The Golden Heart (Yuno Grinberryall x reader)

Chapter 14 - Anger

A/n: Trigger warning. Read at your own risk. Haha tried to make this chapter as angsty as possible please don't hate me for this :)

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I let out an anxious sigh as I stand up. My grimoire lands in my hands, the Golden heart shining brightly. My eyes dart up to Yuno, Mimosa and Klaus looking at me with wide eyes. I gulp hard, my eyes widening as Yuno's eyes close and he collapses. I race over to him, using my wind to create a cushion for him so he doesn't fall. Using my magic, I carry him back to Golden Dawn and place him in the infirmary. The doctor starts to clean his wounds and I excuse myself, making my way to Captain William's office. I knock on the door and he opens it, his gaze softening once he sees my distressed face.

"Y/n, is everything okay?" He asks, moving out of the way so I can walk through the doorway.

"Not really...you saw what happened at the battle. I'm so sorry Captain, I need to go home now, it's much to dangerous for me to stay here and I'm only going to bring trouble now. I broke my vow and now I have to pay for it" I begin to take off my cloak when he stops me, putting a hand on my shoulder.

"If you had not released your magic, all of you would most likely be dead. You have nothing to be sorry for. Even if you did it by accident, you still saved your squadmates and that's the reason they're alive right now"

"They know I lied to them. They know everything and they probably hate me for it, what am I going to do" Tears begin to brim my eyes as their faces burn in my memory. Mimosa's hands were over her mouth, eyes widened. Klaus wore a somewhat neutral face, but I could see a hint of hate in that glare. Finally Yuno, the man I promised to be honest to. He was so shocked, his eyes screaming hurt, betrayal before he passed out. I gulp, moving my arms trying to sooth my racing heart and heightened anxiety.

"If you just explain to them, I'm sure they'll understand. You're decision was the most selfless one you could have made because you were hiding who you truly were in order to keep the people you cared about safe. You're a hero Y/n, you saved them Y/n. They can't be mad forever. And as their captain, I understood why you did what you did"

"Thank you Captain..." I manage to whisper and wipe my tears. A knock at the door breaks the silence and it opens.

"Er Captain Vangeance and Miss L/n...Yuno is fine and just needs rest. He'll most likely wake up tomorrow. He passed out from shock and lack of mana." I nod and the doctor leaves as I let out a breath of relief.

"You'll be fine Y/n" I force a smile as I close the door, walking back to my room. I don't come into contact with anyone, miraculously and shut the door to my room, sliding down against it. I pull my knees into my chest and start crying. I can't shake this feeling of guilt, even though I know this was the best decision I could have made to protect them. My heart aches as their faces show up in my head once more. My sobs get louder as I imagine how much they probably hate me right now. As much as I try to wipe my tears, they continue to pour out from my puffy eyes.

Why couldn't I be born normal?

Why was I given this gift?

Why me?

Why is this happening to me?

Everything just seems to be falling apart. I find out my parents aren't my real parents, I get strange dreams about someone who's trying to kill me, and now I might have just lost the last few people I care about. Maybe I should go back home. If this guy really is trying to kill me, surely he'll do it whenever he finds me. I won't fight back. Or maybe...I'll just do the job for him. If they all leave me I have nothing left. More tears spill out as these thoughts continue to fill my head. My heart continues to cry out in pain and I clutch my chest, eventually falling asleep on the floor

~The next morning~

There's no light today. The outside is dark and gloomy. I stand up, walking to the mirror and seeing my depressed state. I look awful. Deciding I should take a shower before facing Yuno and everyone else, I walk into the bathroom and turn on the water, then strip. The hot water comes into contact with my cold skin and I close my eyes. Part of me wishes this is all just some nightmare I can wake up from. I feel myself start to shake and I let out a breath. I shut the water off not long after, then step out of the shower changing and fixing my hair. My eyes, now returned to their original color look lifeless and full of pain. I gulp as I close the door to my room, making my way towards the infirmary again. The doctor notices my presence and wears a sorrowful expression.

"He woke up earlier. I think he's out in the forest" I nod and walk outside base. My anxiety levels rise as I get closer to the entrance of the headquarters. Walking deeper into the forest I see him leaning along a tree. I gulp before speaking.

"Yuno" My voice comes out just above a whisper, but he picks it up. Yuno faces me, anger evident on his face. "Look-"

"What the hell Y/n" I could hear the spite in his voice. "When were you going to tell me?"

"I...I wasn't going to..."

He lets out a forced laugh, running his hands through his hair. "So you just we're going to be honest then? You weren't going to tell me the truth you were gonna just lie to me for the rest of our lives?"

"Yuno no-please just listen-"

"I don't want to hear it Y/n." I flinch at his tone. His glare sharpens as he steps closer to me. "You promised to be honest with me when we started dating and look where that turned out. You betrayed me, you're a liar"

"Yuno please just listen-"

"NO!" He screams, shooting his wind towards me. "I TRUSTED YOU" He takes a breath."I just...I can't do this anymore"

"You're not....leaving are you?" My voice comes out shaky and begins cracking as tears brim my eyes. I feel drops of rain starting to fall down on my face and body

"I don't want anything to do with you" My hands start to shake and my lip begins to quiver.

"Please don't leave me...I love you Yuno"

"I should have never trusted you"

"Don't you dare leave me all alone again...please"

"I can't love you"

And with those last words, he left, leaving me all alone in the forest. I hear his retreating footsteps as they fade away, the sound of the pouring rain masking everything else. My legs go weak and I fall to my knees, gripping the grass under me. The tears flowing down my face mix in with the rain as I feel my body getting weaker as I shake, letting out a loud scream of anguish and begin to sob. Everyone is gone...

I'm all alone again...