In Another Life

Chapter 18

Y/N POV

Crossing the small space, he grabs my arm, yanking me back to look at him.

"Y/N, damn it, listen to me!"

My lip twitches as I glare up at him.

"Why should I-"

"Because I am still your Captain, Kaneki or not, you need to respect me in the presence of others. Alone, that's different, but you need to listen when I give you a command-"

"So you can go around breaking the hand of any man who touches me? This is the Scouts, Levi! Physical contact is a must. You know that 99% of our training is hand to hand-"

"Hand to hand combat, yes. But not groping and twirling around the mother of my child up in the air. Not openly flirting with a spoken-for woman-"

I step forward, holding my finger up at him.

"I am anything but spoken for-"

The next thing to come from my lips is a gasp as I stumble across the space into Levi's hand comes up as he grabs my wrist, pulling me into him. His other hand wraps around the back of my neck as he squeezes, bringing his lips to my ear.

"Oh, you are spoken for."

I don't have to see him to know he's grinning; I can practically hear it."

Scoffing, I push myself away from him. Rolling my eyes.

"I'm not yours, Levi. If you are so desperate for female attention, I'm sure your little fling from earlier would be delighted to entertain you."

His eyes narrow as he shakes his head.

"What's that supposed to mean?"

I turn, speaking over my shoulder as I reach for the bottle of whisky and glass I had brought to the room earlier.

"It means that you have had no shortage of female attention while I was away. If you need to get your cock wet, go harass another poor girl-"

I hissed out in pain. Levi's fingers fist my hair from where I had it tied up into a loose bun on top of my head.

Yanking my head back, he forces me to stumble back into his chest. He brings his lips inches from my own.

"I had women fill my bed in your absence, yes. But you introduced another man to my son, allowed him personal quality time with him. Michaelson will always hold a place with him because of your decision. Your decision to keep me away from what's mine."

My eyes water from how hard he'd been pulling in the strands of hair connected to my head.

"Kaneki isn't just yours-"

I cry out as he tugs on the strands again, his lips whispering soft kisses over mine as he speaks.

"I wasn't talking about just Kaneki."

I pull against him, a tear running down my face before I realize that he won't give me any room to escape.

"I'm not yours, Levi. I'm just not."

My hands come up to pull at him from where he held me but it's not good.

Releasing his hold, he uses it to throw me back onto the old squeaky bed. I have no time to prepare before he climbs on top of me, pinning both of my arms down to the mattress.

Opening my eyes, he glares right back down into mine.

"You are, you always have been. The faster you realize that. The faster we can stop dancing around this topic like school kids."

Shaking my head in confusion, I look back and forth between his eyes.

"I don't understand-"

"Don't play coy, Y/N. Not a day went by where I didn't think about you."

I shake my head, his hold tightening on my wrists.

"That's a lie; it's a lie-"

"Quit it."

I thrash below him, fighting him at each end.

"I won't have you try to make a family with me out of pity; I just won't-"

He slams me back down on top of the bed, the springs creaking as he yells down at me.

"Y/N, listen to me!"

Opening my eyes, I stare up into his own.

"I scouted you from the academy. Kept an eye on your name until it came up in the scouts recruits. That day I went straight to Erwin to have you placed directly beneath me. I kept you close during every mission; I fucked you the first chance I got. You had me practically crazed for more. Hell, I put Jean in the infirmary for a month after you left. So don't sit here and try to make light of the situation because what I feel for you is anything but."

He heaves, air blowing in my face as he tries to calm himself.

I open my mouth, goosebumps filling my skin as his thumbs run up the soft skin on my wrist.

"What do you want?"

The words hang between us like ice, neither one of us speaking for a moment.

Releasing my left wrist, he slides his hand back behind my head before bringing his lips to mine.

It was slow, gentle.

He didn't try to pry his way in; he simply tasted me.

He kisses the corners of my lips before he speaks.

"You. I want you in my bed every night and morning. I want the late-night fucks and the early morning arguments. I want to know I can come find you at any point in the day and you will be there."

His hand trails out from the back of my head as he pulls the tie from my hair, undoing the bun as his fingers trail through the dark long strands.

"I want to wake up to this in my face every morning, and your beautiful smile. I want our son to know what it's like to have two parents that want to be with one another."

His eyes snap to mine at his last set of words.

"I want the other men on this base to know that you are mine. And not just riding my cock and filling my bed every night. I want them to know you are mine in every sense of the word. The woman I choose to be with, carry my children and... My name. I want to be with you, Y/N."