virgil whimpered quietly.

"Yes, my beautiful love?" Roman asked, remaining equally as quiet.

"So good. Want more," Virgil panted, shifting his hips desperately.

"Are you sure?"

Virgil gave an eager nod and bit his lip as the hand on his chest moved down to his thighs. He wished he had less clothing on, he wanted to feel everything about Roman's hands, but even the gentle squeeze to his inner thigh through the fabric of his jeans made him want to cry out. Virgil was forced to bite his lip as Roman's hands roamed over his body. It felt amazing and it was making him so happy to feel this way. He wanted more of it, he wanted to relish in this feeling.