Meaning Of A Purr (Sanders Sides - LAMP Fic)

Chapter 68: Questioning

Sorry it's so late. This chapter includes mentions of sexual activities, sexual intercourse, mentions of Virgil's past, and accidental voyeurism. As always take care of yourselves and thank you for reading.

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He could still feel it. The gentle hands exploring his skin, ensuring he felt pleasure with each passing second. Loving, kind, caring, all of their tenderness making his heart fill with a bright, warm light. He could feel his desire to make them feel the same sensations and the longing to be given even more in return. He wanted to feel all of those pleasant sensations and explore new, exciting things with them. He knew they'd do their best to make them all positive experiences for him.

"What should we have for dinner?"

"Eh?"

Virgil blinked out of his thoughts when Patton spoke to him, but didn't quite catch what had been said. He was sitting at the table while Patton was wandering around the kitchen glancing in each cabinet and opening the fridge a few times as he continued to endlessly circle the room.

"I asked what we should have for dinner. Anything sound particularly appealing?" Patton asked.

"Oh, I, uh, not really? I don't have any preferences," Virgil replied.

Patton gave a soft and thoughtful hum as he glanced around in a few of the cabinets again.

"You feeling okay, Kitten? You zoned off pretty far there," Patton said worriedly.

"Oh, yeah, everything was fine, I was just thinking about a few things," Virgil reassured him.

Patton turned to face him, his cheeks puffing out in a sort of pout.

"If your brain is telling you mean things again I will physically fight it," Patton muttered through his pout.

"That won't be necessary," Virgil chuckled nervously.

"Well if your head isn't being a big meany again then what has you so distracted?" Patton inquired.

Virgil flushed embarrassedly. He knew he probably shouldn't feel that way. He'd actually done those activities with them and yet actually talking about them out loud felt almost like he should be ashamed.

"I was... I was thinking about, you know, doing things with you guys. Mostly that most recent time... with Logan," Virgil admitted.

"Really? What are you thinking about with that? Is there something bothering you about it?" Patton asked worriedly.

"No!" Virgil exclaimed before quickly regaining his cool and speaking normally. "No, I was just thinking about how I liked it and stuff... And that I kinda want to do it again because it feels nice and I want to make you guys feel better. I've already done it three times and they were all different but great and I want that again some time. Wait, have I been thinking about this too often. I feel like I'm being super needy. I already had a chance to try with each of you and all I can do is still think about it. Am I a pervert? I feel like this is the way a pervert would feel and think. Or maybe a slut, I don't want to be slutty. I'm not a slut right? Why do I think so much about sex? I don't understand it. I-"

"Okay, that's enough of that Kitten," Patton said, wrapping his arms over Virgil's shoulders and kissing the top of his head. "Baby, you aren't a pervert or a slut. It's okay to think about sex. We all do it from time to time, I'm pretty sure it's a normal thing. You just discovered that there can be such great pleasure in doing that kinda thing after experiencing basically only pain from that same thing in the past. I might not know all of the facts, but I'm pretty sure Logan would agree with me that it kinda makes sense for you to dwell on that topic a lot for a while until you get used to the fact you can experience that whenever you want and it's not going anywhere. I mean, I'd double check to make sure my logic is sound with our favorite little Logic, but I'm positive it's normal."